I Might Be Stupid And Angry And Cruel And Mean And An Absolute Idiot, But I Care, I Really Do.

Sometimes I feel like crying and curling up and crying more but I know if I let it out it’ll worry people and I still have energy to keep going.

I’m fine everyone I’ll be alright!

I just need to find a period of time to be alone while I break down!

I can’t afford to break down in front of you right now, and if I break down at home my mom will bother me about it.

All I can do is listen to opal! “You’re strong, I know you are!”

I’ll stay strong for all of you! I have time to rest when I’m alone!

Update time!

I ended up taking the role!

I am now the proud voice of Noxiel the Angel! No idea what’s in store for him, but I can’t wait to find out.

This is going to be interesting to say the least!

So… I didn’t eat again today. I know I said I would but I genuinely didn’t have time this morning and I’m out of money to buy lunch.

I’ll eat something at dinner time I promise

God at this rate I’m gonna be more malnourished then that glowing russian twink/ref

I find my body pretty only when I sexualize myself

I'm so gross.

i set off an explosive reaction just now didn't i

I cried today.

I cried in that very same spot.

You wouldn’t have been able to tell though.

Cried with my head in my hands.

I will fix myself this time. This is the last chance I'll give myself. I promise you won't be disappointed. The last thing I'd want would be to let you down now.

I don't blame you for saying no.

I understand.

the person I was wouldn't have been good for you

Bleeding into unbroken shoes feels like a crime. Scraping arms against ledges I shouldn't climb. These are things I should have hidden too. Because all they did was get to you.

...I'm sorry.

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