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A mess from the best
Ain’t like the rest .
She was blessed by the man
With his shoulders at rest .
A danger to the devil from the inside , out
As her emotions were made to be numbed out .
Like hitler , wanting you to be his butler ,
Hid in the darkness from the stars ,
Never knew what it was like to see past the dark .
It’s a shame , but we don’t pass the blame ,
especially when your blinded by The other game .
Now she can see , so much more clearly ,
She is starting to look a lot more pearly .
The sadness in her eyes , are replaced with the sunlight .
The breeze on her skin , awakens her inner self esteem,
Something you tried to keep locked in .
A beautiful soul, you tried to hide ,
Hid beneath your evil eye .
The man with the rainbow eyes , clearly showed up in perfect time .
Her soul was crushing , a big mistake,
Made from the man, with the holes in his skin,
Who now has nothing to sink his claws in .
@trueemotions91
To be scared is a under statement,
That fear no longer dwindles in my bones ,
Tumblr has taught me ,
Friends are just ghosts , or empty egg shells.
Strangers have more empathy then the man next door,
I was just a fool ,
all along , playing to the devils own dirty tune .
Emotions that ran high ,
Words that didn’t make much sense ,
To a soul opened my eyes
By just a few tiny words.
I realise now ,
it is not, who is here to pick up the phone
It’s the ones who are in the dark
But yet take the time to pass your name in there own daily thoughts.
Yet I’ve done nothing for them, yet there speak of me so kindly.
In this world that’s distracted by so much colour,
Them bright doors don’t hold the key to this earths heavens,
It is the doors that are hid in the darkest shadows,
waiting for someone to find them, to help them flourish.
So Don’t go looking for the brightest light ,
Search for the darkest gate
that’s where we will find all things beautiful in
such a dark cold world,
that’s flourished with colour To distract us ,
from the true treasures of this world .
@trueemotions91
@tammyfeabakker
He was mine temporary
For a moment he showed me
What love could be
But all good things don’t last
But I’m blessed I got them seconds
As they felt like hours
His smell I’ll never know , his voice I will always imagine .
I will forever carry them memories with me
Because In such a short amount of space
he managed to change the perspective in me.
I’m going be going for a while , as I can start work again soon ! Yayyyyy ❤️ so big thanks to all my followers who have shared my words and cheered me up with your beautiful words , posts and everything amazing ! I will be on time to time but not as active before! All of you keep up the brilliant work you all share, remember to keep smiling and pushing ahead ❤️ love to all of you and keep safe in this mad world ❤️Once again thank you, I shall miss my daily dose of everything fun and inbetween , but human contact is calling me 😝❤️x
Why do you lie
To my soul
Your the reason this world is cold .
Cant you see
What you do to me ?
You bring me to my knees
To beg you,
for
The happiness in me .
You locked me up and
Forced me to fight
For the light , I cried for every night .
You made me , my own demon
The devil you created from the palm of your hand .
For ever I was giving no slack,
Licking the pain from your wounds while
Feeding the demon , within my own skin .
You made me crack,
I accept that
But I will come back ,
Stronger then the marks on my back
I will show you slack
I’ll accept your apology
When I get up from my knees , your see
I weren’t who you thought I could be,
I have to much lose
To give you the key
To end me.
@trueemotions91
You see
I see the scars
It’s a talent for me,
To find you at your weakest
And bring you up from your knees,
It’s scary but Please accept the journey.
I can’t make you choose
I promise I’ll show you the other shoes,
Just give me one minute
It’s all I need
I’ll show you the light
On the other side .
I want to see you smile,
I will enlighten your soul,
I promise I’ll keep Your heart undercover
Not like any other.
I won’t leave until
Your complete
I’ll take the pain
And turn it into rain
I’ll take the anger
And turn it into thunder
I’ll empty your brain
And make it my burden
Because I can carry that
If I know your out of danger.
@trueemotions91
Why is life so raw
I only wanted to get up off the floor
But you won’t let me rise
You just want to watch me fall.
Scared I will rise above yourself
Difference is , I ain’t a whore
I’ll do my chore
But you still keep pushing me to the damn floor .
Fear is greedy
I get that now
But your only feeding the demon within me .
Your negative words fall all around me.
You made me so sore
I just don’t care no more
So you see ,
I may be upon the floor
But inside I’m ready to roar.
