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To be scared is a under statement,

That fear no longer dwindles in my bones ,

Tumblr has taught me ,

Friends are just ghosts , or empty egg shells.

Strangers have more empathy then the man next door,

I was just a fool ,

all along , playing to the devils own dirty tune .

Emotions that ran high ,

Words that didn’t make much sense ,

To a soul opened my eyes

By just a few tiny words.

I realise now ,

it is not, who is here to pick up the phone

It’s the ones who are in the dark

But yet take the time to pass your name in there own daily thoughts.

Yet I’ve done nothing for them, yet there speak of me so kindly.

In this world that’s distracted by so much colour,

Them bright doors don’t hold the key to this earths heavens,

It is the doors that are hid in the darkest shadows,

waiting for someone to find them, to help them flourish.

So Don’t go looking for the brightest light ,

Search for the darkest gate

that’s where we will find all things beautiful in

such a dark cold world,

that’s flourished with colour To distract us ,

from the true treasures of this world .

@trueemotions91

@tammyfeabakker

She ignites me

In a way no one , could even come close.

She knows

Just how to make me feel alive .

She is my flame

On the coldest nights .

She is the spark in my eyes.

Believe me when I say she can turn any heart

From stone to gold dust

In a blink of gods eye .

She don’t know evil

Only pure love .

She locks on and never lets go .

She is stronger then any diamond

Rough for ever in the making

As that what makes her so powerful.

She learns from everything

She never will look perfect

Coz the best things

Are always hidden beneath the dirt

Spreading love but never heard.

@trueemotions91

@tammyfeabakker ❤️ x

The rush

From the blood.

The crimson rose

Against my pale white skin.

The Taste of evil and heaven I swear

it’s what feeds my darkest sins.

The pain I don’t feel

When the blade runs bare across my soul.

It’s not for me , I promise you that,

It’s for them who keep turning their back.

I love the way the blood trickles

Makes me realise , I’m here alive,

To breathe another day

Even if hell is on my side.

It’s twisted I know

To crave the rush.

They don’t care

As there push the demon

To the core

To blind to see the damage they truly cause.

Mine is temporary

A release from the demon

Within me .

Please don’t judge

When you see my scars

It’s proof to me I’ve lived

Through the pain

But I’m still here on the other side,

With nothing but love to give

To those who caused, the blade to sink in.

@trueemotions91

He was mine temporary

For a moment he showed me

What love could be

But all good things don’t last

But I’m blessed I got them seconds

As they felt like hours

His smell I’ll never know , his voice I will always imagine .

I will forever carry them memories with me

Because In such a short amount of space

he managed to change the perspective in me.

I’m going be going for a while , as I can start work again soon ! Yayyyyy ❤️ so big thanks to all my followers who have shared my words and cheered me up with your beautiful words , posts and everything amazing ! I will be on time to time but not as active before! All of you keep up the brilliant work you all share, remember to keep smiling and pushing ahead ❤️ love to all of you and keep safe in this mad world ❤️Once again thank you, I shall miss my daily dose of everything fun and inbetween , but human contact is calling me 😝❤️x

Why do you lie

To my soul

Your the reason this world is cold .

Cant you see

What you do to me ?

You bring me to my knees

To beg you,

for

The happiness in me .

You locked me up and

Forced me to fight

For the light , I cried for every night .

You made me , my own demon

The devil you created from the palm of your hand .

For ever I was giving no slack,

Licking the pain from your wounds while

Feeding the demon , within my own skin .

You made me crack,

I accept that

But I will come back ,

Stronger then the marks on my back

I will show you slack

I’ll accept your apology

When I get up from my knees , your see

I weren’t who you thought I could be,

I have to much lose

To give you the key

To end me.

@trueemotions91

I don’t want to see

What is hidden beaneath the leaves

I’m scared it will shake my knees

Something I ain’t ready to please

I beg you

Don’t shake me to hard

I fall to fast

My soul won’t last

If you make me shiver

My heart will quiver

I don’t know when to stop

That’s when I lose the plot

I’m sorry

I can’t stumble

Upon these troubles

I want you to be happy

And

To show you inside

Would make us both the perfect disaster .

@trueemotions91

You see

I see the scars

It’s a talent for me,

To find you at your weakest

And bring you up from your knees,

It’s scary but Please accept the journey.

I can’t make you choose

I promise I’ll show you the other shoes,

Just give me one minute

It’s all I need

I’ll show you the light

On the other side .

