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If Atsushi kept a diary, how do you think he'd write about Akutagawa in it?

soooo much crisising. nearly every entry is a drawing of akutagawa and a word vomit about his complicated feelings and how confusing they are and aaaaaaaa why does he sort of want to kiss the guy who used to be his enemy WHAT IS GOING ONNNN

Howdyy, What’s your fav bsd character? :3

Hello! :]

Omggg that's a tough one

I love a lot of the characters but if I had to pick just one, I'd say Akutagawa. He's been my favorite for like, ever, and he's just so amazing

He can be blunt and cold and rude but also he's written so well with his bloodlust and struggles and how he's still not purely evil in the end. I love everything about him 😔

My other favorites are definitely Atsushi (he's so sassy and strong but also a cinnamon roll like cmon he's perfect, I love him), Adam (the most underrated bean is existence, I would die for Adam), Nikolai (he's so crazy and wild, yet somber, idk I just love his whole vibe as a character), Dazai (I know how basic this is but I will never not love Dazai, he's such a pivotal and deep character, his angst turns me into a waterfall), Chuuya (who doesn't love Chuuya 🙏 he's loyal and strong and such a fun and emotional character aaa I love him), Higuchi (she's definitely one of my comfort characters, I love her in Wan! bc she adds a great lighthearted touch to everything), Kyouka (she's so underrated, she's so adorable and resilient and honestly I love how she was written) and Bram (he's so stoic and literal, I just love him. I totally didn't cry when he died. I'm not crying you're crying)

Help that ended up long. But yeah, there's some quick summaries on my favorites in Bsd :>

my favorites pics of 'the eras tour' ♡

2 years of the tour of the century

also, my 22nd birthday! <3

fic planning be like:

Leader Of the Sheeps, Chuuya Nakahara 15 :3

I HAVE AN ACRYLIC STAND I BOUGHT AT COMIC CON OF A SSKK ART LIKE THIS OML 😭

Dazai did this.

It's just all my current favorites on this list lol

When I look at the number 88, I get war flashbacks. This isn't a joke guys.

i open tumblr. i close tumblr. i check discord. i open tumblr. i close tumblr. i open spotify. start a song. open youtube. pick video, ending song. video bad. i close youtube. i open tumblr

Speak Now World Tour

March 2, 2012 - Perth, Australia

Little akutagawa-chan😔

What do you think Gin, Tachihara, Chuuya and Higuchi's reactions to Akutagawa dating Atsushi would be?

gin: really happy for him honestly. their brother has found someone he really loves and who really loves him!

tachihara: "yeah sure he's dating someone that's great I guess. am I supposed to say more???" also salty that akutagawa has a boyfriend but he's still single

chuuya: also happy for him! atsushi is a good kid. not the biggest fan of akutagawa dating a member of the ada though because that means... one or both of them might have to see dazai.....

higuchi: sobbing and devastated for the entire first week after she hears the news. and then immidiately after that she gets over it and is the #1 sskk supporter

this is so real 🙏 I always name things after lyrics or just fail miserably and name it something cringey that my two brain cells mushed together in a panic. I recommend lyrics

As for summaries, I have absolutely no idea

okay wait question for everyone. how do you name fics and how do you write summaries

beast dazai is considered a tragic character for all the obvious reasons: carried the weight of the memories of his other selves and using that knowledge to save oda from his fate even if it meant dying/killing himself in the end. This sympathetic narrative allows you to ignore the utter selfishness and immaturity of beast dazai and how he runs away from grief and pain, and I mean this in the best way possible.

The real tragedy of beast is that unlike all the other dazais, beast dazai never got the chance to meet and know oda, thence allowing him a new perspective to grow. In The day I picked up Dazai , dazai shows personal growth by the end of the novel, hence why he respects oda a lot. He is treated as a human being who still doesn't know much, and that brings comfort to someone deemed a demon prodigy. In side b of the same novel, beast dazai makes an effort to not know or bond with oda; yes this is because he wanted to ensure his survival by steering him away from the port mafia, but that event is what fundamentally changed dazai- gave him a better understanding of his own humanity.

Despite having all that knowledge of his other selves, of how each universe's timeline will play out, beast dazai didn't seem to grasp that it is grief that allowed the other dazai to grow and be a better person. He didn't understand that in the end, it is the time he (the other dazai) spent with oda that made living worthwhile, not his life. His state of living, the state of perfection in beast dazai's eyes, will still cause him more suffering than the act of losing a good friend.

Because if he had only wanted him to live, then he wouldn't have been so shocked when oda refused to indulge in a friendly conversation, not when he clearly went out of his way to antagonize himself in oda's eyes in tdipud. It's because the realization hit him: he wanted his time with oda to not be cut short.

Having memories of another oda is clearly not enough, he needed his own intimate friendship with his own oda. But with this elaborate plan and his reaction to being rejected, it's clear that beast dazai was trying to avoid pain. He could not accept the grief and pain of loss that he's seen and felt in his other selves, ignoring what came after: growth and satisfaction of ever having oda in their lives at all.

Pain is inherently human and by ignoring and rejecting it, beast dazai rejects his own humanity. Or runs away from it, because it catches up to him regardless. He still ignores it throughout the rest of the story, especially in other characters.

