Bungou Stray Dogs Atsushi - Blog Posts

I recently discovered that if you initially draw a picture in a sketchbook, and then finish it from a computer, it turns out quite well.

pov: ur an Atsushi kinnie in a trio with an Akutagawa and Dazai kinnie, and you have to watch the exact same situation between BSD Akutagawa and Dazai play out irl

#why do akutagawa kinnies seek the love and approval of the dazai in their life so much </3

Every Atsushi kinnie needs an Akutagawa kinnie bestie 🫶

-an Atsushi kinnie currently missing their Akutagawa kinnie bestie

Atsushi Kinnie Callout - From an Atsushi Kinnie (Part 1)

I'm gonna be brutally honest here and projecting a lot so be warned fellow kinnies

1. You were taught that the worth of your life is determined by how much you help or benefit others

An important figure in your life (the orphanage “headmaster”) taught you that people who don’t help others with their existence do not deserve to live, and it would be better if they were dead.

The irony is, you only extend this belief to yourself, because you recognize that in extending it to others, you would be believing some other people do not deserve to live. And you recognize how cruel, terrible and wrong that is. Yet, you cannot see how cruel and terrible it is to yourself.

2. You have a huge savior complex

Since you believe the value of your life comes from how much you benefit others, you try to help people as much as you can. To others, it seems like you are a kind and selfless person, but deep down, you have two things motivating you:

• the suffocating fear of being unworthy of living if you aren't of any use to people around you

• the rush of "selfish” joy you feel when you have a great impact on someone, when you are the most important person to someone and are irreplaceable to them. Because these make you feel useful and worthy of living.

Because of these, you have the tendency to form codependent relationships, with you as the "giver". It ensures that someone always needs you, so you are always worthy of living. You may even become slightly manipulative, befriending and trying to become close to those who seem more in need of help, more isolated, more lonely.

Because they're more likely to need you, as desperately as you need to be needed.

3. You believe your kindness is fake, and that you are actually a selfish and terrible person

Because you help people out of the selfish motivation to make yourself feel better, so that you feel like you deserve to live more, you feel endlessly guilty. Because.. an actually kind person would help others, for others to be happy, not for themselves, right?

Additionally, since the belief that helping others gives you the permission to live was taught to you, you feel your kindness was a taught behavior as well. You feel that at your core, you are a selfish person who was just taught not to be, and that makes all the selfless actions you’ve done worthless. Maybe you approach caring for others in a calculating way: memorize their interests, check up on them, listen to them; these will make people happy.

4. Guilt is your primary emotion

Guilt for your existence, for your mistakes, for failing to help people, is the biggest driver of your emotions. Guilt controls your life, and it is an exhausting emotion to live with.

5. You care more about what’s inside than outside

You’re not concerned about other people or your appearances, reputations or social status, because how people treat others around them and their hearts is much more important to you.

6. You are stuck in the past

The belief that chains you to the cycle of guilt is one in your past. The headmaster in your life is gone now, but the flashbacks and words remain. Why is that? Is it because you became so used to them, that they kept you safe? They were all you ever knew, the only way you knew how to navigate the world. With no other guide, you are terrified of letting go of this belief, which defines your existence.

Maybe you are terrified, if you let go of this belief, you will become a terrible and selfish person. Or maybe you are scared of becoming better, because it would feel like your past never happened.

Okay thanks for reading! Will post part 2 when this gets 20+ notes :D

Atsushi Analysis - why I kin Atsushi Nakajima (and maybe why you kin him too)

From the moment I started watching Bungo Stray Dogs, I felt a huge connection to and related a lot to Atsushi, and it’s the reason he is still one of my favorite characters to this day. But reading other people’s analysis of Atsushi, though they are wonderful, I didn’t feel like they quite captured how I connected to him. So I am posting this in the hope someone will feel similarly to me and be able to relate! :D

starting with episode 1, the first scene that struck me was Atsushi’s flashbacks:

I did not grow up in an orphanage, and my past is nowhere near as terrible as Atsushi’s, but a parental figure (the ‘headmaster’ in my life) had spoken to me like this in the past, and their words continued to haunt me almost everyday, or when something triggered them. What shook me was that Atsushi’s flashbacks were almost identical to the words that would attack me often in my head.