I want to see you smile,

I will enlighten your soul,

I promise I’ll keep Your heart undercover

Not like any other.

I won’t leave until

Your complete

I’ll take the pain

And turn it into rain

I’ll take the anger

And turn it into thunder

I’ll empty your brain

And make it my burden

Because I can carry that

If I know your out of danger.

@trueemotions91

I see him everywhere

He smiles at me in the air,

He whispers me lullabies when I’m scared

Keeps the monsters from out my head ,

He holds me when I’m cold

Squeezes harder when I’m warm,

He just knows how , I liked to be hold

Ain’t a secret that could not be told .

I would trust him with my life

But I’m not to sure about a wife .

He is gentle , I know that so

But he is also very powerful .

Would he scare her gentle soul

I honestly don’t know .

@trueemotions91

When everyone else is no longer there .

You see , the sun smiles on a sunny day

But hides when the clouds come to play ,

That’s just how it goes

But one thing I know

Is ,it always comes and goes,

It never stays in the same place

Because we don’t move at a snail pace ,

You see , you just have to watch the space

To open the gates ,

To all the things you misplaced

it will then ,all fall into place .

Just don’t hide from the same game

That’s got you playing in a hoop

Coz the game we play , ain’t a loop

We go high, we go low,

We go from side to side

But we never stay still

We keep climbing that hill

Coz it don’t matter about the pills

Or the window sill

You sat on for so long ,

Waiting for Them To sing you a song

As long as you keep moving along .

Then it don’t matter if no one is there

You can do it all alone .

@trueemotions91

Hey handsome ,

Stood over there,

Looking all bare ,

I want to excite you,

So please don’t stare

I’ll take you places

You never knew were there,

I’ll teach you about my land

Just allow my hand,

I’ll take the rest from there.

Ready to explore

To learn my law?

@trueemotions91

She was my baby girl

I told you so

Never wanted to let her go

But you made me do her wrong

By always being the other girl

Making her feel low

I just couldn’t say no.

She was my baby girl

now she can’t be found

Because I dug her, deep into the ground.

Broken hearted by a clown

I’m sorry , now I know

How low, I made her go,

I wasn’t ready

For the love ,

She blew my world apart

now I’m done fooling about .

I was confused , lost

I promise you so

Just come back baby ,to our home

I’ll show you my love , hands down

No more broken promises

No more late night kisses

I just need you back on my ground

You are , who kept me so sound

The reason I thought I was on top of the world

She was my baby girl

I just need her home .

@trueemotions91

I was lost

In a plot

Of my own fucked up emotions

No one to help me

No one ever understood

I was called a crazy bitch

Forced in a ditch

To dig myself out of

While the soil crumbled under each finger tip

Still they called me a crazy bitch

Coz I was fighting this shit

All just watched and laughed

Like a bunch of crazed clowns

To my head shut them out

I cried and screamed

Believe me I fucking did

My eyes have never cried

As the tears ain’t my sin

It’s just the opening

Of this tin I’m trapped in

The cuts were a release

Each time I dug my nails deep in

Was a understanding of the place I was laying

Each fall

I pulled harder

No matter how much they call me a crazy bitch

I am getting out of this ditch

They forced me in .

@trueemotions91

A man I hear them call

Is a danger to all?

Do you honestly believe that story

If I repeat them words quietly ,

If your going paint a ugly picture

Of my son, brother , father

Before there even have a chance to alter

Your perspective of all men

Then I would not bother ,

To waste your air on this planet earth

That’s ludicrous , to human nature

Can you really hear yourself loud and clear?

So your afraid of your father ?

Please tell me so,

How on earth can we scoop so low,

Men are humans , I swear to your

Have two eyes and usually bigger shoes ,

But all ain’t to fear,

I know the hands that raised me were full of care & order

Showed me love & courage ,

But to fear my son , is to loud and clear

When you all cheer , the words I hear ,

A woman I know who abused her own

but yet I don’t hear you call her mistakes

To the moon,

Would you to brush me with the same words ,

Because another mother put upon this earth,

It makes no sense , it’s all a laugh,

I stand with a woman , power and all,

But to call every man a danger is a different law,

Just think of the words before you make your own

father sore ,

Imagine his face when he sees you chore the words

That - all men must fall .

@trueemotions91

Hey beautiful people ! Hope Everyone’s well! I need some words or ideas to get my brain ticking to write some poetry! Please help ME 😝! My heads a little dry , so feeling frustrated ! Xxxxx

Warning - I’m not sure if some people will take this I’m ignorant which I’m far from , just easiest way for me to explain a voice in my head so please do not take it personal anyone ! Just enjoy !

