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what if because of Fyodors (possible or confirmed unsure) religious past and present, he thinks Atsushi isnt “man” enough due to his reaction to his offer to join the DOA, he see’s him more a “boy” and less than a “man” because he’s more emotional.

What if the orphanage told Atsushi that and that’s why he’s so insecure and why thinks he’s so weak, i believe there are SOME implications that the orphanage could’ve possibly been religious, and with how he was treated its possible they could’ve told him stuff like how he’s “not ready to be a man yet” because he’d was just a more emotional kid

okay thats it!! i’lll go back to drawing, #1 atsushi fan is leaving now

Dead apple but everyone is still in their pajamas

I think it would be funny if everyone collectively just didnt care to change in to their work clothes for the plot of dead apple cause imagine Chuuya fighting that big ass dragon still in his dog themed pajama pants 🐶

.....what. just what. The. Fuck.

Chapter 122 is so...bruh.

Dead apple but everyone is still in their pajamas

I think it would be funny if everyone collectively just didnt care to change in to their work clothes for the plot of dead apple cause imagine Chuuya fighting that big ass dragon still in his dog themed pajama pants 🐶

Beast Atsushi :D

Full of energy

OKAY XD

PLEASE SOMEONE DRAW THIS AS ATSUSHI AND KUNIKIDA IT WOULD BE SO FUCKING FUNNY

i didn't even read it all the way lmao, i just saw the words "suffered" & "Atsushi" and immediately clicked on Atsushi XD

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Propaganda: “everyone is torturing him all the time. he is permanently inside the torment nexus. please god give this bitch a break”

Japanese BSD Character Names Translated!!!

I’ve been learning Japanese for over a year and a half now, so I thought it would be fun to look into the meanings behind some of BSD’s cast. (Which also doubles as the original authors/poets names.)

Starting with Atsushi, his name is made of three characters: 中 島 敦

The first two, composing his family name, “Nakajima,” means island in the center of a pond/river. So essentially, “island pond”.

The kanji in his first name: 敦 can refer to either industry or the quality of being kind/gentle.

So all together, his name would be “Kind island pond.”

Like most last names, his probably refers to the location where his family is from. Meanwhile the first is just a typical Japanese name with a sweet meaning behind it.

Atsushi with more non-human features. Atsushi with reflective eyes that creep out (some of) the ADA. Atsushi with pupils that contract into slits like a cat's when the area is bright. Atsushi with small fangs, canines sharper than a normal persons. Atsushi with heightened senses, who picks up on small details that even Ranpo can't. Atsushi who has naturally more animalistic behaviors and movements. Atsushi who shows affection in strange ways, like headbutting or slow blinking. Atsushi who's ability is wholly a part of him, ingrained in his very being.

Atsushi photos fro yew

Not normally where I post my art but I finished a rough design for Atsushi in my Love Can End Even This Pain fanfic, an AU both lovingly and very uncreatively dubbed the Mentor!Chuuya AU where Chuuya finds and takes Atsushi in instead of Dazai

Below the cut is my re-written design notes and some other thoughts I have on him in this!

Design Notes:

-Atsushis black streaks are way more obvious in this AU than they are in canon

-His hair in general is also both fluffier and longer because he’s a tiger why wouldn’t he be blessed with the floof and I also just like drawing the floof

-Atsushis color palette leans into more colors while also still being pretty muted. In future plans he will have an outfit with his classic black and white combo, but that’s a spoiler so gotta wait for that one ^^

-Chuuya stitched a little tiger decoration on his sleeve for shits and giggles when he noticed how much Atsushi wore that shirt specifically (note; this builds on my hc for Chuuya that he knows how to sew from his time in Suribachi with the Sheep; I’ll expand on that when I draw Chuuya design!)

-I hc Atsushi having some sensory issues, so his clothes as a whole are pretty baggy so they don’t rub against his skin. I also hc Atsushi as being someone who likes to have himself pretty covered when given the choice, so he gets a shirt underneath his short sleeve one

-Probably me projecting my own love of boots onto him, but Atsushi almost always wears a pair of military style boots. In my defense, they’re pretty practical for his fighting style

-He keeps pocket watch on him! This is due to his past at the orphanage and a little something I’m excited to write in the fic that happens later on

Gen Thoughts on him:

-In this, Atsushi is more skilled in fighting than in canon because of Chuuya training him. So, he’s also more muscular too

