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ATSUSHI ANGST!! #2
(Uyarılar: Yeme bozukluğu, kendine zarar verme, shin soukoku, soukoku,Dazai)
Atsushi: "Aha- Sadece soğuk algınlığı. Ayrıca kedi değil kaplanım!"
ATSUSHI POV:
Dazai-san anlamış gibi.. Umarım anlamamışdır.. Siparişleri verdik, yerken Yetimhane Müdürünün seslerini duydum "Bu yemeği haketmiyorsun! İşe yaramaz." Kafamda yankılanıyordu.
Atsushi: "2 dakikaya gelirim"
Hemen tuvalete doğru koştum.
⚠️ (Başlıyor)
Klozetin başına durdum ve ellerimi boğazıma götürdüm, zorla da olsa yediğim herşeyi kusmuştum. Elimi ve ağzımı yıkandıktan sonra aceleye diğerlerinin yanına gittim.
⚠️ (Bitti)
Herkesin yemeği bitirdiğini gördüm. O kadar uzun mu sürmüştü? Boş verdim. Soru sorulmasın diye aklıma gelen ilk şeyi söyledim.
Atsushi: "Dazai-san, görev dosyasını alabilir miyiz? "
Dazai: "Akutagawa'ya verdim bile~!"
Atsushi: "Tamam o zaman!"
Akutagawa: "Artık gitsek mi?"
Atsushi: "Evet, oldukça geç oldu. Bence biz yavaştan gidelim"
Akutagawa onayladıktan sonra, kaldığımız yere doğru yürümeye başladık.
(Ehe, aklıma geldikçe yeni bölüm atcam:3)
ATSUSHI ANGST!!
(Uyarılar: Yeme bozukluğu, kendine zarar verme, shin soukoku, soukoku,Dazai)
Atsushi ve Akutagawa Dazai sayesinde tekrar bir görevde birlikte çalışıyorlardı. Görevleri gereği bir otelde birlikte kalacaklardı. Otel hafif lüks, tek yataklı bir oteldi. Görev bilgilerini aldılar ve otele gittiler.
ATSUSHI POV:
Gerçekten Akutagawa ile birlikte mi kalacaktım? Daha kötüsü olamazdı. Otele girer girmez banyoya girdim.
⚠️ (başlıyor)
Cebimden bir bıçak çıkardım, eski bandajları kenara attım ve bıçak ile elimi kesmeye başladım.
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11, daha fazla yaparsam Akutagawa'nın şüpheleneceğini düşündüm, kanları temizleyip ve bandajlayıp çıktım.
⚠️ (bitti)
Akşam yemeğine Chuuya ve Dazai ile buluşacaktık. Sıcak havaya rağmen ince uzun kollu bir bluz giydim ve n'olur n'olmaz diye ceket aldım.
AKUTAGAWA POV:
Jinko'nun bu sıcak havaya rağmen uzun şeyler giymesi beni şüphelendirdi. Çok sorgulamadım ve sadece bir tişört ve normal eşofman giydim. Akşam yemeğine Dazai ve Chuuya ile buluşacaktık. Mekana gittik ve oturduk. Dazai, Chuuya ile flörtleşiyordu. Biz gelince durdular.
Kimsenin POV:
Dazai, Atsushi'nin uzun kollu giyinmesine ve üstüne üstlük ceket giymesine şaşırmış gibi görünüyordu.
Dazai: "At-su-shi-kun~! Neden kısa kollu giymedin? Hava soğuk değil ve kedilerin tüylerinin soğuktan koruduğunu duymuştum~!"