Lost young soul ,

Life is low , life is high ,

We have to just ride the tide. ❤️

The biggest challenge in life

Is learning to live , with the voice inside ,

Sometimes he roars and sometimes he whispers,

He’s trapped inside

Constantly taking you on a mad ride

It’s your call to reply

But before you do

Just listen

To what he is speaking

He may drive you crazy and make you hate

Every aspect of life ,

But their is a message hidden deeper then your imagantion ,

But the voice is they for a reason

Even if invisible on the other side

It’s the man inside

trying to make you recognise

I know you want it to go and he won’t shut up

But please just go with the flow

Don’t think the words that are going Through your head

Are a representation of yourself ,

Thats way to far , even for his control ,

That voice is a reckoning

The only way your inside can get you to listen to your true calling

Maybe not in the words you need

But this is where you have to be smart

Our brains are dangerous

The damage is strong

As no other can hear the song ,

He may play you some fucked up lullabies

And make tears come into your eyes

But I promise that’s not you breaking

That’s your soul accepting ,

The voice is usually your own well being ,

Calling for some help , from deep within yourself ,

He is nothing to be scared of

He is invisible , a voice all alone ,

But you can’t let him take control,

You have the power to show him differ ,

befriend that voice in your head ,

make him work for his chatter

we were born wild and free but

our imagantion always runs quicker

then our own two feet ,

So sometimes you need to breathe , it’s all just a release

Its a craft , and once you make the art ,

That voice won’t be a burden, he will be working on your behalf .

@trueemotions91

Why is this world so cold

I was always told,

The world is what you perceive through

Your own living eyes ,

Am I to blind, to see

The love that’s surrounded, around me ,

Is it me who spits the hatred out they mouth?

I question this daily .

I see the beautys of earth

They don’t hide ,

The colours of the rainbow are

Painted all over this earth,

The birds sing me a lullaby

Every morning ,

I open my eyes

To the most beautiful sunrise ,

I watch the moon ,

Dance with the stars ,

But when I enter reality ,

Why do I see , beings

With scrawn up faces ,

Blood on the hands of another man ,

Children being abused by the one who

Brought them to this earth,

Youngsters with no morals,

Graffiti scribbled all over the walls,

Ruining nature for everyone’s eyeballs,

Is that really just perceieved through my own eyes?

Is the government, just blind

To the reality of life,

Hidden behide a obscene ,Law and order,

Where half of them are the cause

Of disorder ,

Freedom of speach

But only counts for the rich ,

I see another begging on the floor

While another swipes his foot across

The same path,

Caught up in his own twisted world

Not a care for the poor,

I didn’t see that this morning ,

When the flowers were dancing along

To the pretty’s bird song,

I saw happiness in the sky,

Pictures Scribbled in the clouds

To make me realise ,

I can be at ease ,

But when I enter the street,

Everyone seems to be staring down at they feet

A pawn in a game of cheat.

@trueemotions91

Always told

I won’t make any gold

With my long life goals,

But they underestimated me

As my goals only consist

Of happy and health,

Not having my pockets lined of coins

I’d rather have a heart of joy,

A pocket full of sweet memories

For the world to see, Is enough for me ,

Riches are nothing

If my eyes are cold

Blinded by the pound sign

can’t see my path is clearly written for me ,

I don’t need brands attached to me

I’m a brand of my own

no one can copy track me

Even when I’m buried in the ground

You still couldn’t even come close

To the place I call home

My memories would make you realise

What a lie yours is.

@trueemotions91

Life is scary ,

Looking through my eyes ,

Your find it blurry,

But don’t be alarmed,

Because I promise your ready .

For this ride, To the top,

Free of charge ,

I promise I won’t ask for a penny,

But I’m going take your emotions

Higher then any,

I’ll hold your hand

I won’t let go

But inside your going be lonely.

Don’t be scared

I promised you so,

All of them emotions

Are part of the journey ,

This ain’t no movie,

First class scary .

Be the best ride ,

As this is the journey of Your life.

@trueemotions91

Billy bong billy bang,

I just want a snack,

To calm my attack.

Things got me having a panic Snack ,

For better ,for worse,

My chocolate habit won’t

Stop it

Love it

Twist it

Grab it

Shove it in and shut it.

Like a trap , with a snap

Waiting for it’s next lick,

I just can’t kick it,

With such delight

Cant help but bite it,

The melting stuff,

Gets twisted in my tongue ,

Dribble it

Lick it

Swallow it .

