*half Chokes While Clearing Throat* Hu-hum, Sorry, Is It Just Me Or Is It Thirsty In Here?

this photoshoot is proof that what these three needed was to make their love triangle into a love CIRCLE and get together DAMMIT

Josh Holloway, Matthew Fox, Evangeline Lilly for Vanity Fair

What I wrote ten weeks ago in a post, here about how Sawyer felt about Jack when they were on the Island:

His school girl antics with Jack in the first seasons were just the manifestation of his crush in a way he himself couldn't grasp.

What I found yesterday: A French pop song from my youth (so the early 00's lol) sung by a then middle-school girl, to which the lyrics, when translated, say:

Test me, detest me. Love me, look at me.

Test me, detest me. But above all, look at me.

For a gesture, a word from you, I'd give anything I have.

Test me, detest me. Love me, look at me.

Test me, detest me. But above all, look at me.

And I mean, there's no better way to express his way of acting with Jack. It's so on the nose it made me lol for a while when I realised the parallels.

It's giving I'll tease you, call you names, have you break up the fights I'm a part of, follow you around making dumb jokes you're not in the mood for, volunteer for every risky thing you're also a part of, kiss the girl you're obviously crushing on, get injured so you can help me, and if all fails, I'll actually ask you to play courtyard games with me for a while... anything.

Anyting but, please, please, look at me.

Please, let me fuck you. (heyyy, I have smut on the brain, can you blame me?)

Anywayyyyyyyyyyy... Case closed.

Please can someone with a bigger brain than mine analyse this shit, it's crazy.

I've always loved that John's sacrifice, while for the good of the Island, was pretty much only for Jack's sake.

You have to die to show how convinced you are of your beliefs and, in that, you'll make others believe.

I mean, it worked, but how tragic is that?

Following the honorable @lost-inanotherlife's lead, please can we talk about Jack and John's relationship at length? Once you start thinking about it, it just plagues your mind. they're so intricately linked, it makes me head hurt.

And you know what I find crazier after everything? It's that Jack never found out John was paralysed.

“So what’s the difference between a martyr and a prophet?”

Three’s Always a Crowd

Okay, sorry if this is cruel baiting you with a seemingly regular update post, when this is actually to announce I'll be modifying my posting schedule. 🙈

I'm still incredibly in love with the story I'm writing, but my personal and professional circumstances have changed quite a bit since I started writing in January (good things for the most part!)

This gives me way less time to write, unfortunately, so I'm thinking of switching to updating every month at most. This will let me breathe in between chapters and not feel pressured to finish in a rush.

GIF of discombobulated Jack is actually Em when she opens her manuscript and realises how much she still has to edit.

The story itself is all mapped out, so be assured it will be coming out, it's just a matter of when. I want writing to keep being fun, and for that I need to release the pressure of bimonthly updates.

Thanks for everyone who's following this story, thanks for understanding, and hoping to bring you more good smut soon 🙏🏾

Em

happy valentine’s day 😁

Hum, this is the cutest shit omg. Thanks so much 🥺

Happy Valentine's ♥

I don't have a candy to give back... So here's a song I associate with the James & Juliet love ♥

Three’s always a crowd

Chapter 1: Has It Really Been Five Years?

Happy Valentine's everyone ♥ To celebrate love, my fanfic about love, passion, grief, pain and acceptance is finally OUT ! I can't believe I'm posting my writings online, 10yo me would be so proud I'm crying for her 😭

This is chapter one of nine and I hope to post twice a month. This is so close to my heart I feel like I'm handing it to the world. But it's worth it if it can make me exchange about my favourite blorbos.

Warning: The story has spoilers for the whole show. Read at your own discretion.

As you'll see in the notes, this story has been thought with a playlist in mind. Some songs actually appear within the story, so to get in the mood before reading, check out the song I've linked 🎵

This is everything I've ever needed.

Give this man anything he wants please!

jack shephard smiling

THAT'S WHY I NEED THEM ALL TOGETHER STAT!!

whenever two are happy, one is miserable.

Seeing this song in a whole new light all of a sudden.

dedicated to @selfinflictedgunshotwound, @obsessivedaydreamer, and @heftbyjapanesebreakfast 🍏!

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[IMAGE ID: Various screencaps of Jack Shephard and Christian Shephard from various episodes with a neon green tint and the lyrics to Apple by charli xcx followed by a LOST script from 01x11]

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SHEPHARD: Because I have what it takes.

And his father actually puts his hand on Jack's shoulder. does love his son. This is said out of that love... no matter how fucking cruel it sounds to us—Don't choose, Jack. Don't decide. Walk away from the fights. Because when you fail when you make the wrong choice? It's gonna hurt. And buddy? When that hurt comes?

(beat) You don't have what it takes.

Jack absorbs that. And more importantly, because this is his father. Because he is twelve. Because this must be true

He BELIEVES it.

A beat. And then, his father again extends two fists

SHEPHARD (CONT'D): Same rules. Double or nothing. Decide.

But Jack just looks at the extended hands. Many, many, many, beats pass before Jack finally shakes his head. No.

SHEPHARD (CONT'D): Good boy.

my toxic trait to myself these days is uttering the words "I don't care" approximately 20 times a day while caring so much, so intensely, in fact, that I could easily throw up from it.