Beast dazai, as we all know, eventually takes his own life. While there is a reason as to why he did it, but it was still part of his plan from the beginning. Meaning, he knew this near fruitless pursuit would still have him unable to handle grief. It's an inherently selfish goal with an inherently selfish way out under the guise of "leaving the rest in atsushi and akutagawa's hands"

(Note: I do not mean in any way that suicide is selfish, but rather the narrative and character of dazai in beast alludes to this. Both concepts can co-exist in a fictional setting)

Despite seemingly helping other characters, beast dazai also trampled on both akutagawa and atsushi's self worth. This made them easier to manipulate for his grand plan, but ignores the damage he's done to them and other characters after his death.

For akutagawa it is the loss of his sister and convincing him of his monstrosity due to Dazai's meddling. For atsushi, someone he conditioned into severe fear and dependency on him, was left alone watching the person he cared so much for fall from the building. And yes, he left him in mori's care afterwards, but dazai should know more than anyone the damage the death of a loved one has, unless it doesn't apply to him.

In the epilogue, mori openly mourns dazai's death along with atsushi. Due to being free of his rigid responsibility as the pm boss, he had the liberty of finally being the caretaker he's always wanted to be but at the cost of the person he considered his son (in comparing dazai to atsushi, who he then calls his son + all the other stances where mori treated dazai like a son etc)

The thing that beast dazai, or dazai in general, tends to not fully understand or accept, is that he is also loved, and his death will cause others pain as well. I am by no means saying he should've thought of others before dying, but it is the lives of others that dazai from the main manga also cherishes after oda's death. Beast dazai made it his entire life goal to essentially protect oda, realize its not the only thing he's wanted from him and gave his raison d'etre a flimsy excuse of meaning in life. It's inherently selfish.

Selfishness is a common theme in bsd, and beast dazai fits right in. Atsushi's selfish desire to save people to give himself a justification to be alive, Sigma's inherently selfish nature of self preservation and identity and so on.

I've probably ranted for much longer than anticipated, but the point is: beast dazai's purpose is a selfish desire to escape pain and loss when it's crucial to the human experience. Dazai in the main manga seems to grasp this much better than beast dazai, it's something the latter is "missing", refusing to grow out of his selfishness and it makes his character more of a cautionary tale.

Lover by Taylor Swift fits sskk imo 

I can't not think of the lyric:

"Can I go where you go?

Can we always be this close forever and ever?

And ah, take me out, and take me home

You're my, my, my, my

Lover" because of the "take me out" part obviously meaning on a date but also it can be interpreted as assassination in some contexts, and Akutagawa swore to kill Atsushi (as if that's ever gonna happen), but he could also take him on a date lmao 

"And there's a dazzling haze, a mysterious way about you, dear

Have I known you 20 seconds or 20 years?" is a fitting lyric to the dynamic of their relationship about how connected they feel inevitably even if they haven't known each other long (they're soulmates 😔)

"Ladies and gentlemen, will you please stand?

With every guitar string scar on my handI take this magnetic force of a man to be my lover

My heart's been borrowed and yours has been blue

All's well that ends well to end up with you

Swear to be overdramatic and true to my lover" the scars lyric, the hearts lyric, everything in this song is just so sweetly sskk (if they started dating, at least)

Redraw of Dead Apple's second volume cover

Kyouka is adorable<3

Dead apple skk as my first post ig

(Old art, Arialogy used to be my username)

Yes I like higuchi. Yes I ship sskk. No I do not ship akuhigu. We exist 😔

Akutagawa really likes wrapping Rashomon around Atsushi's neck...

Higuchi, injured post-mission 😔

Headcanon: I like to think Adam just refuses to swear infront of Chuuya.

At first Chuuya thought it was just some professionalism bullshit that Adam always kept his cool like that.

But then he witnessed Adam go off on Shirase and covered Chuuya’s ears. Though he didn’t account for that Chuuya could read his lips.

He does this every time and Chuuya has yet to hear him swear but he will one of these days.

Akutgawa after hitting Atsushi with his car: You want me to drive you home?

Atsushi just arrived in Yokohama: I’m homeless

Akutgawa: …do you wanna move in with me?

Atsushi, never heard of stranger danger: Okie

Why is Atsushi bending over in front of Akutagawa

Talking about this scene where Atsushi and Akutagawa had to fight Ivan

Okay, first off, this is actually such an underrated moment for Sskk's development. It's the first time they use Kokko Zessou (the Singularity of Rashomon [more like rasHOMOn] and Beast Beneath the Moonlight) and Akutagawa and Atsushi learn more about each other as people, plus this is right before they make the six months promise. I really love seeing sskk together where they can actually talk, and don't just fight

And second of all, WHAT IS THIS FACE ATSUSHI??

he looks so into it 🙏

What in the home of sexual is that look, Atsushi 😭 it's already kinky af for Rashomon to wrap around his neck like that AND THEN ATSUSHI REACTS LIKE THAT

Also I'd like to mention Akutagawa is unusually gentle with Rashomon when he uses it on Atsushi

God they're so in love