Happy Birthday Chuuya!
Searching for memories that aren’t there, this heart of mine Closes itself up, languishes like an old moldy box of trinkets And then there are these sunken cheeks, these cracked lips- Bitterness bred in cruelty comes rushing out in silence…
I’ve grown accustomed to it all, and have leaned to bear it But sometimes any degree of loneliness can bring you down And while I cannot know for sure, sometimes it seems as if These tears are no longer tears for having loved someone…
- Nakahara Chūya, “Poem of the Sheep” from Poems of the Goat
Soiled Sorrow: today too snow falls on it; soiled sorrow: today too wind blows on it.
Soiled sorrow is like, say, a fox’s fur; soiled sorrow in its torpor dreams of death.
Soiled sorrow frightens me piteously; soiled sorrow can’t be remedied, and the sun sets…
- Nakahara Chūya, “Soiled Sorrow” from The Poems of Nakahara Chūya
Now in this world full of sadness, Don’t let your heart harden. For the sake of whatever intimacy we could have, Don’t let your heart harden.
Hardened, the heart is oblivious to the world, And words fall silent on the soul. Nurturing serenity, man returns to that dreaminess Known at the beginning, and can make sense of it all.
- Nakahara Chūya, “Untitled” from Poems of the Goat
Headcanon Chuuya almost always wants to fight the people he respects.
Just one little match, that's all he wants. A no ability sparring match. Just one.
Okay, that wasn't enough, with abilities this time.
Actually, if they were truly testing their capabilities, neither of them would hold back at all.
Okay, now with stakes.
If this person says yes once, you can bet Chuuya will find an excuse to initiate another match. He knows it's not appropriate to ask certain people to a fight, so he literally sits there buzzing like an excited Chihuahua, trying to contain himself.
The Sheep would play wrestle all the time and that's really where it all started. It was a way to teach the younger members how to defend themselves, but also to blow off steam and settle disputes. Grappling each other, shouting silly wrestling moves and pretending to box each other was just a way of showing affection.
Then he became King of Sheep and the other members didn't want to engage in play matches with him anymore. The enemies he fought were boring most days. Once he learned how to deal with bullets there was no challenge to it.
Then came the mafia and with it people like Kouyou, Iceman and Hirotsu. People who could stand up to him and had things they could teach him. People he admired and sparred with regularly. Verlaine eventually was included in this too.
Fights against people like Rimbaud that made him feel alive because they pushed him so close death.
Chuuya found the joy in fighting again and in standing opposite a person you respect on a mat, anticipating their moves, counteracting with you own, an improvised dance of strength and balance.
Begrudgingly, even Dazai was included in that, on the very rare occasion their arguments got physical. Dazai never beat him in a physical fight, but the fact that he knew him so well meant he could stand his ground when he really wanted to.
When he became an Executive and started training his own subordinates, he found yet another new joy in being the one doing the teaching. The pride in seeing his students grow. Unlike with The Sheep, his underlings here knew how strong he was and still stepped up to spar with him, because they trusted him.
Fighting isn't just a battle to Chuuya. It's communication.
@danashehab has been fundraising since may and is just over €15,000 away from their goal l. as stated in the screenshot people are starting to believe the rafah crossing will open so it’s important to make sure everyone has the funds in case they are allowed to evacuate.
thee shehab family consists of dana (13), sahar (14), mona (9), malak (5), yehya (1.5), fahed, (38), reem (32), and grandmother mona (60). they have been shadowbanned and deleted a few times. you can also find this family at @monashehab
The family has had to raise their goal to cover their extended family’s evacuation fees since they are unable to make a new GFM.
The new goal is €85,000.
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Recently saw the phrase "double-blind" in my psych textbook and it made me think of double-black. And then I thought of some more variations, so now i'm making it yall's problem.
I also did a little comic for "double-bind" but I'll post that separately
>censors all existing data on trans healthcare
>orders a study
I'm sure this will be completely unbiased
This fanfic gave me the chance to release my inner edgelord. Cheers!
Hello everyone, I hope you are all doing well. The situation in our area (Al-Zawaida) has worsened recently. The water station has stopped working due to the theft of fuel trucks, making access to water even more difficult than before. Moreover, the matter did not stop there, as flour trucks were also stolen, which means that many families, including mine, will not receive flour to feed their children.
Please help me by sharing this post and donating to me and my family.
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To my followers who maybe followed me for my fanfic and to anybody else who wants to vote:
When it comes to the way Dazai and Chuuya defeat Rimbaud, should I follow the anime or the novel? I am torn between using the cloth versus them holding hands. I have both parts written but I am still torn between which one I should do. The cloth has red string of fate symbolism but holding hands is intimate and means they touch. Pick for me?