I Know Soukoku Is An Overrated Ship. But The Angst We Can Create With Dazai And Chuuya Is Such A Specific

I know Soukoku is an overrated ship. But the angst we can create with Dazai and Chuuya is such a specific flavor fucked up but painfully poetic that it’s hard not to at least find them interesting.

Like what about the Soukoku where Chuuya sees Dazai again after several years of separation, and he’s the same.

Chuuya sees Dazai, and sure, on the surface he seems like a changed man. Happier. Better. A person who fights for good.

But Chuuya knows Dazai, and he knows that Dazai is only pretending. He knows Dazai is trying so hard to be this other person. To be what Odasaku wanted. He’s gone and tried to change everything about himself but his name, yet no matter how desperate he is he cannot escape who he once was. Who he was in the Port Mafia. Who Mori trained him to be.

And Dazai knows Chuuya knows, but it’s such an easy comfort. His old habits are down right addictive, after all. Every moment spent with Chuuya, Dazai risks falling into who he used to be.

Neither of them want that, but the idea of the ever looming possibility that everything Dazai worked for could be ruined by the Chuuya’s mere existence and the act of Dazai loving him is so very compelling to me.

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7 months ago

🌿 Help Us Find Peace Amid the Chaos 🌿

Hello, friends,

My name is Mohammed, and I’m reaching out from a place of unimaginable hardship. My family, like so many others in Gaza, is struggling to survive each day. The conflict has taken a heavy toll on our lives, leaving us to face a grim reality, our home has been destroyed, and we are left with nowhere safe to go. 😔

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I am the father of three beautiful children, and as a parent, nothing is more painful than watching your kids grow up surrounded by fear and destruction. Mira, Bakr, and Maria are the light of my life, but they’ve never known the joy of running through a park without fear, or playing freely like children should. 💔

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We’ve reached a point where staying here is no longer an option. The walls that once sheltered us now stand in ruins, and hope for a safe future is fading fast. We dream of rebuilding, not just our home, but our lives,somewhere free from the daily fear of war, where my children can sleep peacefully and smile again. 🕊️

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4 months ago

Akutagawa / Atsushi

Stitch-Up

Akatsu

Akutagawa / Atsushi

Akutagawa / Atsushi
Akutagawa / Atsushi
Akutagawa / Atsushi
Akutagawa / Atsushi
Akutagawa / Atsushi
Akutagawa / Atsushi
Akutagawa / Atsushi

This one's fuuuuuun

He'd have some zingers with him.

With how perpetually done Atsushi is with the agency shenanigans and how blunt and brash Akutagawa is he'd be sassy asf..-

Sarcasm King

His Ability would ve a cloth tiger I think

-Nix🌙


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7 months ago

Skk mermaid AU, where Dazai's the human who meets Chuuya the merman.

Chuuya has this long, almost eel-like tail. He has huge fins and spines reminiscent of the lionfish. In the water he commands so much space, his fins fanning and tail dancing in the current. He rarely rests on land because he struggles to keep his fins from getting everywhere.

Dazai usually takes his boat out to the water to see him, only occasionally will Chuuya come to the shallows, but even then he keeps most of his body in the water. Dazai is used to thinking of Chuuya as this great sea serpent instead of a merperson, because sometimes it looks like Chuuya's tail never ends when he circles around Dazai in the water.

It is a common myth that merfolk can grow legs and walk on land if they wish too and Dazai is always trying to convince Chuuya to come on land, telling him stories of all the things he'll show him beyond the beaches. Chuuya denies this myth adamantly.

But as time goes on, Chuuya's curiosity gets the better of him and he finally agrees.

The next morning Dazai is waiting by the surf, with a towel and clothes, just like they agreed. He's brought wild flowers from the fields, corny, but Chuuya is always so fascinated with the gifts from land that Dazai brings him. Excitement is bubbling in him, despite the long hours he'd told himself to be nonchalant the night before.

And then he sees Chuuya emerging from the water. A little unsteady on his new legs, the gentle waves making him unbalanced as he walks.

