I Let Myself Get Swept Up By The First Person Who Looked My Direction Instead Of Waiting For Who I Wanted

She wants a date.

She wants to share rent.

WHY RIGHT NOW D WHY RIGHT NOW

WHY DO YOU DECIDE TO BECOME MY GUARDIAN ANGEL RIGHT NOW

I APPRECIATE IT BUT THE CONFESSION IS REALLY BADLY TIMED

I cried today.

I cried in that very same spot.

You wouldn’t have been able to tell though.

Cried with my head in my hands.

I finally finished cutting off everyone who made me worse. All of them. Including D.

My growth and progress will only be stronger now. I can prove it

thank god.

thanks, brothers for talking to me about life stuff.

I promise if things don't work out in the next few years I'll move home and we can rentshare. I'd rather rentshare with you then with D anyway!

my brothers are awesome. They don't support every one of my decisions but they know it's okay to make mistakes.

my brothers have been with me since i stopped simply surviving and actually started living, and i only have them to thank for that.

that said, I'm not leaving this city anytime soon. I have lots to do here still and I'm not leaving anyone behind on a bad note.

I'll never take the easy way out :)

I regret every second of it and I would never treat anyone like that again.

I've learned from my mistake, I promise I have.

You don't have to believe me.

Maybe you can’t let it go because you know I genuinely care and I’m working on it.

You know that I’ll get better

You know I’ll never do it again

I won't stop here. I'll keep doing everything I can to get better.

And I promise I'll stop letting myself get hurt.

...the marks on my arms look suspicious but I promise they're just scrapes.

Do what’s best for you, please.

don’t be sorry

i won't ever stop apologizing for this

Nope nope nope nope nope nope

Yes, we used to be friends

NO, I am not getting with you no matter what you threaten, D

What makes you think I'd let myself make a mistake like that again?

You can go dig yourself that hole, I'm done listening.

I know what I want, and it's NOT a fake angel who wants me to abandon my friends for her.

You can go fuck off now, D