@n@ Is For Me More Than The Desire To Be Pretty. @n@ Is For Me The Deep Desire To Purge Away My Body.

⭐️ving motivation!

Why let a moment of comfort get in the way of your dream,Remeber why you’re doing this.

Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels

I know you crave perfection,

and it’s not built through comfort and giving in its built through pain,hunger,and sacrifice!

Ate yesterday. Kind of binging. But when I think back, things have changed. I ate much less. I was satisfied much earlier. Today I have 800g more, that will disappear again BC I eat one meal every second day. So no bad feelings. 56.7, BMI 21.08 today.

When I am fasting, I wear a bracelet which is locked on place. The key is hidden at home. As long this bracelet is locked, I cannot eat. I wish I had a kind of device (gag?) in my mouth which could be locked preventing eating.

Flu and Ana is a bad combination

Today is again a day where the world seems unbearable. My family demanding and preoccupied of their emotions, demanding adaptation to their egocentric needs, the world like a pile of rubbish, people exploiting people, people killing people. I am not depressed, but simply want to become less, being invincible, my body should be halv the body i have now. I want to be a shadow only.

Dreams are bigger than live. I am dreaming to go fast down in weight, but this will not happen. Real life is step by step. But I go down 1kg a week, sometimes two. I will reach my gw within 8 -20 weeks then. And it is good. Because until then my st3rving will be a habit, not changeable, keeping me there forever.

It is only a change of the mindset. Non-Eating is normal. Eating is - not normal. Pathological. Addiction. Disgusting. Minimal Eating is no joy, but only serves to keep me alive at the absolute edge, the absolute minimum

Not a good morning. I feel that I have no emotional space. All around me demand their space, more decisive and more forceful. I only want to disappear. Which fits fine with my 3d-goals. At least.

i want to have this...

https://newatlas.com/health-wellbeing/dentalslim-weight-loss-lock-mouth-shut/

We're not like them. We're @na butterflies 🦋

- delicate, weightless, untouched by the heaviness of the world. While others sink,

we float. While they feed their cravings, we feed our willpower. We live on empty, on

quiet, on control. Our bodies are fragile, but our minds are sharp. They'll never

understand this beauty — the beauty of bones, the art of fading. We are not broken.

We are becoming. 🦋