Man i miss my balcony time ... I need to sit down on a cold foldable chair and listen to the whole Trilogy album in one sitting, stare at one point on the horizon and watch the sun going down, in worst case, getting up.
I just need to find time.
I'd love to say everything that's on my mind but i know, no thought in this head should be said out loud.
Is it a bubbly personality or just a coping mechanisms (?) i guess we will never know
: ( maaan
see the THING IS I don't feel like I ever worked hard enough to have "earned" the burnout, which is. probably how we got here.
Life been so incredibly sad lately. My chest hurts most of the time.
~ Is it too cliché to say i think i can feel my own heart breaking ? ... It is probably.
"Got so sick of crying, so just lately; When I catch myself I do a 180"...
..."As this ache in my chest, as my day is done now; The dark covers me and I cannot run now"...
..."When he comes to me, I drip for him tonight; Drowned in me, we bathe under blue light; His face in my dreams seizes my guts; He floods me with dread; Soaked in soul, he swims in my eyes by the bed; Pour myself over him, moon spilling in; And I wake up alone."
Been thinking about you and there's no rest
Shit I still love you, still see you in bed ...
...Been thinking about you and there's no rest
Should I still love you, still see you in bed?
You guys get it. Get ME.
Dandelions - Vincent van Gogh , 1889.
Dutch, 1853-1890
Oil on canvas , 35.5 x 57 cm. 13.9 x 22.4 in