“Listen Kid, This Isn’t Some Fairy-tale Where You Think Every Problem Is Solved Because Of Some Shining

honestly angela cares so much about others and especially about their opinions and even more specifically their opinions of HER and thinking about it makes me so sad every single time. she tries so hard to paint herself as unflappable and eternally unbothered by what people think of her because what reason does she have to care, but she cares so much!!!!! my special girl :( she’s literally so full of love and care for others and it’s such a fundamental part of her because it was such a fundamental part of carmen and what drove her to do literally anything she did. angela is so fundamentally full of love and im tired of pretending that she isn’t

Omg!!! Leaks from the next Mafuyu event????

Thank you, Parsee

Mithrun And His Quest For Death

One of the integral parts of Mithrun's story arc is that his one true desire is not to seek revenge on the demon but that he.....

... desires to die. Specifically at the hands of the demon, who he felt didnt finish the job after he was the dungeon master

There is a lot of foreshadowing up to this reveal such as:

-Mithrun's lack of ability to care about anything. His hygiene, his physical appearance, whether he is hungry or tired. All of this is common in those struggling with suicidal ideation and chronic depression. As Dungeon Meshi often toes the line between comedic and horror , usually comedic upon first inspection, horrifying with hind sight , i think this is best seen here:

...Why would he lie? Except subconsciously he wants to die. Whether through inaction , literally wasting away, or the dungeon monsters getting him. His preference would be for the demon to finish him off, but his actions sometimes show that the goal itself is death, no matter what methodology.

-Mithrun is covered in self harm scars. We know that he acquired them after his time as the dungeon master because of this story extra:

- this is further supplemented by his fighting style in the dungeon. Every action shows he is clearly a knife fighter, and yet he is never seen with a knife. He always improvizes weapons or is handed weapons by his comrades during combat.

Some examples of this:

This is even played as a joke in one chapter where Mithrun reaches towards the ground for a weapon before ultimately teleporting Kabru as his improvized weapon instead :

- which brings us to his teleportation abilities, it is extremely reckless for someone with no sense of direction and one eye leading to a lack of depth perception to rely on teleporting himself as his main trump card in fights. It shows a lack of value he puts on his own well being or survival

Although funny enough, the only time we ever see this go wrong in dungeon meshi is this extra where someone else, not Mithrun, is hurt:

- the reader is led to believe that Mithrun's goal is to defeat the demon for the majority of the story but when he does face Marcille and the demon , his eye glows its original gray, signifiying his desire and he says:

Mithrun is not addressing Marcille, he is addressing himself and ultimately he realizes his true desire is death just as he is about to recieve it

So YOU have chosen death. I'VE failed. The one who chose death has always been Mithrun , aware or not.

Marcille as the demon's proxy kills him. It is his first death in the dungeon, in any dungeon . Once he is revived , he is a blank slate with no desires left from his old self pre dungeon master. We are able to see what has always been hinted at, and Kabru confirms later on: Mithrun is able to gain new desires as long as he chooses to live:

Mithrun must live and seek new desires, he already has by surviving his death wish and then choosing to try and defeat the demon.(as shown by his eye glowing gray once more) He is capable of new desires and will live and find new meaning

After all one of dungeon meshi's major themes is the cycle of death and life :

The main cast learns to accept death, Mithrun to accept life.

Its why having a passively suicidal character realize their behavior and make steps to seek not death, not just surviving , but choosing to live is so impactful.

Once he accepts that, he is able to move on, his final words in the main story show that resolve. When talking about Falin he says this:

At the end of his quest for death, Mithrun chooses to live. As the text declares : your new life begins here

What would you do if your husband was a shitty bastard that cheats 25/8 and you can't sleep no matter what and some bitch shows up outta nowhere and gives you some sleep medicine thing and convinces you to join some criminal organization called pere noel then you give it out to your SHITTY husband and a bunch of random kids in some orphanage but they fucking DIE, so you fix the so called gift and some journalist lady is bugging you then you give out the gift and everyone fucking dies, then the journalist turns out to be some lady named elluka so you fucking drink the gift and fucking die and turns out you were a sentient doll the entire time

finished rereading dunmeshi recently

In Ace Attorney 2: Justice For All, it’s never really made clear what “Prosecutor Miles Edgeworth Chooses Death” actually means or how exactly Phoenix interprets it. We can only speculate what happened after the end of the first game, when Edgeworth disappeared.

However, there is this strange conversation in the middle of Farewell, My Turnabout, where Edgeworth gives a surprisingly thorough and emotional breakdown of the mental state of witness Adrian Andrews and what motivated her to attempt suicide after the death of her mentor, Celeste Inpax.

There’s something familiar about this description… Someone who appears strong and career-driven, but is actually just imitating their mentor, and after that mentor dies…

It was my first instinct to assume that “Prosecutor Miles Edgeworth Chooses Death” was entirely metaphorical, but with this scene I’m convinced that an attempt really was made, and that the reason Gumshoe knows is because he found Edgeworth and stopped him.

i think part of the reason i love mithrun so muchis that like. his obsession with the demon is so explicitly self destructive.

i mean he literally states that the one desire it left him with after it ate him was for it to finish the job. he felt worthless. less than nothing. leftover crumbs to be thrown away.

just this deeply human story of trauma and how people's reactions and emotions to it vary. i love how human everyone in dungeon meshi is in general. no one is perfect. its just so. ughhh. i love this series.

healing mithrun attack