"Goodnight Bro, See You Tomorrow"
"Goodnight bro, see you tomorrow"
He doesn't understand how much I needed to hear that, to know that he's going to spend time with me willingly. Sometimes it feels like people only talk to me because I initiate, but hearing those simple 5 words made everything feel okay. I feel like I'm back in 8th grade, making plans to go over and hang out in his backyard I feel like I'm free from all my troubles that came later. I'm free from the changes that I never wanted to make and were forced on me by... some bad people.
I feel like the person I want to be again. I feel like I am who I should be and who I would have been if not for all the shit I've went through.
I hope this feeling stays around for a while.
I hope he says those words again tomorrow. "Goodnight bro. See you tomorrow" Goodnight, bro.
I'll be here, enjoying the feelings those words gave me. It will be a good night.
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first vent post/introduction i guess?
So, first things first. I'm Ticking Time Bomb, which originates from my first interaction here, about me being an explosive landmine. I'm not a great person but I'm trying to get better.
I have a bunch of things fucked up with my life.
I kinda messed up some stuff with someone I consider my best friend.
My life is on a rapid decline, but i've pulled it up from rock bottom before.
Brother save me from myself, bring me back to when I was normal.
Please
I won't stop here. I'll keep doing everything I can to get better.
And I promise I'll stop letting myself get hurt.
...the marks on my arms look suspicious but I promise they're just scrapes.
yeah im a jirai, the ladies (and gentlemen) call me the bomb 😔
you're a real fuckin jirai boy, aren't you
take time.
don't leave forever, just...
take time.
i don't want to never be able to see you again so just.
take time.
i will
i will take time.
I'll prove I'm better then him.
I won't take any easy way out like when he tried to.
This is where the parallels end.
I don't think that's pathetic.
Art and dance are a wonderful way to cope.
ngl talking with my brothers brought me so much clarity about my life.
I'm lucky to have what I have now.
I won't take the easy way out, because I promised I wouldn't.
i just need to sleep properly, I'll be a little better in the morning.
I've been getting better every day, I just had a bit of a doom mindset tonight.
Won't happen again though.
I finally finished cutting off everyone who made me worse. All of them. Including D.
My growth and progress will only be stronger now. I can prove it
ooh nice!! what type of exercises do you usually do?
Usually I go for a run or hit the weight room at my school since I don't really have a full workout plan yet! I'm going to get an actual gym membership so I can workout whenever I want, because it's too late to go for a run and i can't access the weight room right now!
So pretty much I'll just do whatever I can without equipment and maybe do what I can with my weights! :D