-In one of the chapters I touch on Atsushi having binge eating disorder, and this was one of my major hcs of his. His past really builds up on this, as well as his larger than life appetite. As Atsushi recovers from it, I imagine he would be more of a snacker. Just always eating something small while still having his regular meals. If I’m being honest, I don’t intend for him to fully recover from his general food anxiety since a part of the hc is him not understanding when he actually is hungry, so he is muscular but also skinnier than normal

-I’m also going to be making him a lot less naive. His environment would shift his morals pretty drastically imo, with them becoming more similar to Chuuya in a ‘I won’t fight unless you pick one with me, but start it and I won’t hesitate’ way. I will, however, be keeping his no killing moral code in place for the most part. In general, Atsushi condones violence more than he does in canon though

-Very tiny and another general hc of mine but he loves music. Almost always listening to it and has heard some of every genre. Several pairs of earbuds and headphones no doubt

-In case you haven’t read the fic yet (please do ik I’m slow to update but I do hold a lot of love for it), Chuuya gives Atsushi a white tiger plush named Shiro. Atsushi likes to hug him every night because the plush reminds him he’s not alone. Atsushi will also sometimes stare at Shiro while talking to Byakko in his head. Byakko does not appreciate being visualized as a toy, but Atsushi figures out how to brush him off pretty quickly.

This with Dazai and Atsushi

here's something i've actually said that could probably be a solid incorrect quote:

character a: *sick with a cold*

character b: *brings them cold medicine* you took one pill this morning, right? you can take one more now that it's the evening

character a: i can take as many as i want?

character b: no, that's not what i said-

character a: hAND THOSE OVER

character b: no-

character a: I WANNA FEEL THE FIFTH DIMENSION. I WANNA SEE SOUND. I WANNA HEAR COLOR.

character b: nO-

I really don't think Akutagawa forgot who Atsushi was. When he said "Who the hell are you?" I think he was referring to how moments ago Atsushi yelled at him that it's no use. Akutagawas number one source of respect for Atsushi comes from that unyielding determination of his, to Akutagawa, it was his number one defining quality. It was what made Atsushi, Atsushi. Now he's seeing that same person yell at how it's no use while Akutagawa now has the capability to fight back, and Atsushi was groveling on the ground in front of Dostoyevsky moments ago. He doesn't feel like the Atsushi we all grew to know and love throughout this whole series. Akutagawa asking that question jot literally, but in the rhetorical "Where has the quality that made you, gone? Who are you without that blinding determination that fights even in futility?" Besides, when I see one of my friends go through a drastic change, I'll jokingly ask them "Well who are you?" to tease them that they changed a lot. So when I read that, I automatically went, "Oh, Akutagawa is seeing how much Atsushi has changed since he left, and that's just how he expressed it." I don't know, with Akutagawas personality, I don't think any effects of vampirism can erase the people around him, at least not entirely. Maybe it made him forget some of their nuances, but the person entirely? Well, I don't think he'd really be Akutagawa anymore. Besides, you can't tell me he'd forget Atsushi when their abilities fought on sight and when Akutagawa died for him. That's a bond no amount of weird ability shenanigans can destroy.

I should be doing one last edit and working on my AU, I'm not.

What am I doing instead?

Making an Atsushi Animatic

New headcanon that Atsushi isn't actually a fan of his birthdays. Especially right after he leaves the orphanage. I feel like on his b-days there things would get extra bad. The only good thing is that the other kids would avoid him instead of joining in on the harassment from the staff, and even then they'd avoid him like the plague, giving him glances that screamed they were disgusted and scared of him. The staff would double down instead. Because of this Atsushi probably didn't mention his birthday to anyone, and was hesitant about it when any of the other ADA members asked. Ranpo ofc knew, and the first time Atsushis b-day passed Atsushi walked in to see a piece of candy from Ranpos stash on his desk. Now everyone knows when it is because of that, but the most they do is take a bit of the workload off of him (AKA get Dazai to do his own work, which he doesn't argue against aside from some complaining that day), and put something on his desk, because they know celebrations make him uncomfortable.

Chapter 8 of my fanfic is out! If you haven't read it before it's basically bsd but if Chuuya found Atsushi instead of Dazai!

Edit: If you want to read this you will need an account! I had to put everything to members only to prevent scrappers. Sorry for the inconvenience!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATSUSHI

I just finished writing this fanfic for him! It's a little sskk fluff where the two meet up for Atsushis birthday and Akutagawa gets him a gift! Sadly it's a little bit rushed since I didn't find out about our resident cats birthday until last night, but I think it still turned out well?

