Flu And Ana Is A Bad Combination

the feminine urge to stay gone. be unseen, be unavailable, be unheard of. disappear.

My 4n4 rules 🍂

Those are my personnal rules for how i deal with my €d so if it trigger you just block 🖤

No processed food

Always zero sugar

Always low/zero fat

Vegetables and fruit every single day

Of course i never add sugar in my meals

No cheese exept mozzarella

Making my meals and limiting eating outside

Always low proportion

No dessert

No fast fooda

No snack on week-end and school vacation

I allow myself 1 snack on the afternoon only on school week for strenght

1000 cal max

1h sport per day

At least one 24h fast per week (since i live with my bf i can't fast much)

Not eating when my bf is not home

Not eating alone

Green tea every morning

2 liter water per day

10k steps per day

Skipping breakfast on week-end

I allow myself to binge only on my first day of period because it make my pain less painful

Small bite

Never taking the first bite

Never asking for food

Daily checking Tumblr for thinsp0

Thats it ! 🍂

Not a good morning. I feel that I have no emotional space. All around me demand their space, more decisive and more forceful. I only want to disappear. Which fits fine with my 3d-goals. At least.

Binging, the next step

I was binging yesterday, a social occasion where I had some pressure. Still ate ",only" 1500 cals the whole day. But simply - I did not like it at all. No emotions. I even did not gate it. Simply.. meaningless. It feels so good. Food and I am on two different planets

Lost two kg the last day (although some is water). Tonight I head pain at the ribcage and wonder if this is because my belly is much smaller. Does anybody has the same experience? My bones generally hurt more in bed now

new rules just for me:

(im writing these here cause i hide tumblr on my phone so no one can find it)

1. no more than 500 cals a day

2. no liquid calories only water

3. vitamins and supplements every single day no exceptions

4. 10,000 steps a day

5. if youre eating a meal dont finish it

6. no snacking

7. home workouts every night before bed

🤍🤍🤍

Eastern was not good. Fuck holidays. But now on track again. One meal every second day.

Crossed 55 kg and bmi 21 in the right direction after 84 hours fasting. But have a sore throat. No fever. How are your experiences with fasting when having a cold. I want to continue, basically

i want to have this...

https://newatlas.com/health-wellbeing/dentalslim-weight-loss-lock-mouth-shut/

When I am fasting, I wear a bracelet which is locked on place. The key is hidden at home. As long this bracelet is locked, I cannot eat. I wish I had a kind of device (gag?) in my mouth which could be locked preventing eating.