I'm Reading The Gift From The Princess Who Brought Sleep Novel For The First Time And--

there are two types of Christopher Pierre fans.

The ones who hate him

and the ones who love him unconditionally no matter how hard they try to convince themself that he’s a bad person

IF THIS GETS 3-5 LIKES/REBLOGS I WILL SEND PHRISTOPHER CIERRE TO MY FAVORITE GHOST BLOGS

[gently slides this ask into your inbox] may i have 1 margarita. or perhaps 1 nemesis. th choice is yours. 🐌

a choice? when have I ever made one of those…okay now this is epic

Stop the hate

Eyyy I see some of y'all hatin on the earth gems. Especially on Sensei, Cinnabar, and Bortz, and Euclase.

I know you’re all like “Phos just wants for all the dust gems to come back, and he also wants everyone to be happy.” But he also destroys others in the process.

Antarcticite was taken because of him, the Amethyst twins were almost taken because of him too, Ghost was chipped off because of him, Bortz lost his hair, Cairngorm is now in a toxic relationship with Fuckmea, started a war with the earth gems, caused Rutile to go insane for taking Padparadscha, Yellow is now more depressed than ever, and other shiz.

The gems can’t see a good thing that Phos has done.

mafuyu, omori edition

im rereading dunmeshi and this one page really made me stop and think. we know that he could just teleport directly to where her body is and bisect & explode her instantly, and he would be fine. we know he knows he can do that from the bonus comic where he does that. but he doesnt

i think this is a choice and not an oversight. we find out in chapter 94 that this whole time, hes been throwing himself back into dungeon after dungeon - not so much because hes on a true quest for revenge, but because the only thing he has left that he wants in the whole entire world is to finish being eaten by the demon. no wants no needs no desires other than the singular, unstoppable drive to kill the demon or be killed trying. and he really REALLY wants to be killed trying, to the point where at the end, hes disappointed he survived (in not quite so many words, as the chapter tries to maintain some levity, but.)

i think he picks this impractical move that's failed in this exact way before because the act of violence itself is more important to him than success. he doesnt actually want to save the world. he just wants to put himself in that things mouth again

consider this alongside the previous time he tried this maneuver. we never see him carrying any weapons, he always has to improvise a knife even though hes so clearly a knife fighter. i think the canaries dont let him carry sharp objects for a reason

“Listen kid, this isn’t some fairy-tale where you think every problem is solved because of some shining knight in armor or a bright and happy musical number…Welcome to Real-Life, Sleeping Beauty. Almost all marriages are arranged for money or status, that’s how it works. Besides, if I wanted to marry for love, a woman would have to be around MY age with a full rack, not some flat-chested high-schooler with Insomnia-on-steroids.”

- Kasper to Margarita after she discovers his adultery and motive behind their marriage.

might be a bit odd or a stretch and written poorly by me (sorry if its rambly basically) but mithrun has such interesting but devastating symbolism and importance for a message in dunmeshi.

(TW SA/ABUSE MENTIONS)

the goat (demon) being an abusive relationship that to you who is in it only sees a nice perfect person doing anything for you, only for things to slowly get worse and worse… leading to SA (it’s not actual SA but the imagery has subtle implications of it) and other forms of physical and psychological abuse.

this leaving mithrun in an intense state of depression, ptsd and other issues like getting mana sickness really easily, which is also connected to the physical disabilities he got from said abuse. and due to these states he finds he can not desire anything anymore, he can only feel empty, not even a desire to get help and only feels a strong anger to the person and tries to prevent anyone else from going through the same.

but he’s not a lost cause.

“so.. even vegetable scraps have their uses, huh?”

he blames himself for his trauma, he sees himself as worthless and not one to be desired anymore because of what he went through. and realizing this, realizing that he actually has grown a desire to BE desired even just in a simple way to be needed (helping with falin) he finally can crack through that depression. the ptsd is still there, the physical disabilities are still there, but through surrounding himself with community of people with different views and trauma has helped him realize he is not broken and shouldn’t be blaming himself for something that was out of his control.

he wants to do new things, he wants to live now and it’s so beautiful to see.

plus, as kabru says here how the desires being eaten is not what it seems like is such an interesting fact. sure the demon ate his desires he had in that moment, making him believe he could never desire again but in fact he could get new desires (change/grow/heal) plus, traveling with kabru, he did show desires whether they be small or not.

in this moment he showed full horror about this memory. now if he was loss of desire, then he shouldn’t even desire to feel fear about this right? shouldn’t he only feel anger due to the revenge? which once again, shows his whole healing journey.

he’s such a great character with so much representation, and in turn is also a character that can show hope for someone like thistle who now is going through similar things and is practically hospitalized.

there is hope, you will heal, you are gonna be okay and your trauma is real but it does not shape you as a person, you are safe now.

dunmeshi is such a great depiction of that