A rose is red as the blood
That trickles when you prick
Your self with her thorns ,
The moon is as bright as the path
Lit , only enough for you to see the scary stuff,
The sun only shines, when it’s enemy’s are asleep,
Like the eagle in the sky
Waiting for its next victim who can’t escape,
The frog will watch each tiny slug
Against the river bugs,
While the spider etches her sketches
Against the moon lit sky,
The water speckles her nightmare
As it lights up her silver lined lie ,
The flys retreat from her secret trap
While her baby’s wait for it to fall
In their lap,
And all is lost in a blink of the eye .
@trueemotions91
When everyone else is no longer there .
You see , the sun smiles on a sunny day
But hides when the clouds come to play ,
That’s just how it goes
But one thing I know
Is ,it always comes and goes,
It never stays in the same place
Because we don’t move at a snail pace ,
You see , you just have to watch the space
To open the gates ,
To all the things you misplaced
it will then ,all fall into place .
Just don’t hide from the same game
That’s got you playing in a hoop
Coz the game we play , ain’t a loop
We go high, we go low,
We go from side to side
But we never stay still
We keep climbing that hill
Coz it don’t matter about the pills
Or the window sill
You sat on for so long ,
Waiting for Them To sing you a song
As long as you keep moving along .
Then it don’t matter if no one is there
You can do it all alone .
@trueemotions91
Hey handsome ,
Stood over there,
Looking all bare ,
I want to excite you,
So please don’t stare
I’ll take you places
You never knew were there,
I’ll teach you about my land
Just allow my hand,
I’ll take the rest from there.
Ready to explore
To learn my law?
@trueemotions91
She was my baby girl
I told you so
Never wanted to let her go
But you made me do her wrong
By always being the other girl
Making her feel low
I just couldn’t say no.
She was my baby girl
now she can’t be found
Because I dug her, deep into the ground.
Broken hearted by a clown
I’m sorry , now I know
How low, I made her go,
I wasn’t ready
For the love ,
She blew my world apart
now I’m done fooling about .
I was confused , lost
I promise you so
Just come back baby ,to our home
I’ll show you my love , hands down
No more broken promises
No more late night kisses
I just need you back on my ground
You are , who kept me so sound
The reason I thought I was on top of the world
She was my baby girl
I just need her home .
@trueemotions91
A man I hear them call
Is a danger to all?
Do you honestly believe that story
If I repeat them words quietly ,
If your going paint a ugly picture
Of my son, brother , father
Before there even have a chance to alter
Your perspective of all men
Then I would not bother ,
To waste your air on this planet earth
That’s ludicrous , to human nature
Can you really hear yourself loud and clear?
So your afraid of your father ?
Please tell me so,
How on earth can we scoop so low,
Men are humans , I swear to your
Have two eyes and usually bigger shoes ,
But all ain’t to fear,
I know the hands that raised me were full of care & order
Showed me love & courage ,
But to fear my son , is to loud and clear
When you all cheer , the words I hear ,
A woman I know who abused her own
but yet I don’t hear you call her mistakes
To the moon,
Would you to brush me with the same words ,
Because another mother put upon this earth,
It makes no sense , it’s all a laugh,
I stand with a woman , power and all,
But to call every man a danger is a different law,
Just think of the words before you make your own
father sore ,
Imagine his face when he sees you chore the words
That - all men must fall .
@trueemotions91
Why is this world so cold
I was always told,
The world is what you perceive through
Your own living eyes ,
Am I to blind, to see
The love that’s surrounded, around me ,
Is it me who spits the hatred out they mouth?
I question this daily .
I see the beautys of earth
They don’t hide ,
The colours of the rainbow are
Painted all over this earth,
The birds sing me a lullaby
Every morning ,
I open my eyes
To the most beautiful sunrise ,
I watch the moon ,
Dance with the stars ,
But when I enter reality ,
Why do I see , beings
With scrawn up faces ,
Blood on the hands of another man ,
Children being abused by the one who
Brought them to this earth,
Youngsters with no morals,
Graffiti scribbled all over the walls,
Ruining nature for everyone’s eyeballs,
Is that really just perceieved through my own eyes?
