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I have had these dreams since I was about 4 years old, yes! Not quite nameable very awful energy.
Do you ever dream of the bad place? I can't really explain it but that's what I call these weird spaces or rooms in my dreams where I can just feel the most menacing, evil, dangerous atmosphere that makes me afraid to come closer or even wakes me up from fear, or I'm screaming in my sleep. These spaces often look normal and realistic, just a regular basement or building, they usually feature some kind of door too. It's just so surreal because in dreams you forget that what you see is not real, so suddenly feeling this eerie vibes from a room or door makes the evil seem so material and clear. Ever since my childhood I've been dreaming about the same places over and over and my worst fear is that one day I'll find them in real life and feel this dread then too. But maybe I would open the door, I'm just so desperately curious to know what kind of terror is so bad, it's finding its way into my dreams. I want to know what's there. And I want to know if I'm the only one who has these dreams.
Friends doesn’t even look like a real word, it’s just shaped so weird it messes with my brain
Strange Occurrences
I woke up last night with somewhat of an existential crisis? I was blinking but I couldn't feel it. I was breathing, but it didn't feel right. Like I didn't need to breathe to keep living. It was an odd experience, but I just kinda went back to sleep.
I woke up again around 4am. I'm not gonna lie, sometimes I sleep with the teddy bear I got from a friend on Valentine's day. But like. I woke up and it was sitting straight up, hanging off of the couch somewhat by its heart at the front. Staring in my direction. I have a fear of dolls or anything doll-like in general, so I chucked it onto the table.
It was hard to go back to sleep. I had this looming sense of dread wash over me, like someone was around. I was so scared, I woke up my dog for comfort just so I could get up and turn the lights on...
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Remember when everyone thought the world was ending?
Now you look at people's posts back then and it's just:
The little self-proclaimed king of flowers :D
wish my life was this strange
just woke up from the weirdest dream where i tried (and failed) to convince god to bring my parents back to life. i was fr like this:
Circles of Hell
A long gauntlet of a piece that has easily become one of my favorite things I created. I imagine the name to be pronounced similarly as the chorus of the song FUTURE OF HELL by HEALTH. In general their music has been a heavy inspiration. Also there are three doors that I more or less accidentally placed as fun little easter eggs.
God Head
An old piece I decided to quickly finish. I should have just left the background blank.
Formless Beasts Four
The bulk of this piece was finished last year. But the beasts have been gaining newer forms recently and it’s about time this piece sprouted and started moving along it’s needed void.
A Quick Sketch.
Something I did one night recently because I’ve been spending more time with school work than art. Plus I have 4 major work in progress drawings that I’m simply not making consistent headway in.
Formless Beasts Three.
I spent so much time looking at this piece that I think my face and brain came to resemble these poor consumed things.
Formless Beast Two.
Been a while since I posted. It has not been a while since I’ve been drawing. I have plenty to keep working on, and hopefully more to share if I remember to actually post it.
Multitudes of Madness.
Another piece that was started a while ago but that I finally decided to sit down and finish. The fragmented nature of it thankfully made it easy to work on.
Formless Beasts One.
Mostly just did this as random sketching but I filled enough up space for it to feel mostly done.
Dodosaurus Frolics
This piece took me most of the summer to finish but it's one of my favorite pieces I've ever done.
Creature Feature Visions.
I initially did this while trying to draw a normal skull but then I got too high and ended up drawing randomly until I felt like stopping and ended up with this.
Finally decided to sit down and finish a piece that had been left with far too much blank space for far too long. The only title I could think of when finishing it was Dodsan Dod Gets Shot.
A drawing I finished a while ago titled Dodsan Lyns. I suppose I need to put my art somewhere public if I am to ever properly exist.
don't come upstairs don't come up stairs don't come upstairs
The many faces of loss
I always get so grumbly with humans that think loss is a simple thing. A death, job change, relationship end, and many other forms of loss can have lasting, and often hidden (even to the one dealing with it) effects. So many people focus on the short term handling of the loss, or the lingering obvious issues and seem to think they know how the person should or shouldn't be acting. It's complete ridiculousness. NOBODY has ANY right to tell ANYONE how they should feel, or how the loss impacts them in their own realities. EVERY SINGLE CREATURE deals with each loss in their own ways. Some of the effects can be dealt with quickly and easily, some make permanent changes and will never be fully understood. NEVER.... EVER... let ANYONE tell you that you are somehow broken, or messed up, for how a loss impacts your own thoughts. Those who are trying to help will usually offer support, reassurance, patience, and space. If the person you think is there to help is pressuring you, making you feel like something is wrong with you, or is irritated by how things are effecting you... they are clearly NOT as helpful as they want to believe they are. If someone doesn't understand and is a bit inconvenienced because of your handling of a loss, that... is completely understandable... BUT... if they allow that to become an attitude towards you... THEY are the ones with a problem... NOT YOU! This human experience does not come with complete and foolproof instructions. We each have to figure things out in our own ways, no matter how many others try to tell us they have all the answers. So, if you're out there, and you're dealing with something, and you're feeling a bit beaten.... just remember.... you got this. There are those of us out there that understand it's complicated, it takes time, and USUALLY it's a lot more messy than anyone cares to admit. Just keep picking at it. You'll get where you need to be with it, if you really want to. Believe. ... Much love.
