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no thoughts, just hanging out with Jack and putting make-up on him 🥰

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been thinkin about this a lot. Jack's masculinity is a special one, esp when considering this show came out in 2004.

apparently back then it was kind of a joke how much Jack cried (arh-arh, how original and funny), but the writers still made their show's hero: sensible, caring, willing to cry, willing to admit (sometimes with difficulty) his mistakes, did i say caring, with an immense capacity to love, protective, and again, caring.

i think it's probably a bit magic that we got to see that representation of masculinity hoisted as a valuable one (this character ends up saving humanity) in the early aughts. we might have been blessed or smth.

btw I love the fact that jack is so emotional and driven by his heart and he falls in love so easy and. god. you don't often see male characters act like that and it's. still pretty refreshing! like yeah boys do cry!!!!

i thought being bi was like the main entry criterion for tumblr...

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the tragedy of Jack Shepard is that he's the character obsessed with fixing everything, meanwhile you have me watching him religiously screw up his life, thinking *i could fix him*

What I wrote ten weeks ago in a post, here about how Sawyer felt about Jack when they were on the Island:

His school girl antics with Jack in the first seasons were just the manifestation of his crush in a way he himself couldn't grasp.

What I found yesterday: A French pop song from my youth (so the early 00's lol) sung by a then middle-school girl, to which the lyrics, when translated, say:

Test me, detest me. Love me, look at me.

Test me, detest me. But above all, look at me.

For a gesture, a word from you, I'd give anything I have.

Test me, detest me. Love me, look at me.

Test me, detest me. But above all, look at me.

And I mean, there's no better way to express his way of acting with Jack. It's so on the nose it made me lol for a while when I realised the parallels.

It's giving I'll tease you, call you names, have you break up the fights I'm a part of, follow you around making dumb jokes you're not in the mood for, volunteer for every risky thing you're also a part of, kiss the girl you're obviously crushing on, get injured so you can help me, and if all fails, I'll actually ask you to play courtyard games with me for a while... anything.

Anyting but, please, please, look at me.

Please, let me fuck you. (heyyy, I have smut on the brain, can you blame me?)

Anywayyyyyyyyyyy... Case closed.

What I wrote ten weeks ago in a post, here about how Sawyer felt about Jack when they were on the Island:

His school girl antics with Jack in the first seasons were just the manifestation of his crush in a way he himself couldn't grasp.

What I found yesterday: A French pop song from my youth (so the early 00's lol) sung by a then middle-school girl, to which the lyrics, when translated, say:

Test me, detest me. Love me, look at me.

Test me, detest me. But above all, look at me.

For a gesture, a word from you, I'd give anything I have.

Test me, detest me. Love me, look at me.

Test me, detest me. But above all, look at me.

And I mean, there's no better way to express his way of acting with Jack. It's so on the nose it made me lol for a while when I realised the parallels.

It's giving I'll tease you, call you names, have you break up the fights I'm a part of, follow you around making dumb jokes you're not in the mood for, volunteer for every risky thing you're also a part of, kiss the girl you're obviously crushing on, get injured so you can help me, and if all fails, I'll actually ask you to play courtyard games with me for a while... anything.

Anyting but, please, please, look at me.

Please, let me fuck you. (heyyy, I have smut on the brain, can you blame me?)

Anywayyyyyyyyyyy... Case closed.

Kate: Is there anyone here who’s actually straight?

Jack: *raises hand*

Sawyer: *puts Jack’s hand down*

Trying to give that man exactly the real good time he needs. It's like a life mission at this point.

you could ship jack shepard with a rock and i'd go: "mmmh, you know what? i see it, totally":

Three’s Always a Crowd

Chapter 4: Well, We're Gonna Have to Remedy That.

Omg guys, another one in the books. I'm so happy to be reintroducing chapters with music, I've been listening to this track so much. I just love where it appears in the story and can't wait to have you guys' feedback.

Writing without pressure has been feeling so fun, the juices have been flowing, and the long weekend just helped me power through and finish this chapter.