Is the government, just blind
To the reality of life,
Hidden behide a obscene ,Law and order,
Where half of them are the cause
Of disorder ,
Freedom of speach
But only counts for the rich ,
I see another begging on the floor
While another swipes his foot across
The same path,
Caught up in his own twisted world
Not a care for the poor,
I didn’t see that this morning ,
When the flowers were dancing along
To the pretty’s bird song,
I saw happiness in the sky,
Pictures Scribbled in the clouds
To make me realise ,
I can be at ease ,
But when I enter the street,
Everyone seems to be staring down at they feet
A pawn in a game of cheat.
@trueemotions91
Always told
I won’t make any gold
With my long life goals,
But they underestimated me
As my goals only consist
Of happy and health,
Not having my pockets lined of coins
I’d rather have a heart of joy,
A pocket full of sweet memories
For the world to see, Is enough for me ,
Riches are nothing
If my eyes are cold
Blinded by the pound sign
can’t see my path is clearly written for me ,
I don’t need brands attached to me
I’m a brand of my own
no one can copy track me
Even when I’m buried in the ground
You still couldn’t even come close
To the place I call home
My memories would make you realise
What a lie yours is.
@trueemotions91
Life is scary ,
Looking through my eyes ,
Your find it blurry,
But don’t be alarmed,
Because I promise your ready .
For this ride, To the top,
Free of charge ,
I promise I won’t ask for a penny,
But I’m going take your emotions
Higher then any,
I’ll hold your hand
I won’t let go
But inside your going be lonely.
Don’t be scared
I promised you so,
All of them emotions
Are part of the journey ,
This ain’t no movie,
First class scary .
Be the best ride ,
As this is the journey of Your life.
@trueemotions91
Why does another woman’s body entice me,
The curves I adore,
Skin so smooth ,
The way she shakes her arse .
Maybe it’s jealousy
But I’m not sure .
Is it wrong to admire
The beauty of another
I believe not so .
It’s something extraordinary ,
I just can’t let go.
How she drops so low ,
her hips curve to her exterior
Is just woah woah woah .
Blows my mind,
How another woman can make
My heart beat slow .
@trueemotions91
I’m attracted to skin .
You heard that correctly ,
Human contact
Is my fantasise.
To feel the warmth of your body
Upon me
Sends electricity threw me .
To run my fingers down every inch of you
Excites me .
To explore every grove and corner
Of your body
With mine
Thrills me .
To watch you wither under me
Is my only desire .
I promise I’ll be gentle .
All you got to do
Is be bare.
I’ll waken
Senses you never
Knew where there .
Don’t tempt me .
I swear .
@trueemotions91
Round and juicy ,
I’ll eat you to the core,
Then I’ll throw you to the floor.
Making me dribble,
Dirty whore,
Want me to lick
The sweetness from the middle,
As it trickles down my throat
Makes me gag
Just a little .
That dirty apple .
@trueemotions91
Man made shit
Tissue to wipe my arse
Man I’d rather some grass
Man made shit
Cant shake the stick
From that drip
He’s hanging on to my every word
Yet he claps
When he gets a slap
From the man in the back.
Man made shit
What a laugh
Stood over their looking like a arse
Man made shit
Just a fart
When everyone laughs
Man made shit
Full of art
But you can’t do the crafts
Man made shit
Do I have to finish it .
@trueemotions91
If don’t make sense to you - take away the words man made shit , 🤪 x
I don’t know what your edging at ,
But I can see you lips are drying up.
Slow down spitting that shit ,
Might make sense of it .
You talk to quick ,
For a brain to register it ,
Take a breather and enjoy it ,
The way, the words flick off
Your tongue
Don’t tell me you don’t like it,
Dirty ,
Is the best ,
We know you don’t like the rest,
Don’t make your tongue do that flick,
But you still think you look slick,
With a lollipop hanging out ,
Dribble round the tip,
Makes me fantasise
Of them sexy lips.
@trueemotions91
Hey little lady,
Sitting across the bar from me,
With her pretty red hair ,
green glazed eyes
Looking everywhere
But ignoring my stare .
I just want show you how
Your life could be fair.
With a pretty little thing
Like you , I wouldn’t dare ,
I’d give you all the dreams in life,
If you just promise to be my wife ,
I love the way you hold your stare ,
When you no I’m all yours.
