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✮⋆˙ THE ONLY EXCEPTION.

𓂃 ࣪˖ ཐིཋྀ LIFE EMBODIMENT! Dazai!

X DEATH EMBODIMENT! Chuuya!

⁺‧₊˚ ཐིཋྀ ˚— SUMMARY: Everything was the same for the two bodies, one had a curse of living and the other had the curse of death.

Every reincarnation of chuuya was him losing his loved ones then hisself, and on dazais side of the story, he does not reincarnate. He rots in the boundaries of living trying to fill the gaping hole in his chest but everytime he gets close to another human being, they face misfortune that does not include death.

It is bad both ways. The people around dazai gets corrupted by the living and chuuyas dies on his hands.

𓂃 ࣪˖ ཐིཋྀ — ANGST + FLUFF (?) + ALTERNATE UNIVERSE

A/N: can you guys tell i dont know how to get more color fonts in tumblr? I genuinely don't know how people get grey or pastel colored texts..(－‸ ლ) also the title is from the song, "the only exception" by paramore! Anyways, enjoy the soukoku — <3

Extra note! : i decided not to write what i usually write, gothic romance.. But you never know🙏

(i also just broke my leg and English isn't my first language so please excuse my grammer..)

also NOT!! PROOFREAD.

—˚₊‧⁺⋆ WARNINGS! : Blood, Death, Swearing, Alcohol

Most people that lives in the world believes that reincarnations did not exist, but chuuya did. He believed it since he has experienced it himself, in every universe he was always reincarnating as his self but in different universes with different outcomes. And every outcome was never good, he always had to lose somebody or himself, in every universe he loses somebody, it was either the flags, the sheep, dazai or more..in every universe someone is always dying. And that someone is someone he cares about.

Reincarnation after reincarnation, his memory was still there.. The memory of his past lives, he lost hope that he truly did not wanted to get close with anyone again. Everytime chuuya died, He wished that he would finally reincarnate in a universe that he belonged in.

Every waking day of his life felt like dread but he tries to make the best out of it, his personality never changes. He was still the sarcastic guy he is, but just more distant..

Another stake to his heart and caskets were served once again, this was the end of chuuyas other life. And he will reincarnate into another one once again, it was a never ending agonizing cycle.

As he reincarnates all over again, same story same everything. He escapes the lab through his brother verlaine, joins the sheep then join the port mafia. Chuuya avoided mostly everyone though, not getting too close with anyone as always. But as he met dazais snarky face again, he felt the same as others. Someway somehow he knew that dazai would die due to him but he ignored it.

"Ugh. Do i really have to work with this kid?" Dazai says while rolling his eyes

"who the hell are ya callin' a kid?"

✮₊⊹₊⋆ ☠︎︎ ⋆₊ ⊹✮

Mission after mission, dazai and chuuya spend their time together, dazai wanted to learn more about chuuya, in his eyes, chuuya was more human than he could ever be. He was drawn to his aura and how perceptive chuuya was. (due to how many times he has reincarnated.)

Chuuya was drawn to dazai as well since he seemed like he had no affect on chuuyas 2nd ability, which was being the embodiment of death. Dazai was alive and all teasing as always that chuuya missed the feeling of spending time with someone.. Even though it was dazai, the person that made his head hot, he found comfort in the way dazai was.

Years passes by, they both found comfort in eachother, within each banter was a hint of care, and dazai found something to live for.. For atleast a certain period of time. And it was chuuya, chuuya was unreadable to him, chuuya was like an anomaly, something extraterrestrial. Which made dazai want chuuya more, he wanted to live for chuuya and for chuuya specifically.

The two of them just had a connection in this universe thay chuuya couldn't decipher, why? Dazai was the only person that believed that he was human, that mattered to him alot.

The both of them currently just finished a mission and they both just sit down on a field of grass, talking and just bullying each other as always.

"Don't talk crap about my height when im still growin' jackass." chuuya snarked back at dazais comments about his height.