I missed posting, missed sharing the story. So there you go:

Another really smut-heavy (they're pretty much all going to be from now on 🫣) chapter to feed the love story and, in this case, to highlight the ease these three babies ended up finding with each other in time 💞

Thanks to anyone who's been following the story, hope this one pleases you as well!

@lost-fanfic-promoter

Three’s Always a Crowd

Okay, sorry if this is cruel baiting you with a seemingly regular update post, when this is actually to announce I'll be modifying my posting schedule. 🙈

I'm still incredibly in love with the story I'm writing, but my personal and professional circumstances have changed quite a bit since I started writing in January (good things for the most part!)

This gives me way less time to write, unfortunately, so I'm thinking of switching to updating every month at most. This will let me breathe in between chapters and not feel pressured to finish in a rush.

GIF of discombobulated Jack is actually Em when she opens her manuscript and realises how much she still has to edit.

The story itself is all mapped out, so be assured it will be coming out, it's just a matter of when. I want writing to keep being fun, and for that I need to release the pressure of bimonthly updates.

Thanks for everyone who's following this story, thanks for understanding, and hoping to bring you more good smut soon 🙏🏾

Em

THAT'S WHY I NEED THEM ALL TOGETHER STAT!!

whenever two are happy, one is miserable.

These two... Love them so much.

Good morning 🥴

Morning kisses with you ❦

Three’s Always a Crowd

Chapter 3: Have a Seat, Baby

Guys, guys guys guys. Guys. The smut has finally arrived. After a month of telling you guys this is a smutty story, here is where I start earning my E rating.

Still lots of cute pining and a nice dose of angst, just because that's how my babies are.

This week has kind of been a bitch to me and writing these three doing nastiezzzzz has been the best distraction, ngl. Lost to the rescue, once again.

Please tell me how you like it lol, there's so much more smut coming. I wanna make sure you guys enjoy 🫶🏽

My three babies, battling their debilitating angst through mind-shattering sex. This is what I wanna always write tbh.

@lost-fanfic-promoter

Since you asked me, I'm asking you back.

What got you into writing fic?

What's your favourite and least favourite thing about writing fanfic?

Thanks Nalu! 🤍

Well, honestly, I've also always loved writing stories. Thing is, nobody sent 10 year old me the memo that said you could do that for existing characters. So mini Em would mostly try to craft original fiction... with differing levels of result. As you said, I reread my works and it's a bit cringe, but oh my god, im so proud of her.

Then I heard about fanfiction years later, well into adulthood, from a friend reading and writing for Harry Potter. But neither HP, nor any other piece of media I'd enjoyed at that point made me go, "Oh, I would love to do that."

Then Lost came back into my life last year ❤️ It knocked the wind out of me how much I loved each and every one of these characters with my whole heart. Also never fell in love with a character the way I did Jack, I'm still amazed to this day... Suddenly, the idea of having these characters interact some more, of getting dynamics and pairings I couldn't get on the show, and of making them so happy by making them fuck... All of these prospects sounded amazing.

Spoiler for the show below

First draft I started, two months and a half ago, was a funeral scene for Jack on the Island, held by Hugo and Rose. I couldn't get through it cause it was too depressing lol so then I quickly let that go for my AU where Jack actually never died. That's been way easier to cope with lol.

So, yeah, long story short, Lost brought me to fanfic. Specifically @forever-erica, who showed me there was still a vibrant and active community writing for the show 😭 Thanks again for that and also your support and help in putting out my first chapters!

I love so many things about writing fic. I'm truly so happy to have started. But if I had to choose, what I've loved most is writing the story I'd love to see. Sometimes, when I get high, I can reread parts of my manuscript and forget for 5 seconds that I'm the one writing it. And I'm like "Oh shit i love this!" I'm so happy to be able to do what I've been doing in my head for yearsーfixing shabby love triangles with the power of polyamoryーfor a show I love so much and characters I feel like I know intimately.

