OK, LET'S YAP.

Kate: Is there anyone here who’s actually straight?

Jack: *raises hand*

Sawyer: *puts Jack’s hand down*

This is the NSFW hc ask!

1, 2. 3, fire!

THANKS 🫡 for enabling my rants about my babies being nasty... you made my morning!

Ok so disclaimer: I mostly have Jawyer headcanon filling my brain (though my fanfic explores the other dynamics) because they're both incredibly precious and furiously hot at the same time, I just can't deal 😅

OK so here's my headcanon about how it felt to go from friends to lovers.

And here's the song I associate with that, if you're interested. It's... hot.

Without going into too much detail about the circumstances, it was evident for both these guys as soon as they slept together for the first time that they'd probably never get enough..

James had never slept with a man but always found them attractive. And he always found Jack particularly attractive (I mean... have you seen him???)

Jack had experience, and he wanted to test that out with James. He had an inkling that their friendly chemistry would probably translate to something quite enjoyable... so he was the one to actually ask for it (I mean, after plenty of overthinking... he's still Jack).

James had always been one to please, in bed, and focused on the other person's pleasure. But with Jack, it unlocked something else. Not the wish, not the desire, but the drive, the need to please someone. The insurmountable urge to be the one to make him plead and shake under his touch 🥵.

It awakened something he feared he would never be able to put to rest.

In turn, Jack's initial attraction to James turned to wildfire as soon as he entered him for the first time. To hell with clichés, it truly felt like a piece of him he only then realised had been missing. James' eagerness to please him, to do him exactly how he wants, allowed Jack to give into shamelessly chasing his pleasure and asking for more 🤤

So, as we could have all guessed, their freaks just perfectly matched each other.

And as time went on, the love they shared grew as did the passion of their reunions. Now, each time they're together, it feels better somehow.

But this also makes it incredibly harder when they have to separate...

Honestly, could you blame them? 🫣

This is everything I've ever needed.

Give this man anything he wants please!

jack shephard smiling

These two... Love them so much.

Good morning 🥴

Morning kisses with you ❦

the tragedy of Jack Shepard is that he's the character obsessed with fixing everything, meanwhile you have me watching him religiously screw up his life, thinking *i could fix him*

What I wrote ten weeks ago in a post, here about how Sawyer felt about Jack when they were on the Island:

His school girl antics with Jack in the first seasons were just the manifestation of his crush in a way he himself couldn't grasp.

What I found yesterday: A French pop song from my youth (so the early 00's lol) sung by a then middle-school girl, to which the lyrics, when translated, say:

Test me, detest me. Love me, look at me.

Test me, detest me. But above all, look at me.

For a gesture, a word from you, I'd give anything I have.

Test me, detest me. Love me, look at me.

Test me, detest me. But above all, look at me.

And I mean, there's no better way to express his way of acting with Jack. It's so on the nose it made me lol for a while when I realised the parallels.

It's giving I'll tease you, call you names, have you break up the fights I'm a part of, follow you around making dumb jokes you're not in the mood for, volunteer for every risky thing you're also a part of, kiss the girl you're obviously crushing on, get injured so you can help me, and if all fails, I'll actually ask you to play courtyard games with me for a while... anything.

Anyting but, please, please, look at me.

Please, let me fuck you. (heyyy, I have smut on the brain, can you blame me?)

Anywayyyyyyyyyyy... Case closed.

Since you asked me, I'm asking you back.

What got you into writing fic?

What's your favourite and least favourite thing about writing fanfic?

Thanks Nalu! 🤍

Well, honestly, I've also always loved writing stories. Thing is, nobody sent 10 year old me the memo that said you could do that for existing characters. So mini Em would mostly try to craft original fiction... with differing levels of result. As you said, I reread my works and it's a bit cringe, but oh my god, im so proud of her.

Then I heard about fanfiction years later, well into adulthood, from a friend reading and writing for Harry Potter. But neither HP, nor any other piece of media I'd enjoyed at that point made me go, "Oh, I would love to do that."

Then Lost came back into my life last year ❤️ It knocked the wind out of me how much I loved each and every one of these characters with my whole heart. Also never fell in love with a character the way I did Jack, I'm still amazed to this day... Suddenly, the idea of having these characters interact some more, of getting dynamics and pairings I couldn't get on the show, and of making them so happy by making them fuck... All of these prospects sounded amazing.

Spoiler for the show below

First draft I started, two months and a half ago, was a funeral scene for Jack on the Island, held by Hugo and Rose. I couldn't get through it cause it was too depressing lol so then I quickly let that go for my AU where Jack actually never died. That's been way easier to cope with lol.

So, yeah, long story short, Lost brought me to fanfic. Specifically @forever-erica, who showed me there was still a vibrant and active community writing for the show 😭 Thanks again for that and also your support and help in putting out my first chapters!

I love so many things about writing fic. I'm truly so happy to have started. But if I had to choose, what I've loved most is writing the story I'd love to see. Sometimes, when I get high, I can reread parts of my manuscript and forget for 5 seconds that I'm the one writing it. And I'm like "Oh shit i love this!" I'm so happy to be able to do what I've been doing in my head for yearsーfixing shabby love triangles with the power of polyamoryーfor a show I love so much and characters I feel like I know intimately.

What I've hated most, and it's not hate really, but it's what would discourage me most from keeping on, is the space these stories take up in my brain. It can be a bit overwhelming. And while I can yap about it on the internet; as of now, it's really something I keep to myself in my personal life. I've told most people I'm writing, but less than half know it's fanfic. And, like, I haven't told anyone what it's about. I'd be hard pressed to explain to my mom for instance that I'm making my blorbos discover the power of battling your angst through mind-shattering sex lmao. So yeah, it's more that it feels debilitating how much I love these guys, want to write about them all the time, and want to talk about 'em when I'm not writing about 'emーbut I can't really talk about it IRL.

So thanks mutuals for yapping together online about these magnificent meow meows 😻

Seeing this song in a whole new light all of a sudden.

dedicated to @selfinflictedgunshotwound, @obsessivedaydreamer, and @heftbyjapanesebreakfast 🍏!

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[IMAGE ID: Various screencaps of Jack Shephard and Christian Shephard from various episodes with a neon green tint and the lyrics to Apple by charli xcx followed by a LOST script from 01x11]

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SHEPHARD: Because I have what it takes.

And his father actually puts his hand on Jack's shoulder. does love his son. This is said out of that love... no matter how fucking cruel it sounds to us—Don't choose, Jack. Don't decide. Walk away from the fights. Because when you fail when you make the wrong choice? It's gonna hurt. And buddy? When that hurt comes?

(beat) You don't have what it takes.

Jack absorbs that. And more importantly, because this is his father. Because he is twelve. Because this must be true

He BELIEVES it.

A beat. And then, his father again extends two fists

SHEPHARD (CONT'D): Same rules. Double or nothing. Decide.

But Jack just looks at the extended hands. Many, many, many, beats pass before Jack finally shakes his head. No.

SHEPHARD (CONT'D): Good boy.

THAT'S WHY I NEED THEM ALL TOGETHER STAT!!

whenever two are happy, one is miserable.

Trying to give that man exactly the real good time he needs. It's like a life mission at this point.

you could ship jack shepard with a rock and i'd go: "mmmh, you know what? i see it, totally":