"And when will that magically happen?" dazai chuckled, chuuya glares at him and sighs and mutters out — "soon. I swear."

Dazai smirks and moves closer to chuuya, his face close chuuyas, chuuya just glares at him with a faint pink tint on the ends of his ears.

"you know, you're very hot headed and weird."

"what the hell does that mean?!" chuuya asks in an offended way.

"But that's what makes me love you." dazai smiles softly at chuuya before pulling away.

Chuuya looks at him with a raised brow and replies back, "ew, that's gross man!"

Dazai laughs back at his reaction. The reaction that he seemed to feel weird towards to. The feeling that bubbles up in his stomach that he found uncomfortable but exciting, chuuya had always standed out of the rest that dazai knew that he was— The only exception.

⋆｡‧₊°♱༺𓆩❦︎𓆪༻♱༉‧₊˚.

Chuuya and dazai balanced out eachother perfectly, they matched eachothers personality in an unexpected way. And thats why they're always hanging out after missions.

Chuuya bought some ice cream for the both of them, they played some arcade games and then went on a walk in the forests of yokohama.

Dazai stared at chuuya the whole time as they ate their ice cream. Dazai had the same feeling again, something bubbling up in his stomach. He wasn't sure of the feeling since he has never quite experienced it before but as he thinks about the last "dates" him and chuuya have been going on, it hit him. He has a fucking crush on the chuuya nakahara..but it wasn't a biggie for him, he did confess that he loved him from the start.. But he wanted him madly. A graze of chuuyas hand already sent him to the moon...

Chuuya looks at dazai and catches him staring, dazai locks eyes with him and smiles warmly while eating the ice cream. Chuuya felt warm.. Like it was the first time he has ever experienced life, dazai had no effects of chuuya and neither did chuuya to dazais.

The more and more time passes by, the more desperate they got. Chuuya felt more attracted to dazais demeanor and dazai felt more attracted to chuuyas mannerism.

There was just something that made dazai lose his breath from chuuya, to his way of combat and to the way he even replies back to banter, dazai felt more intrigued.. From the way chuuya patches dazai up with soft and gentle touches and the eye contact they always gave each other.. Drove dazai insane.

Everything felt out of hand for the both of them, dazai was smitten and chuuya was embarrassed, they both swore it was just a crush and they were both indenial about it.

Chuuya has lived through many universes but in this one.. In this one he felt something. No body was dying when dazai was around, and chuuya wanted to keep it that way.

In dazais case, he felt like something was wromg with him, like he was just alone with nobody understanding him like the way he understood people. He saw death as just an extension of life and that's why he wanted to die so badly, because he could not just die through natural causes, but as many times he tried to die, he couldn't.

One day, chuuya wanted to reject the feeling that was lingering in him, the feeling of wanting dazai. And that was the worse decision of his life. He decided to distance hisself away from dazai that dazai got curious.. "did i do something to piss him off? Why is he just randomly ignoring me?.." dazai thought.

As time distanced the two, everything went back to normal, chuuya wanted to protect dazai by just distancing himself from him, chuuya knew that his deathly quirk wouldn't hurt dazai but he was still wary. The both of them slowly lost connections that led to dazai leaving the port mafia and bombing chuuyas car— "god damnit. Ugh.. great."

As the two distance theirselves, chuuya tries to take another shot in getting close to people even though he knew the consequences but still.. Cadavers scattered his soul.

Distance took a toll on dazai, he felt connected to chuuya like he was his soulmate, they were one soul in 2 different bodies, that which made the both of them somewhat connected.

Years and years passes by and melancholy filled the hearts of both of the 2 men, dazai had already tried to commit suicide numerous times.. And time after time.. It finally worked.

His body was found floating unconscious in a deep lake, bricks and his wallet was found in his coats pocket. The police investigates the scene and this eventually reaches chuuya, his heart stopped at the news, dazai was the only person he cared about during the time.

His eyes were wide as he gets the news from a phone call through his akutagawa and he clenches his fist, "i.. I understand.. Yes."

