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1. Are you named after anyone?
No not that I’m aware of
2. When’s the last time you cried?
Couple nights ago
3. Do you have kids?
Yes, my baby boy jinx the most perfect cat in the world
4. Do you use sarcasm often?
Yes, though I normally can’t pick up on it
5. What do you notice first when you meet someone?
Hair and if I know the person their eyelashes I don’t know why though
6. What color are your eyes?
Grey
7. Scary movie or happy ending?
Scary movie all the way silent hill being my favorite movie
8. What are your special talents?
Idk probably being dumbass supreme I’m good at projecting however
9. Where were you born?
Tennessee sadly
10. What are your hobbies?
Sleeping and musical theater
11. What pets do you have?
I’ve had tons but right now it’s just baby boy jinx
12. What sports do you play?
None screw them
13. How tall are you?
5’3” I think
14. Favorite school subject?
Choir or theater
15. Dream job?
Secondary ELA teacher which middle to high school or a politician/ prosecutor i think it would be fun
@pikamiii
thanks @the-depression-gremlin for the tag :))
idk ive never done one of these before
anyways
1. are you named after anyone
yes my moms friend (but its my middle name)
2. whens the last time you cried
lmao like last night
3. do you have kids
absolutely not.
4. do you use sarcasm often
yeah but mostly in text
5. what do you notice first when you meet people
usually how they dress
6. what color is your eyes
uhh kinda hazel idk
7. scary movie or happy ending
scary movie, i love horror
8. what are your special talents
uh idk ive been told in good at singing
9. where were you born
tennessee, us. :/
10. what are your hobbies
anything music related
11. what pets do you have
oh i love this question! i have three dogs and a lizard- the dogs are split between my parents’ houses, but the lizard is mine
12. what sports do you play
none. absolutely not
13. how tall are you
really short :/
14. favorite school subject
probably math just cus i could understand it if i stayed awake for the class
15. dream job
therapist! a trauma therapist specializing in children, specifically.
i had to do it before my mutuals could so i had someone to tag :/
@pikamiii @mikubinderthomasjefferson
The way Vox looks at Alastor is killing me 😭
what the fuck was that chapter bllk, I just got done crying over no home, are you shitting me.
bllk 300 spoilers under cut
kaneshiro really decided to celebrate the 300th chapter of his manga by giving us the most heart wrenching and devastating chapter for reonagi and just the manga as a whole. I'm still reeling oh my God.
nagi is not gone. I'm pretty convinced of that. but fuck, I knew he'd do that. the one thing I didn't want him to do: saying goodbye.
which is why I like what isagi said to nagi about not quitting soccer. he probably said it for multiple reasons but I like to think that a tiny part of him was saying it for reo's sake. that reo would be the happiest if nagi kept trying soccer.
the whole chapter man... nagi, the hopeless romantic he is, saying all that to reo. "[the time I spent with you] is the greatest treasure of my life" hits a million times harder than I love you, idc idc. it's practically a confession let's not lie. on live tv too. him holding his wrist, the skin contact? placing a hand on his head? what are you doing to me kaneshiro.
I love that isagi and chigiri teared up. especially isagi since some ppl were saying before that he didn't gaf. it's just so sweet and shows that nagi truly made an impact. (it's hard to tell the reactions of the other players bc of the shitty image quality)
idk man, like ik nagi isn't gone gone but for right now he is and it feels like the end of an era and fuck i'm not okay. props to knsr for having the balls to kick off a fan favorite character but now we just gotta see if he can pull the rest off. cause I'm willing to bet there are some ppl who will genuinely drop bllk after this.
anyways next chapter I need to see someone comforting reo, preferably chigiri. that boy is not okay.
I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED MY POST HELP posting this again 😭😭💔
I really hate sitting alone, amongst the hordes of gremlins and zombies, schreeching as the greatest of monsters duel it out before us. I hate trying to blend in and pretend I’m one of them, when I really just want to hide under my covers like the kid I am.