Now I’ve done it again

Fucking chocolate habit .

@trueemotions91

Fuckin crazy in this house of mine

Kids always fighting

Mothers always screaming

A war against 9

Yet love in the air

Open my eyes

To a war game

Trying push them

In there own direction

Forced eyes wide open

Mouths are all gawping

My brains fucking screwing

While next doors knocking

To a crazy noise

Of just heartache

But in the end it’s going be

Allright

Coz it’s where I call home

Its where my flowers grow

From the floor to the ceiling

I’m crawling

While the kids are scribbling

I’m kneeling

Praying to Jesus for some strength

To just catch my breath .

@trueemotions91

Why does another woman’s body entice me,

The curves I adore,

Skin so smooth ,

The way she shakes her arse .

Maybe it’s jealousy

But I’m not sure .

Is it wrong to admire

The beauty of another

I believe not so .

It’s something extraordinary ,

I just can’t let go.

How she drops so low ,

her hips curve to her exterior

Is just woah woah woah .

Blows my mind,

How another woman can make

My heart beat slow .

@trueemotions91

I’m attracted to skin .

You heard that correctly ,

Human contact

Is my fantasise.

To feel the warmth of your body

Upon me

Sends electricity threw me .

To run my fingers down every inch of you

Excites me .

To explore every grove and corner

Of your body

With mine

Thrills me .

To watch you wither under me

Is my only desire .

I promise I’ll be gentle .

All you got to do

Is be bare.

I’ll waken

Senses you never

Knew where there .

Don’t tempt me .

I swear .

@trueemotions91

Round and juicy ,

I’ll eat you to the core,

Then I’ll throw you to the floor.

Making me dribble,

Dirty whore,

Want me to lick

The sweetness from the middle,

As it trickles down my throat

Makes me gag

Just a little .

That dirty apple .

@trueemotions91

Man made shit

Tissue to wipe my arse

Man I’d rather some grass

Man made shit

Cant shake the stick

From that drip

He’s hanging on to my every word

Yet he claps

When he gets a slap

From the man in the back.

Man made shit

What a laugh

Stood over their looking like a arse

Man made shit

Just a fart

When everyone laughs

Man made shit

Full of art

But you can’t do the crafts

Man made shit

Do I have to finish it .

@trueemotions91

If don’t make sense to you - take away the words man made shit , 🤪 x

I don’t know what your edging at ,

But I can see you lips are drying up.

Slow down spitting that shit ,

Might make sense of it .

You talk to quick ,

For a brain to register it ,

Take a breather and enjoy it ,

The way, the words flick off

Your tongue

Don’t tell me you don’t like it,

Dirty ,

Is the best ,

We know you don’t like the rest,

Don’t make your tongue do that flick,

But you still think you look slick,

With a lollipop hanging out ,

Dribble round the tip,

Makes me fantasise

Of them sexy lips.

@trueemotions91

Hey little lady,

Sitting across the bar from me,

With her pretty red hair ,

green glazed eyes

Looking everywhere

But ignoring my stare .

I just want show you how

Your life could be fair.

With a pretty little thing

Like you , I wouldn’t dare ,

I’d give you all the dreams in life,

If you just promise to be my wife ,

I love the way you hold your stare ,

When you no I’m all yours.

I just want show you happiness baby ,

So don’t be scared ,

Promise you my touch ,

Is soft ,

Coz a pretty lady like you

Belongs at the top,

So don’t be alarmed when I pull you closer,

I just wanna smell you a little bit better,

I wanna wrap your hair around my fingers,

And show you how much I really care .

@trueemotions91

A beauty only I can see

Because I hold the key

To my own twisted art

That’s locked inside of me

It’s not my eyes who make me unique

Or the fact I have 2 ears and a nose

It’s the fact I can control

My life long goals

ain’t no one stopping that

You can put a end to my legs

Or maybe even my sense

But my mind won’t let you

Mess up that

It’s not visible to see

For a reason

It tells me daily

Scary .

@trueemotions91

Why did you leave me on the cross roads,

Cold and alone,

With a thousand thoughts creating a storm.

You left me in the darkest skies,

my coldest hour ,

Did it make you feel better ?

To know I was breaking,

Under your footstep .

Pressure after pressure,

As you watched me shatter

But it didn’t matter.

If you were true , You thought you could piece

Me back together

With glue .

But never the same

And now your ashamed

Because the damaged you caused

Is clear .