"a picture of you was found in his wallet.." akutagawa mentions before chuuya hangs up. he felt numb. he wanted to scream since thats how he expresses pain but he couldn't. He already knew the feeling of losing who he cares about, why does he feel so Different?

He covers his mouth and a cold sweat dripped down his back, he felt regret. He should've never distanced hisself fron dazai, he wished he could've atleast confessed his feelings. The only person who stayed alive with him that he cared about died because he thought distancing hisself would do any good.

He would never forgive himself, but in every universe, he forgave dazai.. Since he was the only exception.

BONUS! :: a bouquet was in chuuyas arms as he walks aroumd the graveyard, visiting the grave of an old friend. Dazai osamus. He leans down and offers the bouquet of flowers, sitting down with his hand in his coats pocket, he stares at dazais name and he smiles softly and chuckles, "you know.. I take back what i said.. I didn't mean it. I swear. I love you too, samu."

He says as he takes out a pistol out of the pocket of his coat, "i hope i meet ya again, i swear i'll treasure you more." he says as he points the pistol to his head and pulling the trigger.

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idk why i drew this🥀 skk, post corruption, and elf was on my brain and my stupid brain pooped out ts (i guess the skk brainrot took over because i blacked out🤷‍♂️)

small wip of a comic i made js because of how much i liked the line💔💔🥀

doodled dazai in idwtbamg artstyle idk how to feel abt it tho

Wip idk how backgrounds work but working on it

NOOO I FORGOT NY WATERMARK

uh gay gay homosexual gay sorry for not posting for a whilr

WIP of skk 🥀🥀 might finish might not

hez playing Princezz Tycoon on roblox

I love when 15 skk act like normal teenagers <333

don't think what will fit man.

size difference

so sorry for inactive i just finished my finals but we are so back now 🤘

I just got Netflix and little fujo astrid would like to know if there is any yaoi to goon to 🙏 🙏 little astrid is hungry please answer 🌾 anyone plz plz plz pmzzkzhdhs

REPOST OF MY POE ART THAT IBE REPOSTED EVERY YEAR ON POES BDAY FOR THE PAST 2 YEARSSS

I am aware that I have already posted this but it's a tradition so I had to again. sorry.

little(r) me really cooked with this one

anyway- year 3/? COMPLETE!! ☆

poe has always been my fave and always will be

hopefully he spends today with his dumb twink annoying ahh boyfriend (kidding I love ranpo) and HOPEFULLY ranpos fatass doesn't consume all the cake. (he def will) (Karl is silently judging them because he's HOMOPHOBIC 💔💥)

i hc that mushitaro made the cake because these gays can't cook for shit (hes not beating the allegations either but he's got better shit to do #girlboss) and he spends the whole day drinking heavily

hes happy to spend the day with the gang though. So is poe and ranpo AGHHH I LOVE THEM WAAAAA

anyway

happy bday poe!!

peace ✌

hi (blasting will wood and wearing a bsd shirt waiting for mutuals to magically appear out of thin air plz I need more moots 🙏🙏 unless you're Brenda lmao. Brenda GET OUT 💯💥)

QUESTION TIME!!

based off my account, which colour, animal and show would I be???

just curious. tell me in my inbox!!

BSD FANS STAY

gang, I'm stuck. I DESPERATELY need bsd high school fic recommendations!!!!! before I get a million sukokou replies, it can involve that ship, but I'd like if it had other ships too, like ranpoe, fyolai, ranpoe, mushimizou (rare), ranpoe, atsulucy, ranpoe, mar..thorne..? (whatever Margaret x hawthorne is), ranpoe, etc. GUYS PLEASE ANSWER!

young ranpoe art!!

