Raine Talks - Blog Posts

Turning to you guys because SOMEONE has to have it somewhere, this is my wallpaper and I'm desperately looking for the og picture because I'm changing phones soon and I'd like to keep it!!! I have no idea who the artist is, like an idiot I just saved the picture and long story short, lost it like a dumbass.

I most likely found this on Twitter (I have a vague memory of that at least) somewhere around 2021-2022, but I can't provide any more information unfortunately

Tried to image search it but the ggl image search engine fucking sucks, gonna keep looking in the meantime, but if someone somehow has a copy of this I would sob uncontrollably in thankfulness

OKAY SO THAT SKK DRAG RACE POST GAINED SOME TRACTION HOLY FUCK

I'm really not well versed in the world of drag queens (not out of lack of interest I fucking love drag) nor have I ever written fanfiction before, but! But. Would anyone be interested if I decided to write a little drabble and see if I could do anything with it?

I'm gonna write it either way because the brainrot is real, so the question is should I post it if I ever feel satisfied with the results? Because I have a Vision and I would love to share it with you people!!!

I cried on my birthday again.

It was expected. It's been a few years since I've last had a happy, tearless birthday.

I've had happy birthday parties, get togethers with wonderful and hilarious gifts I will always be thankful for. But in the end, I always go to bed, and cry on my birthday.

I don't dislike getting older. There has always been this thrill, what will happen next? Is this the year everything changes? This time, will I truly become something else?

But the thrill tones down. Another month turns into another year, and you forget what it felt like to be seventeen. There's this odd comfort to it. Maybe, this year, nothing will change, and I will stay the person I am, and that doesn't feel so bad.

Sometimes though, it turns into fear. The older I get, the more likely I am to lose the things that matter. I am terrified, so I cry, and hide in the arms of my mother because then I am her child, and it's okay to feel lost again, it's okay to feel the size of the world around me.

Age is a thing so big, while I still feel so small. So unprepared, and a little unsure of where to go next.

So maybe, just in my head, I'll stay eighteen for a while longer. Maybe if I'm not ready, and I don't feel like today is the right day to get older, and I still can't quite let go of that scared, fragile part of me that still has so many things to learn about living as an adult, maybe it's okay. Maybe I'll just keep crying on my birthday.

And maybe one day, I'll have it just a little more figured out.

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH IT'S BEEN FIFTEEN MINUTES AND I ALREADY FEEL GAYER WOOO

POSTING FROM THE PLANE HEHEHEHE

I'M LATE BUT IDC IT'S STILL THE 29TH IN THE UK HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHUUYA NAKAHARA FROM HIT MANGA BUNGOU STRAY DOGS YOU MAKE LESBIANS SWOON AND WHENEVER I HAVE A BAD DAY I THINK ABOUT YOU AND I IMMEDIATELY FEEL BETTER BLESS YOU YOU UNBOTHERED KING!!!!!!

sometimes, being in uni is also being able to look at a guy straight in the eyes and say you read fanfiction on a regular basis, and when he laughs at you, instead of going haha that was a joke don't worry just stand your ground and be like yeah, it's quite fun actually you should try it.

HELLLP the eclipse thingy brought warrior cats back to my twt feed because there's an eclipse coded cat in there MY CHILDHOOD

i only have two genders: femsaster or mascthetic

no in between

I FINISHED FLOWERS OF BUFFOONERY!!!!! I HAD SO MUCH FUN!!!! i laughed so much man it was great!!!!!!!!!!! the little narrator comments were amazing!!!! the book is a mess but you still like reading it!!!!!!

came surprisingly close to the way i write things which was like. an out of body experience for sure lmao. but uh. yeah no I loved it it made no sense READ IT!!! ITS LIKE 100 PAGES OF CHAOS!!!!!!!!!!!

What's the most empowering experience?

WRONG it's being able to tell what's wrong with your drawing almost immediately after taking a 30 minutes break from looking at it and being able to fix it!!!!

I had this very weird period last summer during which I went on walk around the village I used to live in while listening to music. That in itself isn't weird, but I did that while listening to Little Nightmares 1 & 2 music. And it was so weird because I was so very relaxed, too- like, you'd think that taking a walk in a near-empty village while listening to horror game music would be uncomfortable, right? But no. I was just. Relaxed. With my earbuds. Slowly walking down the streets. Seeing slugs and other grass animals and bugs on the side of the road. Would recommend. Has its eerie moments (like the one time I found a dead bird- the music definitely enhances the experience lmao) but overall has to be the habit I was the saddest to lose after moving away for uni.

WHY DID NO ONE TELL ME????? THAT MY FAVOURITE BOOK EVER, NO LONGER HUMAN BY OSAMU DAZAI. HAD A PREQUEL. BY THE SAME AUTHOR. ABOUT THE SAME GUY. CALLED THE FLOWERS OF BUFFOONERY ????

anyways I ordered it I'll update

it better break me as hard as No Longer Human did ifstg

Nothing drives me more insane than people on Tumblr who go I would elaborate but I'll spare you like GIRL??? I WANT TO KNOW TELL ME PLEASE!!!! GO SILLY RANT FOR AS MANY PARAGRAPHS AS YOU WANT IT'S SO FUN WATCHING PEOPLE TALK ABOUT A SUBJECT THEY LOVE???

I love how it only took me like a month to get used to city life (I come from a very very small town) like a month ago I would be scared to talk to anyone ever and yesterday I was walking home at like 10PM in the dark and some guy came to me like hey want some drugs and I genuinely just went nah man sorry I don't smoke cheers and kept walking

September me would have pissed themselves lmao

You know how sometimes you're sitting in class next to your crush and you can't focus on class? Well I was sitting next to a friend who was working on their computer and their wallpaper was that one BSD Bones ADA art and Dazai was visible by the edge of the window and I shit you not I was like

Omg so pretty look

He's so cute

His lil bolo tie flying

Look at him go

Silly little man with his silly little smile

Aw his hair is all fluffy look!!!!!

And I couldn't focus for the life of me but I wasn't gonna ask the person to move the window it would be weird I just met them you know???? So I missed half the class somehow fjebbfe

I love uni because you can just sit there being extremely focused in class and suddenly someone walks in casually and just sits there silently half an hour after the beginning of the class and like. The professor just ignores them. Literally no one cares.

And look I know it's a typical college thing but after highschool it's just very different. Like in highschool teachers kick your ass and send you to the office. Here they just royally ignore you. I love it.

Ever had a glass and a half of wine before lying down and sobbing uncontrollably because women are just too pretty?

Hahaha that's so funny me either

So you know how significant others are a thing. And by that I mean, the phrase "significant other" is a thing.

Consider this : insignificant other. It could mean so many things!!! It could be as in "you're a pain and I'm stuck with you", or a phrase for complete strangers, literally anything!!!!!

I really like the first one there, because it's like being stuck with someone who genuinely annoys the shit out of you, but you still like them. Like, kicking your feet and blushing whenever you think about them, but the second they're around you, you're like fuck off I hate you. Idk I just like this dynamic so much it makes my brain pop jejzjfje