I have brought to you headcanons for Chuuya, Atsushi, and Dazai!

WARNING: These headcanons are about eating disorders and unhealthy relationships with food in general. I am not a professional and have not had any ED's myself, so these headcanons are based solely off of my research and conversations I've had with loved ones who have experienced them. Please seek professional help if you struggle with any eating disorders and proceed with caution.

EDIT: added all the tags I forgot

1. Atsushi has Binge Eating Disorder. Since the orphanage restricted his food so much, he eats uncontrollably a lot and tends to starve himself a bit in between binges. Kyouka knows and tries to help Atsushi, but I don't actually think a lot of the ada members know. Atsushi hides it well and Kyouka respects Atsushis wishes to keep it under wraps. Dazai probably thinks something is up but isn't sure, and Ranpo probably knows about it, but neither say anything to avoid making Atsushi uncomfortable or nervous. Atsushi doesn't really eat in front of people either. The only exception is snacking when he gets super bad hunger panes (I'm talking not going days with eating little to nothing, usually that happens because of mission). Even then he will only binge or really eat in general until he's alone.

2. Chuuya used to have ARFID (Avoidant/Restrictive Food Intake Disorder). Because of him living in the slums until he was 15, he got used to ignoring hunger panes and limiting how much he was eating because of a lack of food, so when he was accepted into the Port Mafia, he brought those habits with him, and would only eat a certain amount at specific times, usually when he was alone. He probably only ate certain foods like bread, canned products, mostly things that wouldn't expire or would provide a lot of energy without eating much. Koyou, Dazai, and the Flags all helped him work through it so he doesn't have it by the time Canon rolls around and is careful about maintaining a good relationship with food for their sakes. Koyou also checks in on him whenever they meet up.

3. Not really ED related and I've seen this one a lot, but Dazai has days where he has a food aversion because of his depression. The thought of or seeing food makes him sick, or sometimes it's just days where he doesn't feel hungry at all. The days range from being able to eat if its his canned crab, to only drinking a glass or two of whiskey if anything (I imagine that whiskey is a kind of comfort drink to him because of the days where he drank at bar lupin with oda and ango), to refusing to eat and drink anything, whether it's his safe/comfort food or drink or not. Kunikida knows this and it's the main reason he checks in on Dazai to see if he's eaten. I don't think Kunikida is entirely aware of his safe food and drink, though, so if it's one of those days, Kunikida will just take a lot of time gently urging Dazai to eat something. Ranpo also probably knows about it and will sometimes throw a piece of candy Dazais way on those days. The combined efforts usually convince Dazai to eat a bit of canned crab, though it's always alone. Chuuya also knows and will get on Dazai about not eating. He'll also prep some canned crab and keeps a bottle of whiskey at his place just in case. Sure they're not healthy at all but it's better than nothing. The food aversion days were more frequent and worse back when he was still in the PM, and he's gotten better with them now. Though they do still happen every now and then of course.

Fun (not really) Fact: Atsushi being kicked is made WORSE by the fact that he was still a minor by Japanese law. Up until 2022, the legal age of adulthood in Japan was 20, not 18. From what I know, the first chapter or bsd was written in around 2012. MEANING Atsushi wouldn't have aged out for another 2 years AND that the Headmaster really did set him up for death or at the very least an equally shitty situation. Giving him nothing about the real world, the whole bounty situation that you can't tell me that the headmaster didn't know about, AND making it so that if not for the ADA finding him, Atsushi probably would've been sent to the police to head back to another orphanage or foster home that would probably abuse him too because of the tiger when he was found IF he hadn't starved to death by then.

What if Atsushi knows sign language?? Like in the orphanage the kids would use it to communicate sometimes without the staff knowing, so even if Atsushi wasn't involved he gradually learned sign language to find out where to sneak food, good hiding spots if something happens, and how to get away easily if you do something. He knows how to sign fast too cause the kids would cut deals with Atsushi that if he used the fact that he was much scrawnier than the other kids to do something, then they would split something, mostly food though. So he can sign fast, fluently, and easily understand it even if it's rushed or unclear to most.

Akutagawa: Have you thought about not being such a crybaby, weretiger?

Atsushi: Have you thought about not looking like an E-boy with a subscription to Victorian Hot Topic?