Not A Good Morning. I Feel That I Have No Emotional Space. All Around Me Demand Their Space, More Decisive

I agree, accept from diet coke. I believe that any artificial sweetener fucks the system up, which is not good. I don't think artificial sweets are dangerous generally, but giving a fasting body a sweet taste induced insuline activity and compromises the other good hormones. I keep to green tea as much as possible.

𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐢 𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫 🩰 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐮 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰

𝐚𝐬 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐞𝐧 𝐝𝐚𝐲𝐬

𝐆𝐞𝐭 𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐢𝐭. 𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐟𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬, 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐡 𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐬 𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐠𝐨 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐧𝐨𝐰. 𝐈 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐰𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐲 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬 𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭, 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐢 𝐬𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐥𝐲 𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐝 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫. 𝐔 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐚 𝐬𝐢𝐱𝐭𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐟𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤 𝐮𝐫 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐮𝐩!

𝐃𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐣𝐮𝐦𝐩 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐨 𝐮𝐫 𝐟𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐭. 𝐈𝐟 𝐮 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐛!𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐝 𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞, 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐦𝐥𝐲 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐟𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠. 𝐂𝐮𝐭 𝐡𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐜@𝐥𝐬 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐮𝐫 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐝𝐚𝐲, 𝐬𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐥𝐲 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬, 𝐢𝐭 𝐝𝐞𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐩𝐬. 𝐓𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐞 "𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐬𝐮𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬" 𝐰𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤 𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐥.

𝐌𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧. 𝐈𝐟 𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐝𝐨 𝐢𝐭, 𝐮 𝐰𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐝𝐨 𝐢𝐭. 𝐂𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐚 𝐟𝐨𝐥𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐟 𝐩𝐢𝐜𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐦𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐮, 𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐧 𝐮𝐫 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐩𝐩 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐥𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐨𝐧 𝐰𝐡𝐲 𝐮 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨.

𝐃𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐫. 𝐈𝐭 𝐬𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐬 𝐬𝐨 𝐬𝐢𝐦𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐞𝐭𝐬 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐢𝐦𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐢𝐬. 𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐢 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧 𝐫𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐭 𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐜𝐡𝐮𝐠𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐭 𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐦𝐥𝐲, 𝐢 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧 𝐬𝐢𝐩𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐭 𝐬𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐥𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐚𝐲. 𝐈𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐝𝐨𝐞𝐬 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐩 𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐭. 𝐌𝐲 𝐟𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐥𝐨𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐢𝐜𝐞

𝐃𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬. 𝐈𝐟 𝐮 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐮 𝐜𝐚𝐧'𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐩 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐮 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭 𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐮 𝐜𝐚𝐧. 𝐂𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐮 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐩𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠. 𝐈 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐬𝐞 𝐦𝐲 𝐩𝐡𝐨𝐧𝐞, 𝐜𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐫𝐨𝐨𝐦, 𝐬𝐜𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐧 𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐭, 𝐰𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐰𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐬. 𝐈𝐟 𝐮 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐮𝐫 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐮𝐩, 𝐠𝐨 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐞, 𝐛𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐭 𝐦𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐬 𝐦𝐞 𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐭!

𝐒𝐥𝐞𝐞𝐩. 𝐒𝐥𝐞𝐞𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐦𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐭𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐬𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐩𝐚𝐬𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞. 𝐒𝐨 𝐢𝐟 𝐮 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐮 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐫𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬, 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐚 𝐧𝐚𝐩!

𝐁𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐟𝐮𝐥 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐞𝐱𝐞𝐫𝐜𝐢𝐬𝐞 𝐝𝐮𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐮𝐫 𝐟𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐬. 𝐀𝐬 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐝𝐨 𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐨𝐮𝐭𝐬, 𝐢 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐠𝐨 𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐢𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐧 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐢𝐦 𝐟𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫, 𝐭𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐝𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐨𝐫 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐬𝐞 𝐩𝐡𝐲𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲.

𝐙𝐞𝐫𝐨 𝐝𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐮𝐠𝐚𝐫 𝐟𝐫𝐞𝐞 𝐠𝐮𝐦. 𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐩𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐞 𝐠𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐦𝐲 𝐟𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐬 𝐬𝐨 𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐬. 𝐌𝐲 𝐟𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐝𝐢𝐞𝐭 𝐜𝐨𝐤𝐞 𝐨𝐟𝐜, 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐩𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐤𝐞𝐞𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐫𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐲.

𝐅𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐬 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐮 𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤 𝐢𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐦𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐭. 𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐬 𝐝𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐛!𝐧𝐠𝐞 𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫, 𝐢𝐭 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐲𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐟𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐮 𝐩𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐧. 𝐌𝐲 𝐟𝐚𝐯 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐝𝐨 𝐢𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤 𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐥𝐢𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐝 𝐜@𝐥𝐬 𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭, 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐬 𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐟𝐮𝐥. 𝐆𝐨 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐭𝐨 𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐥𝐲!

𝐈𝐟 𝐮 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐟𝐚𝐢𝐥𝐬 𝐮, 𝐮 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐭𝐫𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐝 𝐟𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠. 𝐖𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐡 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐬 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐮𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐝𝐬, 𝐬𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐚𝐬 𝐬𝐦𝐨𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐨𝐫 𝐣𝐮𝐢𝐜𝐞𝐬, 𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐬, 𝐭𝐞𝐚, 𝐜𝐨𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐞.