I hate school pep rallys.
“El Baile del Sapito” is playing on the background.
It’s the boy’s birthday! (I’m projecting on him and you can quote me from the second one)
Inaccurate FlashFam quotes #4
Bart in Reach: What if I became a superhero?
Bart: Jk jk...
Bart, also leading a revolt against the function: Unless?
Nothing makes me cackle more than Dacre Montgomery posting bts pics, not of ST, but the Elvis movie on the premiere of Vol 2 🤣
He really said 🖕once he saw the mistreatment of Billy’s character by the duffle bags.
I tried...
Hey guys,so about Inktober.....
I’m done.I’m not doing it anymore since I had days where I was either not feeling it,too lazy,or had too much work to do.So I’m sorry,I tried and fail.
So sorry,but yeah.
PLEASE SHARE AND VOTE
https://www.change.org/p/independent-school-district-196-no-school-on-friday-november-1st-3d5a66c4-9617-4a47-986d-af47633e8ff9
Please share this and vote. We want as many votes as posisible it will take 2 seconds and if this works it will really help my mental health!!!
Im currently so depressed I don't know what to do. Anyone? It's affecting soccer and school but I don't know how to handle it because no one really knows or cares.
OH FUCK YOU
Hoes made me so mad i became spiritually connected with the moon and turned to crystals and incense and journalled just to feel something
Stress got so bad i turned into a fairy
+ a breakdown, depends on my mood
the vibe i bring to the function
she's Kate Moss and she's a rockstar trapped in a supermodel's body
The Happy Fits have some HEAVY Jayvik coded songs
OMG
*sigh*
why are they like this?? i just can't-
LEAVE ME ALONE IM CRYING WHY WOULD U DI THIS TO ME
Three Seconds
Paring(s): jj maybank x fem!reader
Summary: three seconds is all it takes for things to fall apart
Side note: A lot of my writing is going to be either smut or heavy on the heartbreak lol, very few happy endings
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One. Two. Three
Three seconds.
One. Two. Three.
Three seconds of silence was all it took for him to completely shut me out. His blonde hair striking against the hue of the sky while his piercing blue eyes stare at me, pleading me to agree.
I opened my mouth to speak yet nothing came out. Instead, a wave of panic spread throughout my body causing an intense feeling of suffocation. My thoughts raced as I realized how serious the situation was.
“We’re sick of your shit.”
“Oh, my shit?” JJ let’s put a humorless laugh before shaking his head.
Kie’s eyes dart to mine before she takes a step towards him, looking at him with such disappointment. “You’re pulling guns on people shit.”
I can tell they’re all waiting for me to jump in, to talk some sense into JJ but for some reason my feet are glued to the floor and my throat is tight and no words are coming out.
Instead, my gaze is locked on the grey duffel bag set at his feet, filled with cash.
Cash that he stole from a drug dealer who had a gun to my head an hour ago.
Anxiety coursed through my veins as my stomach swayed with nausea. I wring my hands together trying to create some type of grounding.
“You need to tell him. Tell him this isn’t what we’re doing.” Pope steps in front of me, his hands gripping my shoulders.
JJ’s gaze was burning a whole right through my head and it took every bit of strength I had to meet his stare head on.
I understood him. Everything he’s ever done, as rash and reckless as he was, there was always a reason. That was something our friends never understood about him, they just played it off as JJ being JJ. This money, as stupid as it was, he needed. It could give him every bit a freedom JJ needed away from his dad.
Luke was cruel and uncaring. Consistently spitting venom at him, reminding of how disappointing and useless JJ is. So, I understand. I would have taken the money too if it gave me some peace away from home.
Sarah and Kie, as sweet and loving as they are, will never understand. They were born Kooks, had homes on figure 8 with parents who love them. They didn’t need this money, but we did. And yet, I knew he couldn’t take the money. We were entering entirely knew territory with gold and guns and there was no certainty that we would be safe.