What I've hated most, and it's not hate really, but it's what would discourage me most from keeping on, is the space these stories take up in my brain. It can be a bit overwhelming. And while I can yap about it on the internet; as of now, it's really something I keep to myself in my personal life. I've told most people I'm writing, but less than half know it's fanfic. And, like, I haven't told anyone what it's about. I'd be hard pressed to explain to my mom for instance that I'm making my blorbos discover the power of battling your angst through mind-shattering sex lmao. So yeah, it's more that it feels debilitating how much I love these guys, want to write about them all the time, and want to talk about 'em when I'm not writing about 'emーbut I can't really talk about it IRL.

So thanks mutuals for yapping together online about these magnificent meow meows 😻

Hey, I'm sorry man, but I swear you help so much.

I'd never bind you tho. Except if you asked for it iykwim.

What's in a language?

The floral scent of Kate’s hair brings him back to earth. How sweet it is to lay in her arms. Their relationship had grown even stronger since his release from hospital three months earlier. The impulse to share his desires with her had seemed at times selfish, at others completely ludicrous. Why risk wrecking their perfect balance for a whim?

This is a snippet from my WIP, a part I'm so happy about.

I've been writing fanfiction for two months, and I'm still amazed at how incredibly hard it is to convey things in a language that's initially not my own.

I've been studying (partly) in English for years, did my Master's degree in English, I've been consuming content in that language for almost half my life and yet...

Actually writing out something that's well crafted, that flows, that engages the reader (I'm my first reader and, as a lot of other writers I suppose, my worst critic),... is so incredibly difficult to me.

In many ways, it feels like work.

But I wouldn't say that's a bad thing. It's a task I love taking on because the result, when it's done right, fills me with incredible joy.

I do resort to Deepl at times, because I'm so used to writing prose in French. But I feel like this doesn't impair the result and helps me feel less stuck on the page.

But man, I really would have never guessed before starting this how slowly it comes together.

Mad respect to all writers out there, none of it is easy. But today, I'd like to pay madder respect to non-native writers because dude, that shit is even less easy.

Jack IS babygirl. Babygirl IS Jack.

I'm not making up the rules, that's just how it is.

Thanks for the tag Z. Love your pic and the song is so cute.

Picrew: I don't have green eyes. Wish I did. Let me dream 😇

Last song: Been listening to this one so much recently lol. Oh, it fills my heart with love. Won't elaborate because I yap too much on here already, but it reminds me of my meow meows 🥰

np tags: @youmovedthenachos @lovecrimeagh (also look guys, gave myself a Jack Green™️ outfit) @uncertaininnit @lost-inanotherlife @btspopperssg

I was tagged by @faretheeoscar. Thank you, so much!

picrew and last song you listened to!

NP tags: @for-a-longlongtime, @iamnmbr3, @ingoldthewizard, @sonotpractical,

@diplomaticprincess, @lunar-ghoulie, @iolaussharpe-24, @jewelsrulz

Three’s Always a Crowd

Chapter 2: Need Him Just as Bad, Freckles.

Hey gang, second chapter of my story is up 🎉

I already feel less stressed about posting this time around so thanks for anyone who's expressed interest in this story. Hope this second chapter pleases you as much as the first. This time, we focus on Freckles and James. My little meow meows, both so in love with Jack lol (understandably).

This is one of two chapters that won't have a track linked, so instead here is the actual Three’s Always a Crowd playlist. Hope you enjoy ❤️ It's been giving me life, I imagine it's the playlist these guys listen to when they're together. Except for one track (Hey Now - London Grammar), all of these were released at the time of this story.

I still put it in because it came out like a month after lol.

Have a nice weekend, and thanks for reading! 🤍

@lost-fanfic-promoter

Please can someone with a bigger brain than mine analyse this shit, it's crazy.

I've always loved that John's sacrifice, while for the good of the Island, was pretty much only for Jack's sake.

You have to die to show how convinced you are of your beliefs and, in that, you'll make others believe.

I mean, it worked, but how tragic is that?

Following the honorable @lost-inanotherlife's lead, please can we talk about Jack and John's relationship at length? Once you start thinking about it, it just plagues your mind. they're so intricately linked, it makes me head hurt.

And you know what I find crazier after everything? It's that Jack never found out John was paralysed.

“So what’s the difference between a martyr and a prophet?”

