Hey, I'm Sorry Man, But I Swear You Help So Much.

been thinkin about this a lot. Jack's masculinity is a special one, esp when considering this show came out in 2004.

apparently back then it was kind of a joke how much Jack cried (arh-arh, how original and funny), but the writers still made their show's hero: sensible, caring, willing to cry, willing to admit (sometimes with difficulty) his mistakes, did i say caring, with an immense capacity to love, protective, and again, caring.

i think it's probably a bit magic that we got to see that representation of masculinity hoisted as a valuable one (this character ends up saving humanity) in the early aughts. we might have been blessed or smth.

btw I love the fact that jack is so emotional and driven by his heart and he falls in love so easy and. god. you don't often see male characters act like that and it's. still pretty refreshing! like yeah boys do cry!!!!

This is everything I've ever needed.

Give this man anything he wants please!

jack shephard smiling

Hihi, I have a doubt, do you have any schedule plan for when you will be releasing you fic's chapters?

No pressure, just curious!

Heyyy thanks for the ask and interest in my silly depressed story 🥰🤪

I announced (but don't remember where) a schedule of posting twice a month, and I intend to keep to it!

It's easy to say now because I have some backlog I'm reediting for chapters 2 to 6, but the last three are just outline at this point.

I'll try and keep people updated if for some reason I can't post twice a month as intended.

This also means chapter two should be dropping end of next week 🎉

It'll focus on Kate and James' POV and will move us closer to the actual smut I'm promising 😇

Can't wait to keep sharing. Thanks for asking !

Since you asked me, I'm asking you back.

What got you into writing fic?

What's your favourite and least favourite thing about writing fanfic?

Thanks Nalu! 🤍

Well, honestly, I've also always loved writing stories. Thing is, nobody sent 10 year old me the memo that said you could do that for existing characters. So mini Em would mostly try to craft original fiction... with differing levels of result. As you said, I reread my works and it's a bit cringe, but oh my god, im so proud of her.

Then I heard about fanfiction years later, well into adulthood, from a friend reading and writing for Harry Potter. But neither HP, nor any other piece of media I'd enjoyed at that point made me go, "Oh, I would love to do that."

Then Lost came back into my life last year ❤️ It knocked the wind out of me how much I loved each and every one of these characters with my whole heart. Also never fell in love with a character the way I did Jack, I'm still amazed to this day... Suddenly, the idea of having these characters interact some more, of getting dynamics and pairings I couldn't get on the show, and of making them so happy by making them fuck... All of these prospects sounded amazing.

Spoiler for the show below

First draft I started, two months and a half ago, was a funeral scene for Jack on the Island, held by Hugo and Rose. I couldn't get through it cause it was too depressing lol so then I quickly let that go for my AU where Jack actually never died. That's been way easier to cope with lol.

So, yeah, long story short, Lost brought me to fanfic. Specifically @forever-erica, who showed me there was still a vibrant and active community writing for the show 😭 Thanks again for that and also your support and help in putting out my first chapters!

I love so many things about writing fic. I'm truly so happy to have started. But if I had to choose, what I've loved most is writing the story I'd love to see. Sometimes, when I get high, I can reread parts of my manuscript and forget for 5 seconds that I'm the one writing it. And I'm like "Oh shit i love this!" I'm so happy to be able to do what I've been doing in my head for yearsーfixing shabby love triangles with the power of polyamoryーfor a show I love so much and characters I feel like I know intimately.

What I've hated most, and it's not hate really, but it's what would discourage me most from keeping on, is the space these stories take up in my brain. It can be a bit overwhelming. And while I can yap about it on the internet; as of now, it's really something I keep to myself in my personal life. I've told most people I'm writing, but less than half know it's fanfic. And, like, I haven't told anyone what it's about. I'd be hard pressed to explain to my mom for instance that I'm making my blorbos discover the power of battling your angst through mind-shattering sex lmao. So yeah, it's more that it feels debilitating how much I love these guys, want to write about them all the time, and want to talk about 'em when I'm not writing about 'emーbut I can't really talk about it IRL.

So thanks mutuals for yapping together online about these magnificent meow meows 😻

Trying to give that man exactly the real good time he needs. It's like a life mission at this point.

you could ship jack shepard with a rock and i'd go: "mmmh, you know what? i see it, totally":

THAT'S WHY I NEED THEM ALL TOGETHER STAT!!

whenever two are happy, one is miserable.

hum literally I've been living in the AU where Jack survives and I won't leave it. I just won't.

canon means nothing when I can shelter my blorbo and keep him alive through the power of archive of our own

the tragedy of Jack Shepard is that he's the character obsessed with fixing everything, meanwhile you have me watching him religiously screw up his life, thinking *i could fix him*

Seeing this song in a whole new light all of a sudden.

dedicated to @selfinflictedgunshotwound, @obsessivedaydreamer, and @heftbyjapanesebreakfast 🍏!

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[IMAGE ID: Various screencaps of Jack Shephard and Christian Shephard from various episodes with a neon green tint and the lyrics to Apple by charli xcx followed by a LOST script from 01x11]

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SHEPHARD: Because I have what it takes.

And his father actually puts his hand on Jack's shoulder. does love his son. This is said out of that love... no matter how fucking cruel it sounds to us—Don't choose, Jack. Don't decide. Walk away from the fights. Because when you fail when you make the wrong choice? It's gonna hurt. And buddy? When that hurt comes?

(beat) You don't have what it takes.

Jack absorbs that. And more importantly, because this is his father. Because he is twelve. Because this must be true

He BELIEVES it.

A beat. And then, his father again extends two fists

SHEPHARD (CONT'D): Same rules. Double or nothing. Decide.

But Jack just looks at the extended hands. Many, many, many, beats pass before Jack finally shakes his head. No.

SHEPHARD (CONT'D): Good boy.

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