I Enjoy Your Freak

This is the NSFW hc ask!

1, 2. 3, fire!

THANKS 🫡 for enabling my rants about my babies being nasty... you made my morning!

Ok so disclaimer: I mostly have Jawyer headcanon filling my brain (though my fanfic explores the other dynamics) because they're both incredibly precious and furiously hot at the same time, I just can't deal 😅

OK so here's my headcanon about how it felt to go from friends to lovers.

And here's the song I associate with that, if you're interested. It's... hot.

Without going into too much detail about the circumstances, it was evident for both these guys as soon as they slept together for the first time that they'd probably never get enough..

James had never slept with a man but always found them attractive. And he always found Jack particularly attractive (I mean... have you seen him???)

Jack had experience, and he wanted to test that out with James. He had an inkling that their friendly chemistry would probably translate to something quite enjoyable... so he was the one to actually ask for it (I mean, after plenty of overthinking... he's still Jack).

James had always been one to please, in bed, and focused on the other person's pleasure. But with Jack, it unlocked something else. Not the wish, not the desire, but the drive, the need to please someone. The insurmountable urge to be the one to make him plead and shake under his touch 🥵.

It awakened something he feared he would never be able to put to rest.

In turn, Jack's initial attraction to James turned to wildfire as soon as he entered him for the first time. To hell with clichés, it truly felt like a piece of him he only then realised had been missing. James' eagerness to please him, to do him exactly how he wants, allowed Jack to give into shamelessly chasing his pleasure and asking for more 🤤

So, as we could have all guessed, their freaks just perfectly matched each other.

And as time went on, the love they shared grew as did the passion of their reunions. Now, each time they're together, it feels better somehow.

But this also makes it incredibly harder when they have to separate...

Honestly, could you blame them? 🫣

Just realised my service top Sawyer and power bottom Jack headcanon exists just because... Well, I'm a service top.

At the end of the day, I just want Jack to order me to fuck him.

Don't know what to do with that so there you go tumblr 🤷🏾

been thinkin about this a lot. Jack's masculinity is a special one, esp when considering this show came out in 2004.

apparently back then it was kind of a joke how much Jack cried (arh-arh, how original and funny), but the writers still made their show's hero: sensible, caring, willing to cry, willing to admit (sometimes with difficulty) his mistakes, did i say caring, with an immense capacity to love, protective, and again, caring.

i think it's probably a bit magic that we got to see that representation of masculinity hoisted as a valuable one (this character ends up saving humanity) in the early aughts. we might have been blessed or smth.

btw I love the fact that jack is so emotional and driven by his heart and he falls in love so easy and. god. you don't often see male characters act like that and it's. still pretty refreshing! like yeah boys do cry!!!!

This is everything I've ever needed.

Give this man anything he wants please!

jack shephard smiling

Seeing this song in a whole new light all of a sudden.

dedicated to @selfinflictedgunshotwound, @obsessivedaydreamer, and @heftbyjapanesebreakfast 🍏!

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[IMAGE ID: Various screencaps of Jack Shephard and Christian Shephard from various episodes with a neon green tint and the lyrics to Apple by charli xcx followed by a LOST script from 01x11]

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SHEPHARD: Because I have what it takes.

And his father actually puts his hand on Jack's shoulder. does love his son. This is said out of that love... no matter how fucking cruel it sounds to us—Don't choose, Jack. Don't decide. Walk away from the fights. Because when you fail when you make the wrong choice? It's gonna hurt. And buddy? When that hurt comes?

(beat) You don't have what it takes.

Jack absorbs that. And more importantly, because this is his father. Because he is twelve. Because this must be true

He BELIEVES it.

A beat. And then, his father again extends two fists

SHEPHARD (CONT'D): Same rules. Double or nothing. Decide.

But Jack just looks at the extended hands. Many, many, many, beats pass before Jack finally shakes his head. No.

SHEPHARD (CONT'D): Good boy.

*half chokes while clearing throat* hu-hum, sorry, is it just me or is it thirsty in here?

What I wrote ten weeks ago in a post, here about how Sawyer felt about Jack when they were on the Island:

His school girl antics with Jack in the first seasons were just the manifestation of his crush in a way he himself couldn't grasp.

What I found yesterday: A French pop song from my youth (so the early 00's lol) sung by a then middle-school girl, to which the lyrics, when translated, say:

Test me, detest me. Love me, look at me.

Test me, detest me. But above all, look at me.

For a gesture, a word from you, I'd give anything I have.

Test me, detest me. Love me, look at me.

Test me, detest me. But above all, look at me.

And I mean, there's no better way to express his way of acting with Jack. It's so on the nose it made me lol for a while when I realised the parallels.

It's giving I'll tease you, call you names, have you break up the fights I'm a part of, follow you around making dumb jokes you're not in the mood for, volunteer for every risky thing you're also a part of, kiss the girl you're obviously crushing on, get injured so you can help me, and if all fails, I'll actually ask you to play courtyard games with me for a while... anything.

Anyting but, please, please, look at me.

Please, let me fuck you. (heyyy, I have smut on the brain, can you blame me?)

Anywayyyyyyyyyyy... Case closed.

Three’s Always a Crowd

Chapter 2: Need Him Just as Bad, Freckles.

Hey gang, second chapter of my story is up 🎉

I already feel less stressed about posting this time around so thanks for anyone who's expressed interest in this story. Hope this second chapter pleases you as much as the first. This time, we focus on Freckles and James. My little meow meows, both so in love with Jack lol (understandably).

This is one of two chapters that won't have a track linked, so instead here is the actual Three’s Always a Crowd playlist. Hope you enjoy ❤️ It's been giving me life, I imagine it's the playlist these guys listen to when they're together. Except for one track (Hey Now - London Grammar), all of these were released at the time of this story.

I still put it in because it came out like a month after lol.

Have a nice weekend, and thanks for reading! 🤍

@lost-fanfic-promoter

this photoshoot is proof that what these three needed was to make their love triangle into a love CIRCLE and get together DAMMIT

Josh Holloway, Matthew Fox, Evangeline Lilly for Vanity Fair

THAT'S WHY I NEED THEM ALL TOGETHER STAT!!

whenever two are happy, one is miserable.