Do What’s Best For You, Please.

I have yet again been encouraged to stay out of the public eye and keep to myself at school.

"Goodnight bro, see you tomorrow"

He doesn't understand how much I needed to hear that, to know that he's going to spend time with me willingly. Sometimes it feels like people only talk to me because I initiate, but hearing those simple 5 words made everything feel okay. I feel like I'm back in 8th grade, making plans to go over and hang out in his backyard I feel like I'm free from all my troubles that came later. I'm free from the changes that I never wanted to make and were forced on me by... some bad people.

I feel like the person I want to be again. I feel like I am who I should be and who I would have been if not for all the shit I've went through.

I hope this feeling stays around for a while.

I hope he says those words again tomorrow. "Goodnight bro. See you tomorrow" Goodnight, bro.

I'll be here, enjoying the feelings those words gave me. It will be a good night.

I'm sorry for all of that.

It's okay to crash out though.

You deserve to let the feelings out.

do you guys also ruin every good thing in your life or is that just me

"...You're strong. I know you are..."

What an oddly familiar phrase. What an odd thing to tell me.

Thank you, Opal. I'm glad I stopped you back then.

I hope Ch lives.

never apologize for the blog spam it’s your blog :D!!!

Thanks I just don’t wanna flood my followers feeds or whatever (I’m new to tumblr 😭)

someday, everything is going to turn out okay. you'll wake up with no blisters, no bruises, no scratches. you'll go about your day like normal, surrounded by people who care for you. you'll laugh and joke with them like you always have, and it will be easy to forget the hard times you had before.

it's all going to be okay.

stay safe.

thank you so much. there's so much going on that i don't even put in my blog but words like these make me feel cared about. I know there are people supporting me out there more then ever right now. Thank you for your kind words.

Don't keep me around because of guilt.

even though she was supporting me i got rid of her. no way in hell am i abandoning anybody because someone like her told me to ever again.

I'm fixing myself and I don't need someone to try and derail me again.

See? I'm learning!

I won't stop here. I'll keep doing everything I can to get better.

And I promise I'll stop letting myself get hurt.

...the marks on my arms look suspicious but I promise they're just scrapes.