I just want show you happiness baby ,
So don’t be scared ,
Promise you my touch ,
Is soft ,
Coz a pretty lady like you
Belongs at the top,
So don’t be alarmed when I pull you closer,
I just wanna smell you a little bit better,
I wanna wrap your hair around my fingers,
And show you how much I really care .
@trueemotions91
A beauty only I can see
Because I hold the key
To my own twisted art
That’s locked inside of me
It’s not my eyes who make me unique
Or the fact I have 2 ears and a nose
It’s the fact I can control
My life long goals
ain’t no one stopping that
You can put a end to my legs
Or maybe even my sense
But my mind won’t let you
Mess up that
It’s not visible to see
For a reason
It tells me daily
Scary .
@trueemotions91
Why did you leave me on the cross roads,
Cold and alone,
With a thousand thoughts creating a storm.
You left me in the darkest skies,
my coldest hour ,
Did it make you feel better ?
To know I was breaking,
Under your footstep .
Pressure after pressure,
As you watched me shatter
But it didn’t matter.
If you were true , You thought you could piece
Me back together
With glue .
But never the same
And now your ashamed
Because the damaged you caused
Is clear .
My heart was yours,
True to the core,
I promised myself that ,
I could never give you just half ,
But I regret that .
As you stole my
Identity
Within a flash.
The risk is not opening
Your heart ,
It’s opening your mind ,
Which is when we become blind.
As we are teaching people the
One thing we are allowed to hide .
Don’t give your soul
Until you know ,
The holder Don’t want it to
Steal.
Fake copy created by yourself .
A wolf in sheep’s wool.
@trueemotions91
A broken home
Is where he came from,
A mother who never
Showed him love,
Was her call,
A evil man
With a evil plan,
All because of the woman
Who claimed him
To this earth,
But not for love
For her own satisfaction
And now she leaves
A path of destruction ,
With no respect for a woman
Because of her own
Demented needs
Not his ,
Taught no feelings
Told not to cry
Always have to the big Man in life .
Are you glad what you did ?
To that boy who has now turned
To a man .
Left for another woman,
to try , to turn the tide.
HE deserves ,
To know,
the
power of ,
Love !
@trueemotions91
I found you
Looking so blue ,
I took you
To show you the truth ,
I opened my heart
To help you ,
Never did I think ,
You would rip
Out my soul
And make me beg,
from underneath
You.
@trueemotions91
Did you ever think
The power a child can bring to a man ?
I will admit
It’s about the sex .
But maybe we look past
How a man is made ,
His primarl instinct
To make love to woman
And watch his seed grow
Into something remarkable .
Into a soul
He connected to on a another level
Maybe it’s empowering for him
to watch
Her belly grow
Knowing it’s his well being
Made by his flow.
To allow him
To reinpreganate another soul
To find it attractive
Knowing he holds half the key
For another life
I wonder so .
@trueemotions91
5 boys who are running around,
doing what these boys do.
Power rangers.
Fighting & cars
Bruises from bangs
cuts from falls.
Feet stomping from your moods.
Screaming
All in a hurry.
Baby dolls. Kissses. Cuddles. Helping. Tears.
All the things above are nothing bad.
As they are what are perparing you to be a perfect man.
Your learn to control them paddys and in return control anger.
The tears you cry now will show you that being a man also means you need emotion because you are just another
human .
The bruises and bangs just make you that little bit tougher.
The dolls you play with now will help you as you to one day become a father.
The kisses and cuddles will show you that's all your family will need one day to feel protected just like you do now.
But for now I'm sit back watching you grow with tears, laughter and sometimes a bit of frustration - but mummy knows all the bad and all the good is going make you the perfect man for your future .
@trueemotions91
In life
never loose who you are
never forget where you came from
don't let your self disappear so your left wondering " who the fuck am I "
never lose yourself in the rush
Never lose you self when your dreaming
when it comes back to reality your be the one looking in the mirror
not knowing if the person who is staring back at you is a imposter
or really you.
This world ain't full of love and happiness
its full of tears, sweat and blood
so remember when your dreaming life away to never forget who makes,
you.
Never give up on these unique things that make you the person you are
That's what makes you true
you destroy those unique things about you
your be in that mirror looking at at a shadow of who you used to be
and believe me
life is no fun staring in that mirror
lost in a pair of eyes you no longer recognise .
@trueemotions91