“You’re useless.”

“Worthless.”

“Stupid.”

“You should just die.” “It would be better if you were dead.” (If you relate to this, I’m sending you the biggest virtual hug <3 no one deserves to think these thoughts, and they are so wrong.)

2. The way Atsushi hugged his legs when he was upset was exactly how I sat when I was upset.

3. The test to join the Armed Detective Agency

To save everyone from the bomb, Atsushi covered it with his own body, thinking it would kill him but protect everyone else.

At the time I watched BSD for the first time, I genuinely believed my life was worth less than others’. Therefore, as a logical choice, I would have done exactly the same thing as Atsushi. If my life was worth less than others’, then I was the logical sacrifice.

4. The worth of Atsushi’s Life

in the episode when Atsushi fights Kyouka, we find out the belief that the headmaster instilled in Atsushi: that Inconveniencing/not benefitting others means he doesn’t deserve to live, while saving (or helping) others means he deserves to live.

Simply put, Atsushi believes the worth of his life comes from how much he helps and benefits others.

and that is exactly the same belief my parental figure taught me.

By trying to save/help others, Atsushi seeks the permission to live, to exist. Maybe, if he helps just one more person, if he has a big enough impact on someone, then he’ll finally be free of the guilt he feels for existing. But it is a never ending cycle, because there’s no finish line for his race. How many people, exactly, does he have to “save” for him to be worthy of existing? He lives in never ending guilt, never ending fear, that the amount he has helped is not enough for him to live. The truth is, the number of people he saves will never be enough until he confronts his twisted belief.

5. Atsushi vs Akutagawa

this is the moment Atsushi confronts the belief he was taught that how much he helps others determines his right to live. He realizes through the injustice of Kyouka’s situation that others don’t get to decide if someone is worthy of living. Because everyone is worthy of life, including Kyouka, and so including Atsushi as well.

And watching this, I realized it with him. The ‘headmaster’ in my life didn’t get to decide how much I deserved to live. No one did. Everyone has the same right to live.

so if you related to this post, you deserve to live too. Not because you help others, because your life is valuable and precious, without you doing anything at all. <3

have a photo of my Atsushi plushie cuz I love him sm <3 thanks for reading!

BSD SPOILERS POSSIBLE BSD SPOILERS IM SORRY I DON’T KNOW HOW TO ADD CONTENT LITTLE WARNINGS FOR SPOILERS

what if because of Fyodors (possible or confirmed unsure) religious past and present, he thinks Atsushi isnt “man” enough due to his reaction to his offer to join the DOA, he see’s him more a “boy” and less than a “man” because he’s more emotional.

What if the orphanage told Atsushi that and that’s why he’s so insecure and why thinks he’s so weak, i believe there are SOME implications that the orphanage could’ve possibly been religious, and with how he was treated its possible they could’ve told him stuff like how he’s “not ready to be a man yet” because he’d was just a more emotional kid

okay thats it!! i’lll go back to drawing, #1 atsushi fan is leaving now

hiihii tiktok getting deleted take my art ! i am atsushi and also sskk number 1 fan

i was watching serial experiments lain and i thought "her hair kinda looks like atsushis" so uhm.

(ignore the random side profile) i hate it he looks like a mosquito

Guessing which Anime I‘ve been watching is not getting harder, is it?

Atsushi drawing I did on a bit of cardboard

Just a small bit of my up coming BSD soukoku one shot, "Restocking & Recharging," that makes me giggle🖤🖤

~Don't look at me with those eyes

You dazzle me

You break me down

Don't look at me with those eyes

I give you everything

Whatever... ~

Song: Impacto / Enjambre

First time posting anything here! Here are some of my bsd drawings because the hyperfixation is hitting hard and I really wanted to share them :D

some drawings from school today :3 i’m kinda eh about both of them

my goofy lil critters X3

taniatsu is cool. that’s it. that’s the post.

manga panel redraw! :3

this chapter broke me :(

here’s a drawing i forgor about. it’s the first one i ever did in my current artstyle.

he’s having a breakdown.

atsushi doodle i did :3

eeeeeee silly lil guyyyyyy

i hate when people characterize atsushi as an uwu soft boy. he is a sarcastic asshole towards akutagawa and dazai in the manga and i love that about him, silly little guy. ‘what are you, a lawnmower???’ -atsushi nakajima.

oh my god he decided to adopt a second one

Atsushi is growing up. He has bristles (due to the tiger's abilities there is a lot of it). Ryunosuke shaves Atsushi with the help of Rashomon.

