Don't Keep Me Around Because Of Guilt.

Despite everything, I still care.

Despite everything, I'm still me.

Despite everything, I'm learning

yeah im a jirai, the ladies (and gentlemen) call me the bomb 😔

you're a real fuckin jirai boy, aren't you

Im the reason it got this bad.

I’m the reason you got like this

I’m not using guardian angel as an insult, this isn’t about you right now.

MY BROTHER JUST CASUALLY DROPPED THAT HE READS WEBTOONS TOO AND HE HAD THE NERVE TO SAY "Oh yeah [redacted] you would know something about webtoon wouldnt you"

...YOU READ WEBTOONS?? ...ALSO HEY WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN??

Oh no not again why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why

thank god.

thanks, brothers for talking to me about life stuff.

I promise if things don't work out in the next few years I'll move home and we can rentshare. I'd rather rentshare with you then with D anyway!

my brothers are awesome. They don't support every one of my decisions but they know it's okay to make mistakes.

my brothers have been with me since i stopped simply surviving and actually started living, and i only have them to thank for that.

that said, I'm not leaving this city anytime soon. I have lots to do here still and I'm not leaving anyone behind on a bad note.

I'll never take the easy way out :)

Do what’s best for you, please.

I just want everything to be okay, I’d be happy with just being friends.

fighting for my will to live rn

on the upside I got more VA work and my grades are decent and my brothers are talking to me more

on the downside i ruined my relationship and friendships, i constantly feel like crying, i still haven't even had a chance to stop and process my recent trauma, and these fucking wings wont go away or stop hurting. At least last time they started hurting they were my normal ones. these ones feel different and idk if this is a new kintype or something since I have felt this before but I REALLY don't need this rn especially with everyone around me.

ugh maybe ill leave it up to a coinflip like the last hard decision i made

I don't need a coinflip actually I control my own fate