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The first time I heard that Asagiri said Dazai and Chuuya were the same soul in two bodies, I was a little confused. I mean, I love them too, but they're so different.
But now...
They both were forced to grow up too fast. They're both geniuses who can't relate to the world around them, yet at the same time, they both desire human connection. Both need to fight of nihilism, that feeling that life isn't worth it--even Chuuya, in Stormbringer, really struggled with the purpose of his own life. They both live for others and desire their connection, but the world doesn't let them have it.
And the loneliness.
The feeling of being a monster, a god of destruction. That they're bad, evil, inhuman. That they will never get they want, are forced to struggle for eternity, that there is no place in this world for two lonely demons like them who want nothing more than to be human...
Except for the arcade, where the two of them can just be teenaged boys for a moment. The same soul in two bodies reaching out for each other so they can be alone together.
I swear to god if I ever need a cry I just need to watch alien stage again and just weep at the levels of hopeless devotion in Ivan and Sua.
Like what do you mean Ivan critisised Sua for her plan because she knew Mizi loved her and knew that what she had planned would hurt her??? What do you mean that Ivan had no qualms doing the same to Till because he though Till wouldnt care??? What do you mean Ivan became a trigger for Luka to use against Till, the only scenario that Ivan did not think was possible.
WHAT DO YOU MEAN!?
Sobbing. they were all doomed from the start I swear to god.