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Wow this reminds me of Chuuya

"For once in your life, I’d actually like you to get mad. To say that no, it’s not okay. That you were hurt, and that you want retribution. To prove to me that you are human, and that you feel pain too. Because, right now... you are simply much too perfect."

Something something, Mori's immortal army plan and all the trauma it created, being a way for him to prove ability users are useful and worth keeping around.

The hunting dog's being turned into killing machines and routinely undergoing surgeries just to survive it. They are heroes but it's at the cost of their freedom and peace.

The only creations made by ability users that history deems worthy being weapons like Amenogozen and the One Order.

Child ability users like Chuuya, Kyouka and Teruko being stolen away from their family and treated as less than human because they would make a better weapon.

Children like Atsushi and Yumeno being abused and made to hate themselves all because they have an ability.

Ability users bodies being turned into weapons even after death, like the Holy Sword, the Old Boss, Shibusawa and Fukuchi.

Ability users like Sigma, Bram and Mushitaro being used like tools by organizations because of their abilities.

Combative abilities like Demon Snow being passed down the bloodline forcing children to grow into weapons.

Something about ability users being dehumanized and used by non-ability users for years and years, yet they are the ones villainized for being what they were forced to be, every time.

Something about Fyodor having lived to witness all of this and all that came before. Internalizing that resentment towards ability users, perhaps having been the victim of it at least once, and deciding that the only way the evil will stop is if ability users didn't exist.

I have been in a depressive funk for the past few months. Stress has been piling up and I've just shut down instead of dealing with it one at a time. I don't know where to start.

But Update on I Am Dazai:

Okay so I haven't updated my fanfic for three months because I am both reworking the first chapter and adding a new one. I decided to split the first chapter in two parts to add more context and detail to the time "Dazai" spent with Mori. Especially since new details have come to light and now I have to rewrite it. (Aka I read it and didn't like it) I may also rewrite the funeral but don't count on it. Or just rewrite the whole first half.

I don't know. Please be patient with me.

The next chapter after Dazai and Chuuya have defeated Rimbaud... They may or may not eat together at a restaurant. Wounds should be dealt with right away. But food first. Warm food takes priority.

Edit: It has come to my attention that it has only been fifteen days since I last updated, not three months. Time is a construct. I simply lost time. Oh well, revamped first chapter done. Working on the second one.

To my followers who maybe followed me for my fanfic and to anybody else who wants to vote:

When it comes to the way Dazai and Chuuya defeat Rimbaud, should I follow the anime or the novel? I am torn between using the cloth versus them holding hands. I have both parts written but I am still torn between which one I should do. The cloth has red string of fate symbolism but holding hands is intimate and means they touch. Pick for me?