Right?

People think "Oh these two guys just fought about Kate!"

First of all, they never fought about her. And while they both had feelings for her, the whole trio's dynamic revolves around the fact that both Kate and Sawyer just want Jack's attention and he's too dense (or, ya know, neurodivergent) to notice either of them is flirting with him.

(To be fair, Sawyer himself doesn't realise he's flirting with him. But he is. Oh, he is.)

Imo, you don't understand Jack/Kate/Sawyer relationship if you don't acknowledge Jack as the apex of the love triangle. I know, I know, the show does its best to make you think that's Kate the apex but, really, it's Jack.

Everybody on that island is a little in love with Jack but Jack. Jack hates himself lol.

Hihi, I have a doubt, do you have any schedule plan for when you will be releasing you fic's chapters?

No pressure, just curious!

Heyyy thanks for the ask and interest in my silly depressed story 🥰🤪

I announced (but don't remember where) a schedule of posting twice a month, and I intend to keep to it!

It's easy to say now because I have some backlog I'm reediting for chapters 2 to 6, but the last three are just outline at this point.

I'll try and keep people updated if for some reason I can't post twice a month as intended.

This also means chapter two should be dropping end of next week 🎉

It'll focus on Kate and James' POV and will move us closer to the actual smut I'm promising 😇

Can't wait to keep sharing. Thanks for asking !

*half chokes while clearing throat* hu-hum, sorry, is it just me or is it thirsty in here?

my toxic trait to myself these days is uttering the words "I don't care" approximately 20 times a day while caring so much, so intensely, in fact, that I could easily throw up from it.

Seeing this song in a whole new light all of a sudden.

dedicated to @selfinflictedgunshotwound, @obsessivedaydreamer, and @heftbyjapanesebreakfast 🍏!

ID under cut

[IMAGE ID: Various screencaps of Jack Shephard and Christian Shephard from various episodes with a neon green tint and the lyrics to Apple by charli xcx followed by a LOST script from 01x11]

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SHEPHARD: Because I have what it takes.

And his father actually puts his hand on Jack's shoulder. does love his son. This is said out of that love... no matter how fucking cruel it sounds to us—Don't choose, Jack. Don't decide. Walk away from the fights. Because when you fail when you make the wrong choice? It's gonna hurt. And buddy? When that hurt comes?

(beat) You don't have what it takes.

Jack absorbs that. And more importantly, because this is his father. Because he is twelve. Because this must be true

He BELIEVES it.

A beat. And then, his father again extends two fists

SHEPHARD (CONT'D): Same rules. Double or nothing. Decide.

But Jack just looks at the extended hands. Many, many, many, beats pass before Jack finally shakes his head. No.

SHEPHARD (CONT'D): Good boy.

LOST really said here's a love triangle with two men who, when they're not busy standing up to each other in a really homoerotic way, down right make googley eyes at each other.

When they're not busy doing that, they're making googley eyes at the girl who, herself, keeps going back and forth between the two because, well, look at them...

So tell me LOST, how is that even a triangle and not just a damn circle?

Three’s always a crowd

Chapter 1: Has It Really Been Five Years?

Happy Valentine's everyone ♥ To celebrate love, my fanfic about love, passion, grief, pain and acceptance is finally OUT ! I can't believe I'm posting my writings online, 10yo me would be so proud I'm crying for her 😭

This is chapter one of nine and I hope to post twice a month. This is so close to my heart I feel like I'm handing it to the world. But it's worth it if it can make me exchange about my favourite blorbos.

Warning: The story has spoilers for the whole show. Read at your own discretion.

As you'll see in the notes, this story has been thought with a playlist in mind. Some songs actually appear within the story, so to get in the mood before reading, check out the song I've linked 🎵

happy valentine’s day 😁

Hum, this is the cutest shit omg. Thanks so much 🥺

Happy Valentine's ♥

I don't have a candy to give back... So here's a song I associate with the James & Juliet love ♥

hum literally I've been living in the AU where Jack survives and I won't leave it. I just won't.

canon means nothing when I can shelter my blorbo and keep him alive through the power of archive of our own