Telling People I Don't Feel Good Instead Of Feeling Depressed Cause Its Easier Then Them Asking Questions

things that made me stop wanting to die that require no effort whatsoever

change the color used to highlight text on your laptop

move the pictures on your wall

stack whatever clutter is in your room into piles even if you don’t have time to clean it all

slightly vary your commute, even just by one street

change where you sit and scroll aimlessly on your phone even if it’s only to the chair in your room instead of your bed

drink water or juice out of a wine glass in the morning because nothing is real

shower with the lights off, without music

buy $3 flowers at trader joe’s—they look bad next to the more expensive ones but they look so good in your room

start typing things you don’t post into your notes. your thoughts can be worth documenting even if you don’t deem them worth sharing

wake up super early just once. you don’t have to make it a habit it’s just extra satisfying to go to bed that night

listen to the entirety of your favorite album from 2015

Dice el amor que aún no.

Dice el amor que seas paciente, que todo nos llega. Que los corazones se rompen y eventualmente se reparan. Dice el amor que todo irá bien, que la herida dejará de supurar. Dice el amor que te tomes tu tiempo. Dice el amor que todo con calma, que estarás y estaremos mejor. Dice el amor que esperes, que va a dejar de doler. Dice el amor que así como lloras, florecerás. Dice el amor que dejes de preguntarte por qué no llega, él siempre sabe cuándo…

Clara Ajc

do it for him

{just a lil self motivation, trigger warning x}

if you won’t do it for your fatass ugly self, do it for him:

- so he can pick you up easily when you hug

- so he’s proud to show you off to his friends

- so he feels so lucky to have someone with a body like yours

- so he never even thinks about another girl

- so you look good from any angle ;)

- so he can take pictures with you and post them everywhere

- so he can trace along your ribs and collarbones in awe, wondering how he’s so lucky to have a girl like the ones in magazines

- so he can wrap his arms around you

- so your thin, delicate hands drown in his

- so when you go swimming he can’t take his eyes off your perfect body

- so all his big clothes hang effortlessly off your body

- so when he asks what size to buy your birthday presents in, you get to say XS or 00

- so he spends less money buying you food and more buying you flowers and new clothes

- so you never have to feel insecure about being bigger than him

- so all his friends are jealous of him for having you

- so all the other girls who like him know they’ll never stand a chance

- so when you decline food, he tells you you’re already so thin, you don’t need to diet, he loves you just the way you are, but you know if he knew the you before, he wouldn’t look at you twice

So I just had a thought

What if supernatural creatures don’t exist anymore? What if they did once, but through the years, they slowly mixed in with humans?

You can see the blood of fairies in the way a ballet dancer hovers in mid air before he or she hits the ground. You can see it in the way that middle school girl never forgets when someone makes her a promise. You can see it in how that one little boy in the kindergarten class seems more comfortable in the forest on that field trip than the others.

You can see the blood of dryads in hikers who never trip over roots. You can see it in that suburban grandmother never lets any of her garden die. You can see it in that one kid who climbs a tree faster than his friends, barely looking at the branches as he goes.

You can see the blood of naiads in the way a professional swimmer seems to command the water to help them. You can see it in how a cross country runner needs a water break more often than his teammates. You can see it in the way that one girl in your class always has a water bottle on her desk.

You can see the blood of mermaids in a surfer who can be tossed around underwater for a long time without drowning. You can see it in a teenage boy who doesn’t have to pretend to be unbothered by the pressure when he races his friends to the bottom of a swimming pool. You can see it in the little girl who wades into every stream she sees on a hike without quite knowing why.

You can see the blood of sirens in people who never have a problem with getting people to date them. You can see it in that soprano who can hit notes most of her fellows can only dream of. You can see it in the camp counselor who all the straight girls have a crush on, who can play guitar and sing better than any of the others.

You can see the blood of shapeshifters in the way an actor adjusts their personality to become their character with scary accuracy. You can see it in the subconscious, barely noticeable changes a tween girl’s eyes make to match her outfit better. You can see it in the way you always lose that one friend in a crowd if you’re not careful, because he’s just too good at blending in.

People who carry the blood of werewolves don’t change with the full moon anymore, but you can still see it in the way your best friend always knows something is wrong, though even they don’t know they’re smelling the changes in your body chemistry. You can see it in the way that one guy always seems to eat more than the reasonable amount of red meat at an all-you-can-eat buffet. You can see it in the way that one werido never has a problem when the teacher turns off the lights before a PowerPoint presentation because her eyes adjust quicker and better than yours.

The blood of supernatural creatures may have mostly faded away. But if you look closely, you can still see it.

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What am i feeling?

I know no one will care for this, but have you ever liked someone so much that when they left it crushed you? You felt hopeless and broken, but than they came back and filled your mind with sweat whispers? I know his not lying to me when he says he likes me. He can't lie to me anymore. I know this is more than the crush i had, but i dont know if it could ever be strong enough for love.

me: *sends a single text* why am i so clingy

It seems like just yesterday

Everything was alright

But now

I’m alone