Perhaps Dazai suggested this idea. Perhaps Chuuya taught Ryunosuke how to shave with a blade properly.

Chuuya definitely shaves with a blade. Dazai definitely can't be trusted with a blade.

Older and younger Atsushi :p

Non-lit version

ATSUSHI WITH A MENTALLY ILL S/O

Atsushi always gets concerned about your health and safety he just wants you to be alright and comfortable.

He noticed you bite your nails a lot and he knows it's not good to do that so he always tries to stop you from doing it but you actually never stop.

You hate to make people worry about you so you don't tell him much about how you're doing mentally. That just makes him more worried.

He really just wants you to be alright.. but you don't understand that.

He wants to get you a therapist. Although you may not be comfortable with that so he just doesn't.

He told kunikida about this, and kunikida requested that he would talk to you about it but atsushi just said that he will just find a way to deal with it because atsushi feels that would be a bit weird for you.

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There's a kitty on the loose! see his full design here

Completed AU ref for Atsushi. Been a fun AU to work with, so I made a reference sheet for him.

Request: Chuuya

As someone who's used Adobe for years to animate... I am desperately trying to figure out how to do it in CSP.

Obviously it's nothing impressive because I was just me trying to learn the programs timeline manipulation, but cute nonetheless.

I finally read the newest BSD chapter

And

I'm just gonna freak out under the cut and give my long ass ramble cause-

HOLY SHIT??? I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE THE TRANSFORMATION SCENE ANIMATED?? PRAYING IT DOESN'T GET BOTCHED! 🙏🙏

AND ALSO BRAM LIKE?? KNOWING THAT SOMETHING WAS HAPPENING TO HIM BEFORE HAND AND WARNING AYA?? HE CALLED HER PRINCESS 😭

ALSO BRAM IS DEAD?? A TRIPLE SINGULARITY? Fyodor was practically sizing Bram up in the past?? Like "Hm yes, you'll make a wonderful body some day" Both Dazai and Chuuya are on the other side of the planet and Fyodor basically teleported back to Japan and I can't stop thinking about how

Dazai told Fyodor that Atsushi was his most valuable/powerful pawn, didn't he? I think so and NOW FYODOR IS WITH HIM AND DAZAI ISN'T. MAN I'M KINDA SCARED. Fyodor and Dazai think very similarly which means that Fyodor might want to use Atsushi for something?? Dazai didn't explicitly say who his pawn was, but because of how similarly the two think, Fyodor probably guessed. Sigma and Atsushi have a few similarities (Two toned hair - Two toned eyes. White hair - White hair. Both where black and white primarily. Dazai even refers to Sigma as "The Atsushi type" C'MON!) and Fyodor was using Sigma... So how does our main character fit into his plan if at all?

I just- I can't- I have too many thoughts we'd be here for literal hours so I'm going to stop typing and sit in the corner for a while.

I'll be honest, I'm not happy with the way the first two turned out. I've actually had them done for a few days and wasn't going to post them because I wasn't happy with them.

But I realized that would go against my own personal beliefs, which is that sharing even the art we're not proud of is important. Not everything we create will be or has to be perfect.

Sure, I kind of hate the way Chuuya's face looks, (also I think I got his hat wrong) Dazai's hair and both their feet. All I can really see are what I call "the screw ups". Fortunately, that's not all there is. For example, I'm very proud of how Atsushi turned out despite the fact that he kind of resembles Beast!Atsushi... I'm also not fussy on the shots without his jacket...

This turned into a long ramble, sorry, I just wanted to show off some A Graveyard For Angels designs. I gave Chuuya a brown jacket after a lot of back and forth with the colours and Dazai's bolo tie is more blue.