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We can get through the daytime without a single black thought. But as soon as our heads hit the pillow and the lights go out, our minds are quickly consumed by the darkness. When we open our eyes the next morning we feel the same way we had the day before. “fine.” But every time we open our eyes after a night of darkness, a bit more of our light has slipped away from us. I can’t help but think that someday all the light will be gone. So tell me… How do you live without light?
You don't.
I swear, no matter what I do I still end up fucking up my relationships and friendships with other people.
Why the hell do they keep giving me more chances?....I wouldn't.
Her: I don't trust you anymore.
Me: .. Makes sense.
Her: How?
Me: I don't even trust me, so why would you?
It’s 5 AM and I can’t stop thinking about you. The sun may be rising but my mind is falling...
Falling into old habits....again
You only like me when you're lonely..
Unknown
How am I supposed to move on when every time I try you just start flirting with me again.
I keep going back to you
I need to learn the fucking difference between people that MAKE time to talk to me and people that HAVE time to talk to me.
I thought you made time for me, but I thought wrong.
Every night I find myself staring at my ceiling… Just thinking about you. And every night I just come to the same realizations. If you cared about me, you would be texting me instead of her. If you cared about me, you would try to make our conversations last longer. If you cared about me, you would talk to me even if there were other people to talk to.
But you don’t care about me…. Not anymore.
Just forget about me
Everyone else has
Everyone who gets close to me
just
gets
hurt
It may be cold now, and it may seem like it will never be warm again. But summer WILL come. The sun WILL shine. And the warmth WILL come back.
I hope
Everybody thinks I’m over you. But sometimes… when someone else is talking about their relationship.. or I see two strangers holding hands.. I remember that at one point that could have been us. And my hearts breaks all over again.
Things Change #6
Am I supposed to pretend that everything is okay?..
It's not
Isn’t it funny how close we used to be. I used to be your first choice… But somewhere along the line, you stopped feeling the same way about me that I will always feel about you.
Things Change #5
But I will wait an eternity if I feel as if there is still
the tiniest,
littlest bit
of hope left.
Do you ever just get scared for no reason?.. It's like you know something bad is about to happen but you don't know what and that just makes you even more terrified.
Anxiety // I'm.not.living.im.surviving on ig
Our favorite colors were always the same; blue. But I recently grew very fond of purple. That doesn't mean I like blue any less, I just like purple more now.
Things Change #4 // I'm.not.living.im.surviving on ig
They say we 'are not alone' but that isn't always a good thing. It makes everyone see us as 'just another depressed kid' or 'just another emo teen'. People think that it's 'just what teenagers do.' But if we were like the others, we wouldn't feel this broken.
I guess it doesn't matter though since this is all 'just a phase' anyway
If I were to stop talking.. would anyone even notice?
I Doubt It. // @im.not.living.im.surviving on ig
The sad part is... I saw this coming. I saw it coming but that didn't stop me from continuing to love you.
I still continue to love you... // @im.not.living.im.surviving on ig
I used to feel at home whenever I talked to you. But now it’s more like when you check into a motel; familiar, yet cold and neglected.
Things Change #3 // @im.not.living.im.surviving on ig
Everyone is always better than me at everything..
You already knew that though // @im.not.living.im.surviving on ig