Barry knew exactly who we were. The moment he pulled the gun, the nuzzle pointed directly at JJ, the boy I’ve been in love with since I was 14, all color drained from my face. My body trembled in fear as I let out a shout and reached for him but Barry switched positions. Suddenly, the gun was pressed against my temple as he shouted demands. But for a brief moment, there was a sense of relief because it was no longer on JJ and I could breathe again. This feeling, this sickening choking panic, I don’t ever want to feel again.
The cut was a small place and if not taking the money meant JJ would be safe then it was a small price to pay. But, I know him. I know he’s not going to understand how I see it but rather take it as a betrayal.
One. Two. Three.
JJ says nothing as his eyes rake over every inch of my face. Three seconds was all it took for him to completely close off.
That choking panic I mentioned earlier? Came back tenth-fold as it finally clicked.
“Jayj…” I reached out to touch his arm, the bracelets I gave him mockingly dangling from his wrist as he jerks away from me.
“Don’t.”
My chest tightened as I drew my hand back, fumbling with my fingers nervously.
JJ ripped his hat off his head before roughly running his hand through his hair. He started to pace, twisting the hat in his hands before stopping in front of all of us.
My heart ached at his obvious distress but I knew my input was the last he wanted now. As far as he was concerned, I didn’t care about him.
Pope let out an exasperated sigh. “You’re acting like a maniac-“
“Pope, I took the fall for you man. Do you know how much money I owe because of you?”
“I’m going to pay you back. I didn’t ask you to do that.”
“I just did. I just did pay it back. “ JJ takes a step forward, pressing his palms on Pope’s chest, shoving him back. “Right here, right now, by myself.”
“Let’s just calm-“ JJ’s glare stopped me in my tracks. He regarded me coldly, his face giving nothing away to the storm that raged in his ice blue orbs.
“Oh what? You suddenly decide you have something to say? Where were you five fucking minutes ago?”
I swallowed hard. “Can I please just explain-“
“Explain what? The fact that you know I need this money and you’re going to act like this is some big moral issue, ” JJ kept his hard set gaze on me, drilling holes into me, daring me to move. “How did you like having a gun pointed at you, huh?”
“You mean the same gun that I stepped in front of because seeing it pointed at you nearly made me sick to my stomach?” I spat, shaking my head at him.
This wasn’t fair. He didn’t get to do this to me. Not now.
He said nothing to me, instead he turned his gaze to the Twinkie, twisting his ring around his finger anxiously.
“JJ, you take this money, you open the door for a whole lot of other shit. You think Barry’s just going to let you take it?”
“Listen to your girlfriend, man.” John B stepped up, clapping JJ on the back.
JJ shrugged him off as he took three quick steps towards me, forcing me to tilt my head up at him.
“What girlfriend?” He spat, his eyes darting in between mine, before settling into a sick satisfaction at my sharp in take of breath.
“JJ-“
“You know what?” He stated, bending down to grab the duffel. “I’m going to go off by myself.”
“You don’t get to do this shit.” I snapped as I reached for the duffel and tugged it towards me. “You want to treat me like shit? Fine, I dont care as long as I don’t find you dead in a ditch.”
JJ blinked at me and said nothing. The only thing giving away his emotion is the tightened grip on the bag.
“Go, then. Since you’re so eager to leave, but you’re not taking the money.” My breath came out short as the anger pounds through my blood.
“Or what? You’re gonna stop me? Last time I checked, I didn't need a god damn hang on.” I wince at the anger in his voice and fight the urge to shut down.
"Stop acting like you don't care , JJ. "
“I expected this from them, but never you.” His ring covered fingers danced along my chin, before he gripped it tightly forcing my eyes on him. “You were supposed to have my back. You told me that you got me, that you understand me. All I know now is that you a fucking liar.”
