This Is Everything I've Ever Needed.

Three’s Always a Crowd

Okay, sorry if this is cruel baiting you with a seemingly regular update post, when this is actually to announce I'll be modifying my posting schedule. 🙈

I'm still incredibly in love with the story I'm writing, but my personal and professional circumstances have changed quite a bit since I started writing in January (good things for the most part!)

This gives me way less time to write, unfortunately, so I'm thinking of switching to updating every month at most. This will let me breathe in between chapters and not feel pressured to finish in a rush.

GIF of discombobulated Jack is actually Em when she opens her manuscript and realises how much she still has to edit.

The story itself is all mapped out, so be assured it will be coming out, it's just a matter of when. I want writing to keep being fun, and for that I need to release the pressure of bimonthly updates.

Thanks for everyone who's following this story, thanks for understanding, and hoping to bring you more good smut soon 🙏🏾

Em

Three’s always a crowd

Chapter 1: Has It Really Been Five Years?

Happy Valentine's everyone ♥ To celebrate love, my fanfic about love, passion, grief, pain and acceptance is finally OUT ! I can't believe I'm posting my writings online, 10yo me would be so proud I'm crying for her 😭

This is chapter one of nine and I hope to post twice a month. This is so close to my heart I feel like I'm handing it to the world. But it's worth it if it can make me exchange about my favourite blorbos.

Warning: The story has spoilers for the whole show. Read at your own discretion.

As you'll see in the notes, this story has been thought with a playlist in mind. Some songs actually appear within the story, so to get in the mood before reading, check out the song I've linked 🎵

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LOST really said here's a love triangle with two men who, when they're not busy standing up to each other in a really homoerotic way, down right make googley eyes at each other.

When they're not busy doing that, they're making googley eyes at the girl who, herself, keeps going back and forth between the two because, well, look at them...

So tell me LOST, how is that even a triangle and not just a damn circle?

my toxic trait to myself these days is uttering the words "I don't care" approximately 20 times a day while caring so much, so intensely, in fact, that I could easily throw up from it.

this photoshoot is proof that what these three needed was to make their love triangle into a love CIRCLE and get together DAMMIT

Josh Holloway, Matthew Fox, Evangeline Lilly for Vanity Fair

Fire edit with a fire song for a fire show 🔥

And they lived happily ever after

These two... Love them so much.

Good morning 🥴

Morning kisses with you ❦

Since you asked me, I'm asking you back.

What got you into writing fic?

What's your favourite and least favourite thing about writing fanfic?

Thanks Nalu! 🤍

Well, honestly, I've also always loved writing stories. Thing is, nobody sent 10 year old me the memo that said you could do that for existing characters. So mini Em would mostly try to craft original fiction... with differing levels of result. As you said, I reread my works and it's a bit cringe, but oh my god, im so proud of her.

Then I heard about fanfiction years later, well into adulthood, from a friend reading and writing for Harry Potter. But neither HP, nor any other piece of media I'd enjoyed at that point made me go, "Oh, I would love to do that."

Then Lost came back into my life last year ❤️ It knocked the wind out of me how much I loved each and every one of these characters with my whole heart. Also never fell in love with a character the way I did Jack, I'm still amazed to this day... Suddenly, the idea of having these characters interact some more, of getting dynamics and pairings I couldn't get on the show, and of making them so happy by making them fuck... All of these prospects sounded amazing.

Spoiler for the show below

First draft I started, two months and a half ago, was a funeral scene for Jack on the Island, held by Hugo and Rose. I couldn't get through it cause it was too depressing lol so then I quickly let that go for my AU where Jack actually never died. That's been way easier to cope with lol.

So, yeah, long story short, Lost brought me to fanfic. Specifically @forever-erica, who showed me there was still a vibrant and active community writing for the show 😭 Thanks again for that and also your support and help in putting out my first chapters!

I love so many things about writing fic. I'm truly so happy to have started. But if I had to choose, what I've loved most is writing the story I'd love to see. Sometimes, when I get high, I can reread parts of my manuscript and forget for 5 seconds that I'm the one writing it. And I'm like "Oh shit i love this!" I'm so happy to be able to do what I've been doing in my head for yearsーfixing shabby love triangles with the power of polyamoryーfor a show I love so much and characters I feel like I know intimately.

What I've hated most, and it's not hate really, but it's what would discourage me most from keeping on, is the space these stories take up in my brain. It can be a bit overwhelming. And while I can yap about it on the internet; as of now, it's really something I keep to myself in my personal life. I've told most people I'm writing, but less than half know it's fanfic. And, like, I haven't told anyone what it's about. I'd be hard pressed to explain to my mom for instance that I'm making my blorbos discover the power of battling your angst through mind-shattering sex lmao. So yeah, it's more that it feels debilitating how much I love these guys, want to write about them all the time, and want to talk about 'em when I'm not writing about 'emーbut I can't really talk about it IRL.

So thanks mutuals for yapping together online about these magnificent meow meows 😻

i thought being bi was like the main entry criterion for tumblr...

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