(Eğer severseniz burdan devam edicem, sevmezseniz Wattpad'den devam ederim:3)
(Wattpad: Fan_Of_Angst veya Atsushi:3)
Every Atsushi kinnie needs an Akutagawa kinnie bestie 🫶
-an Atsushi kinnie currently missing their Akutagawa kinnie bestie
There's always a moment of epiphany where i remember i am an artist & can draw anything i want. |COMMISSIONS OPEN!!|
More beast memes cause i miss them 💔
(Also you cant tell me this isn’t something they would do)
bsd ch. 121.5 - a mysterious thing called 'the heart' yeah it was a good chapter i liked it (´꒳`)
I NEED THIS TO BE CANON THIS IS SO FUNNY
headcanon atsushi’s ability the tiger does not know what to do when it likes someone
like in general atsushi is bad with knowing what to do with the ppl he likes and showing affection – like he tries to mimic others but he himself is still working on something that feels natural if that makes sense
but the tiger
the tiger is far worse becuz the only positive thing it can associate with positive emotions is food so every time it gets closer to the full moon the tiger starts whispering in the back of his mind that he should eat dazai and kunikida
then kyouka and junichiro
and ranpo and yosano and fukuzawa and kenji and naomi and haruno
at first atsushi panics (naturally) worries he’s a cannibal, thinks the tiger hates the agency, panics more, especially after dead apple when he and the tiger gained an understanding of each other and he realized that the tiger was protecting him so he’s like why r u trying to kill the agency members
but gradually he realizes that actually the tiger just doesn’t know how to deal with positive emotions and yeah
anyway:
atsushi: dazai-san is so nice to me :)
the tiger: yeah :)
the tiger: we should eat him
atsushi: NO????
//
kunikida, patting atsushi’s head: good job on ur report atsushi
the tiger: use his arm against him and eat him
kunikida: atsushi u look weird are u feeling unwell
atsushi: hahaha dont worry about no weird thoughts here hahahaha
//
atsushi, literally just working:
the tiger: the small candy one eats a lot of sugar. he would taste sweet. Eat him.
atsushi: NO??????????????
ranpo, looking up: i’ve actually always wondered what i would taste like-
//
and so on
is this incredibly dumb? yes but is it also funny, yes
atsushi realizes he likes akutagawa because at some point when he spots him the tiger immediately starts wondering what he’d taste like
atsushi, sees akutagawa: oh there’s that basta-
the tiger: i bet he’d taste really nice
atsushi:
atsushi: oh
atsushi: oh no
//
akutagawa: how did you figure out you liked me?
atsushi: i couldn’t stop thinking about what you’d taste like
akutagawa, blushing: oh-
atsushi: yeah it was insane how much the tiger wanted to kill and eat u
akutagawa, slightly confused and horrified: oh-
//
eventually as atsushi learns to deal with his feelings so does the tiger but unfortunately it’s still an animal so its more like
atsushi: dazai’s so nice :)
the tiger: yeah :)
the tiger: lets hunt a deer for him
atsushi: no??????????????
//
kunikida, petting atsushi’s hair: good job on the job atsushi
atsushi, not thinking about what he’s saying: kunikida i like u so much should i kill a bear for u?
kunikida, slightly confused, slightly flattered: uhh no???????
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atsushi, at the store: lemme just get something for kyouka-
the tiger: we shall hunt until we find something suitabl-
atsushi: no.
//
atsushi: im sorry i transformed last night, snuck out of ur place, hunted down a goose, broke back in, left it in the living room table, and then climbed on top of u, still a tiger, and then fell asleep and only transformed back now, after u had to use rashomon to get tiger me off u
akutagawa, dead tired: yeah i don’t know what the appropriate response is but ur cleaning the bloo-
akutagawa: wait wtf do u mean theres a dead goose in the living room
atsushi: do u not like goose :(
akutagawa: that is NOT the issue here
//
yeah
literally me except I don’t identify as a girl
I CRIED THIS CHAPTER MADE ME CRY
bsd ch. 121.5 - a mysterious thing called 'the heart' yeah it was a good chapter i liked it (´꒳`)
~Don't look at me with those eyes
You dazzle me
You break me down
Don't look at me with those eyes
I give you everything
Whatever... ~
Song: Impacto / Enjambre
First time posting anything here! Here are some of my bsd drawings because the hyperfixation is hitting hard and I really wanted to share them :D
This is so sweet, i love them so much...
#We love camping
i hate when people characterize atsushi as an uwu soft boy. he is a sarcastic asshole towards akutagawa and dazai in the manga and i love that about him, silly little guy. ‘what are you, a lawnmower???’ -atsushi nakajima.