“I’m trying to protect you.” I plead, “Why can’t you see that?”
JJ scoffs, “Protect me? What do you think is gonna happen if I don’t pay back the restitution?”
“We can find another way-“
“I DONT have anything else.” He shouted in my face, his façade finally cracking under the pressure. “What don’t you understand? This is all I fucking have.”
I felt my grip on the bag weaken as I processed his words. It was normal for JJ to lash out when he felt cornered, but it was never directed at me.
My body trembled as I stared at him with a look I can only describe as broken. “You have me.”
I spoke the words softly knowing if I spoke any louder, the shake in my voice would give me away.
One. Two. Three.
Three seconds was all it took for him to completely and utterly break me.
“That’s not enough.”
Whatever fight I had left, fled from my body as my fingers let go of the duffel. I bit the inside of my cheek, fighting back the tears that threaten to escape.
“You win, JJ.”
My eyes slowly traced every part of his face. From the sun grazed blonde strands that laid in a messy heap on his head, to the bronze tan arms from spending hours out on the waves that complimented his bright blue eyes.
I waited for what felt like hours, but was a mere moment, for JJ to take it back. For him to apologize and pull me into his arms. Instead, we just stared at each other, no one saying a word.
Then, he tilted his head turned around and left, leaving what felt like a blazing trail of carnage in his wake.
It felt like all the air had been sucked out of my body. Small hands wrap themselves around me as my legs suddenly feel like they’ve been kicked out from under me. The familiar sweet scent of Sarah filled my nose, as she pulled me into her arms, physically holding me up.
Today is the day! Where our neighborhood hothead becomes the center of attention once again!! Please welcome, Sanemi Shinazugawa!! The Wind Pillar! The Suicidal Maniac! The Big Brother! Kanae's Secret Love Intrest! My Unfortunate Comfort Character!!
I just wanna wish him an AMAZING BIRTHDAY!! May he be in denial of his feelings for a bit longer ✨️ But pleasantries aside, why the hell is he so HOT?!? He has so many fucked up scars and weird ass eyes, but he still looks so damn good. He is like a 10 every single day. While I look like a 6 on a great day. AND I HAVE EYEBROWS!!! >:( Am I jealous of the fact that he is so pretty? Yes. Do I care? No. I'm just gonna enjoy his bare chest a while longer.
Eternal Bout Shiraishi An Banner 50 60 pulls
Update whenever I waste more crystals on this banner so very very soon 👍 UPDATE: 60th Pull 10-30 pulls:
40th pull:
50th pull:
Hello yes I’m back after spending all my crystals on what was supposed to be my 7th An card but I got worldlink Kohane instead 💀
Uhm at least I finally have a kohane 4* card now?? Too bad my event bonus is still the same 😭 ngl im kinda leaning towards just keeping tsukaser there idk i might change team placement for kizuna rank with an as leader bc i want to up her character rank but akito has a special score skill so im not sure
Going with this for now bc len is almost at kizuna lvl 9 with akito
UPDATE: 60th Pull
BAD NEWS YALL IM COOKED
Life (人生/Jinsei) EXPERT FULL COMBO
The amount of GREATs I got is atrocious wtf 💀
im a bad person
i only hurt those around me
everyones lives would be better if i was dead
i only ruin things
i shouldve died a long time ago
i shouldve never made it this far
im not going to get further in life anyways
im going to die before im 20
either from su1cide or from my illness
i hope i die soon
everyone would be better off that way
(sooner or later im gonna sl1t my throat or ove3d0se on my meds or h4ng myself from a tree in my backyard)
guyz, my fav community got taken down </3
tumblr, PLEASE stop taking down our safe spaces omfg
I ain't ever fucking around with you bitches again season 4 of the umbrella academy only been out for TWO FUCKING DAY and someone already spoiled it for me, ive been waiting so fucking long for this i deadass cant anymore 😭😭😭