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How to trick your parents/family you at3🥒

First of all,I’m not promoting any ed’s, I am not responsible of anything that happens if this goes wrong. Prioritise your health,and if you’re not feeling well stop any moment. Always look after your body.

Think about your goal. Your parents love you,so they want you to be eating. Well,it doesn’t always work like that. Here are my tips on how to skip that one high c4l me4l..or more.

1. Ask for money to eat out.

Oldest trick in the book. You get closer to your gw,and make money out of it. One of my personal favourites. Let’s say you have to go somewhere in the morning,you skip breakfast telling your parent you’ll pick something on your way.

Works: max twice a week,they’ll say that you have to eat real food and not just takeaway.

2. “I don’t like being watched while I eat”

I love this one. I’m actually pretty awkward when someone’s eating with me. Tell the parent you’re closer with that you feel uncomfortable eating with others,so ask for permission to eat after everyone finishes. Then,you can eat a little,throw away some food,or whatever method you prefer.

Works: pretty much everyday,unless you are in a rush and need to eat with others. Doing this often makes it look more real.

3. Eating in your room

Isn’t this the most obvious one? Do whatever you want to that food if you’re alone. Make sure to bring the “empty” dishes to the kitchen,but not too quick.

Works: max once a week,most parents don’t like the idea of eating in the same room you sleep in

4. Prepare your meals yourself

You don’t have to know much about cooking to make yourself a delicious l0w c4l meal. You can even cook something that won’t raise an eyebrow and then throw it away.

Works: not so often, maybe once in two weeks, you don’t wanna seem obsessed with food

5. Using time in your favour

Let’s say none of these worked. You’re at dinner with your family. You pour yourself a big glass of water. You quickly chug it before starting to eat. You start by cutting every piece of food in small pieces, while talking to your family. As you’re about to put that fork in your mouth, you come up with a new subject. You close your mouth,but don’t take any bite. Use a napkin to throw your food in. Move the food in your plate to make it seem like you ate.

Works: not every time,but worths a shot. Make sure to e4t only when they’re actually looking at you

6. Water bottle method

This one worked so great for me, it’s crazy how it works every time. Get a colored bottle,not the usual transparent one. Make sure the lid is big enough. Empty the bottle and hold it close to you. After every 2-3 bites, “drink” some water. Spit the food inside the bottle. You can hold some of the food in your mouth then spit more out. Everyone fell for it.

Works: anytime, any meal, with anyone. One of my best tips

Hope this helped, and I’ll come up with a part 2 if anyone wants it. Let me know if my tips worked! x

Before you report someone's blog and take away their safe space...

Ed's are the most lonely and isolating illnesses there is. You are accepted only if you're successfully recovering, otherwise you're automatically problematic and promoting. Your body and habits around eating are triggering. You're demonetized for simply having a sickness.

People with ed's will always find their triggers, no matter how hard you try to block, report and all. But the thing is, you have to find these spaces. Closed spaces. If we don't have those, people will take their ed's on TikTok or other platforms where they will eventually pop up to everyone to see. If someone looks for these spaces, they're already sick. No one will GET sick by looking at someone's blogs.

These spaces let's you be honest, vent, have people and friends that all go through same things. You're less lonely. These spaces can be toxic, but when you find the right people it can be uplifting and actually good for your mental health: you're not alone.

These days people are mostly nice and pro recovery. M34nsp0 is something only kids post these days anymore. We connect, we vent, we help each other. Until WE are ready to recover. Forced recovery will never work the same as choosing recovery yourself. Reporting everything makes everything worse: you get isolated again, you're lonely again. Most people who D13 from Ed's d13 from taking their own life... It's the loneliness and depression that takes them eventually.

So if you see someone's Ed page, let them have it. Block it if you find it disturbing, but that can be the only thing keeping them alive atm. Just because YOU feel like it's not good, doesn't give you the right to take that safe space, friends and support from them.

If you need to find it, the sickness is already there. We will take these things to another platforms if these ones gets taken away. And then they will pop up to everyone.

So, our businesses are here, yours is there. The problem comes when you're also there, in our businesses. Protect your peace and block. Thank you.

Eastern was not good. Fuck holidays. But now on track again. One meal every second day.

Happy today. Making food for my family, but didn't eat anything. It was no fight, I simply was not tempted. After a binge Friday a relief

Perfect "eating day" today where I nearly did not eat 😆

Waking up and feeling dedicated and strong. I will fast the whole weekend, at least until Sunday. The goal is as everyday to purge away all superficial and diminish to pureness. But now I know I am not alone with it.

@n@ is for me more than the desire to be pretty. @n@ is for me the deep desire to purge away my body. It is a deep spiritual process for me. It is no 3d, it means liberation and the deep desire to be pure. (I respect ALL motives of you guys here)

Early in the morning, second day fasting. I am happy. I am not alone in that. I feel the warmth of doing it together, living it together. Being less, purging away all superficial, all unecessary. Being pure at the end. Feeling being loved and being able to love.

Today is again a day where the world seems unbearable. My family demanding and preoccupied of their emotions, demanding adaptation to their egocentric needs, the world like a pile of rubbish, people exploiting people, people killing people. I am not depressed, but simply want to become less, being invincible, my body should be halv the body i have now. I want to be a shadow only.