Fighting For My Will To Live Rn

“I want to strangle them all. I dont want you to ever feel that pain again. This world is so evil to the sweetest of souls.”

What

What

WHAT

She’s obsessive

I’m so conflicted

I made progress and growth today.

If you'd like to hear.

I made up with someone I've been upset with. I finally apologized to him and his friends.

They were happy that I was back.

I fixed that. I repaired my relationship there.

I really did.

I didn't do it to make them feel better this time.

I made a choice for myself finally, and it didn't end up hurting anyone.

I won't even be hurt by letting him back into my life. He's a good person.

I cried today.

I cried in that very same spot.

You wouldn’t have been able to tell though.

Cried with my head in my hands.

I'm working to make myself better.

But that doesn't mean you need to make a bad decision.

Make the decision you truly want.

God I’m pathetic. You were right there in front of me and I cowered away. Even now when I know how you truly feel I’m afraid to even be seen

I saw you in that stairwell of x’s.

I couldn’t tell if you wanted me there or if you wanted me gone.

I’d be happy if we could just talk again.

Sometimes I feel like crying and curling up and crying more but I know if I let it out it’ll worry people and I still have energy to keep going.

I’m fine everyone I’ll be alright!

I just need to find a period of time to be alone while I break down!

I can’t afford to break down in front of you right now, and if I break down at home my mom will bother me about it.

All I can do is listen to opal! “You’re strong, I know you are!”

I’ll stay strong for all of you! I have time to rest when I’m alone!

you should just block her if you hate her that much?

Wish you luck

I'm planning on it. I just don't know how far she'll go to keep me around because shes obsessive.

Thank you, as usual :)

Ch almost died today but he made it through the surgery. I’m so glad he’s still alive.

He’s a great person

and yet i would have shoved it at you and ran away because regardless i want you to be alright

ill be fine, i already found ways to be okay.

focus on yourself right now. please.

you're the one who needs support, and i hope you're getting enough from everyone.

the reason i've been running away from you is because i hate seeing how you look at me these days.

i hope that soon, you'll be able to look at me normally again.

I let myself get swept up by the first person who looked my direction instead of waiting for who I wanted to be with and everything is ruined. For both of them, and for me.