‘sskk this!’ ‘atsulucy that!’ ‘akulucy this!’ okay, but what about atsuakulucy? poly ships solve all problems. instead of fighting, we just kiss.
i got a few details wrong in the post above, the sheep only ever viewed chuuya as a weapon and it took shirase seeing chuuya getting beaten up in stormbringer to truly see him as a human being. the scene with yuan in fifteen was more of a ‘hey, we like being able to use this person as a weapon’. yuan isn’t an important character and doesn’t do much for the plot, i don’t understand the hate towards her because she’s irrelevant. i also got a bit wrong about dazai in that scene, he finds it stupid that chuuya doesn’t notice that the sheep are manipulating him. he’s not jEaLoUs. the general sentiment still stands though. i will edit this later. oh, i also added tags so people will see this follow-up because past lou is fucking stupid.
rant #4
can some (not all) bsd fans stop hating on yuan for just FUCKING TOUCHING CHUUYA’S ARM??? especially since she walked in hugging onto shirase’s arm as well. it doesn’t have to be taken as romantic, i personally see the sheep as chuuya’s found family. that touch was literally just a ‘hey, can you not force my best friend into joining your organization?’ (also dazai wasn’t ‘jealous’ in that scene. it was ‘oh shit. this girl’s getting in the way of my plan’.) it’s SO fucking stupid that if a female character (it’s always a female character) is even remotely close to dazai, akutagawa, chuuya, or atsushi people hate her because she’s ‘gEtTiNg In ThE wAy Of SsKk/SkK’. there could be a scene where a female character is like ‘hey, i’m really close friends with dazai but we have no romantic interest in each other’ and the fandom would still hate her. with all the disrespect i can manage, eat dirt if that’s the only reason you hate yuan/higuchi/lucy. if you have a reason you’re willing to explain for hating them, please send it to me. this has been lou, your very pissed genderfluid lesbian host. thank you for reading this. i know it’s a spinoff of my last rant but i feel like it needed to be said. thank you for reading if you did.
rant #4
can some (not all) bsd fans stop hating on yuan for just FUCKING TOUCHING CHUUYA’S ARM??? especially since she walked in hugging onto shirase’s arm as well. it doesn’t have to be taken as romantic, i personally see the sheep as chuuya’s found family. that touch was literally just a ‘hey, can you not force my best friend into joining your organization?’ (also dazai wasn’t ‘jealous’ in that scene. it was ‘oh shit. this girl’s getting in the way of my plan’.) it’s SO fucking stupid that if a female character (it’s always a female character) is even remotely close to dazai, akutagawa, chuuya, or atsushi people hate her because she’s ‘gEtTiNg In ThE wAy Of SsKk/SkK’. there could be a scene where a female character is like ‘hey, i’m really close friends with dazai but we have no romantic interest in each other’ and the fandom would still hate her. with all the disrespect i can manage, eat dirt if that’s the only reason you hate yuan/higuchi/lucy. if you have a reason you’re willing to explain for hating them, please send it to me. this has been lou, your very pissed genderfluid lesbian host. thank you for reading this. i know it’s a spinoff of my last rant but i feel like it needed to be said. thank you for reading if you did.
ranting part three
why do some (not all) bsd fans hate the female characters so much? i don’t get it. like, everybody hates teruko for just DOING HER JOB because she was fighting sigma. then people say, ‘oh, i don’t like her because her childish personality is annoying not because she’s a woman just TRYING TO DO HER JOB’ and then their favorite character is ranpo. or, people will hate a female character because she ‘gets in the way of their favorite ship’. if you haven’t seen this before i’m happy for you, but an example is ‘lucy gets in the way of sskk!!’ seriously? like, seriously? that is so fucking stupid. (saying this as a sskk/taniatsu shipper) just ship whatever you want and let that character exist. and to those who deny this, if lucy was a man and akutagawa was a woman you’d hate akutagawa because she ‘gets in the way of atsulucy’ there’s also the ‘oh, her only personality is liking a man!!’ when we were first introduced to katai his only personality trait was liking a woman and the fandom still loved him. i don’t like that in any character, but i’m willing to put up with it if the author fleshes out the character’s personality later. i absolutely despise the way this fandom treats female characters, yeah, some of their writing isn’t the best but they’re still necessary to the plot. this has been lou. i’m sorry for all the rants i’ve been doing recently, but i’m pissed about a lot of things. thank you for coming to my ted talk.