isn't ranpo just so silly

FYOLAI IN MY STYLE o(^o^)o

made 'em androgynous 👍

SUPER COOL INTRODUCTION

real name: astrid (BOOORING)

preferred nickname(s): asie, willofthewood, astro-turf, 🅈🄾🅄 🄳🄾🄽'🅃 🅆🄰🄽🅃 🅃🄾 🅂🄴🄴 🄼🅈 🄳🄰🅁🄺 🅂🄸🄳🄴, alpha

nationality: ENGLAND 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿 🍻

pronouns: she/her but I do not care tbh 🥶

music taste: WILL WOOD, TALLY HALL, LEMON DEMON, THAT HANDSOME DEVIL, roar, TV girl, WILL WOOD, Tyler the creator, WILL WOOD, Freddie dredd, more.

clothing: anything that society call me emo for wearing (so basically anything alt) (emos are FIRE 🔥 🔥 💯)

age: classified (under 18, be nice)

mbti: infp 🔥 (same as my glorious twink poe)

posting times: chaotic, sometimes 10 times daily, other times I disappear for a few months

fandoms: bungo stray dogs, sk8, yuri on ice, kuroshitsuji, sonic, Sally face, garfield but specifically the 1990s animation/comic series, danganronpa thh (IM NOT WEIRD ABT IT I SWEAR), smiling friends, vocaloid/utau etc, will wood (is that a fandom??), that guy who pushes balloons with faces down steps on tiktok

favourite colour (its a mandatory question): deep red/any red that isn't pastel because pastel red SUCKS ♥

ofc I can draw things that aren't in my fandoms, but STRICTLY NO NSFW 😾

so uh

follow me if u like any of that stuff, I will stalk ur account if u do (bribery)

this is how you will feel if you follow:

woah thumb reveal 🤯🤯🤯

bye bye gang (FOLLOWMEFOLOWNEUXPZ)

CHALLANGE

i have no idea what I want to draw. SO, I want you guys to send me a picture of your oc(s) or a character you like from ant show and I'll choose one at random to draw and post! submit the pictures in the section called 'silly little questions' on my profile. bsd characters are encouraged, but not mandatory!

gotta thank Beyoncé 💞

please don't pick ranposano, I hate this ship but yk. WE GANG 💜

gotta thank Beyoncé 💞

ranpo art! thank you, tumblr, for butchering the quality and turning him sideways (grr)

i have a headcannon that he hates shoes and avoids wearing them whenever possible. anyways, here you go

feed off this for a while, I'm tired.

My fave bsd characters are Ranpo and Chuuya!

short Kings 🔥

nikolai bsd art!!!

I'm experimenting with art styles and i think this one is my overall favourite. I'm not sure why, I just think it's pleasing to look at. anyway, in case you voted on the poll, this is NOT the result, just a little doodle I did ages ago (4 days). Go vote on my poll now!!

HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY RANPO MY DEAR SKRUNKLEY BABY

IM SO SORRY FOR BEING LATE BUT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH RANPO YOU ARE MY LIFE AND SOUL I EVER SO SINCERELY APOLOGISE FOR BEING LATE JUST KNOW HOW MUCH I APORECIATE AND LOVE YOU MWA MWA WAAAAAA 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

ANITHER BSD THING

Lucy Montgomery is my favorite bsd charecter. I just think she's neat

bonus points for it being a guild member 👍

My favorite character Akutagawa:3 ik it’s pretty common but I love his deep character and seeing his interactions play out. Him and Atsushi (platonic or not) have an interesting design and dynamic, Akutagawa and Dazai’s dynamic always makes me think, along with his and Kyouka’s. I could also never get bothered by the mention of him and Gin <33 I’m a rly indecisive person but I like Akutagawa a lot so I at least think he’s my favorite lol thanks for reading this rant on why I love him :>

(Also Kajii is a close second for some reason don’t look at me I’m ashamed)

you shouldn't be ashamed for liking the lemon King 😍😍

FOR THE LITTLE ASK THINGY YOU DID?? Edgar Allan Poe 🫶🫶🫶

yup, you win 💞

BSD QUESTION

fellow bsd fans, please share your favourite characters for a little thingy that I'm doing (it's a secret) but instead of commenting just go to the 'ask me anything' thing and say there. I'd love to see you guys' answers! I will also follow and reply to whoever has the best opinion..