Dazai thinks he's further away than he his, but then Chuuya is in front of him far quicker than Dazai expected him to be. And what should have been this magical moment is ruined by Dazai bursting out laughing.

Because his great beast of the sea, his serpent with the tail that goes on forever, is a full head's height shorter than him.


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1 year ago

Who told ya'll irl Chuuya broke into irl Dazai's house to bully him?


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9 months ago

As well all know, Atsushi’s haircut is the result of the other kids at the orphanage. They would cut his hair without caring, and any time he tried to cut it himself, they would take the scissors and “cut it for him.”

So it’s only natural that Atsushi would grow to hate getting haircuts from anyone.

It’s not that he doesn’t trust the kind people in his life to try their best, (well, except maybe Dazai) it’s that it reminds him so much of what the other kids would do. And that puts him on edge the entire time.

He sits there, waiting, expecting them to suddenly yank his hair and start cutting at random while laughing and taunting him. And he hates feeling like those he cares about are going to hurt him. So he cuts his hair himself.

Maybe one day he can re-learn that trust, but for now he’s content to do it himself. Even if he’s less than good at it.


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11 months ago

Guys new headcanon just dropped:

Rimbaud has never really been a fan of people touching his hair. He doesn’t even let anyone but himself cut it.

But, when he’s stressed, he likes to braid it. It helps keep him busy.

Now, what if Verlaine happened upon Rimbaud doing this one day, and wanted to learn how to braid too.

Rimbaud teaches Verlaine how to braid, and Verlaine starts wearing braids in his hair regularly. (Even after Rimbaud’s death, despite it reminding him of what he lost.)

It is just like how he hangs on to the hat Rimbaud gave him. It helps him to establish his own identity a little bit. It also gives him a quiet way to honor Rimbaud’s memory.


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9 months ago

Hello, 👋

My name is Abdul Rahman and I am from Gaza 🇵🇸. The war destroyed my life. I lost my home, my job, my education, and my ability to support my family. My family and I suffered serious injuries.😔

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9 months ago

I have a three (3) month cat called Soba and he is a menace. He has opinions about everything he must make known to me at all times and he complains when he cannot properly sprawl out on top of me. He also really likes digging and burrowing for some reason?

I Have A Three (3) Month Cat Called Soba And He Is A Menace. He Has Opinions About Everything He Must

He is my idiot son and I love him

desperately need to know about peoples’ pets. please tell me about your pets.

3 months ago

I feel like a lot of people misunderstand the relationship between Verlaine and Chuuya. There's a lot of argument over whether they're biologically brothers or not. That's not the point. The point is how they came into the world and their unnatural birth. Or, at least, how Verlaine perceives it. He sees both him and Chuuya as artificial beings that will never be human no matter how hard they may try, so they may as well stop trying to fit in with these disgusting humans and just find solace in each other. He calls Chuuya his brother because he feels like he's the only one who can truly understand what he's going through. Their "brothership" stems from their shared existence as artificial beings. This is why Chuuya rejects it so violently at first. He doesn't want to be anything like the man who slaughtered his friends. He wants to be human.

Then, throughout the book, Chuuya comes to accept that however he came into this world, naturally or otherwise, he chooses to be human, and that's what it's important. His actions are what make him human. Verlaine learns this, too, but it's already far too late. He, too, had the chance to be human, but he was too focused on the possibility of being inhuman instead of actually trying to be a good person or to accept the care and support of his friend, Rimbaud, and now, he's gone. That is the tragedy of his story. He always had the opportunity to be human, but he threw it away for the sake of anger and hatred.

Only when they have both learned this lesson that Chuuya accepts Verlaine as his brother. Not because they're biologically related or anything, but because they do have this shared experience with one another, and he's here for him. Not because he forgives him for what he did. But because he has an opportunity to be better.

I love stormbringer. It's so good. Anyone reading this who hasn't read it, READ IT!! IF YOU LIKE CHUUYA AT ALL, YOU NEED TO READ THIS BOOK! IT'S SO IMPORTANT TO HIS CHARACTER!


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