I Love Phos

I want to be the girl sitting in that chair

Ah so romantic

Sigh

By RedREn_레드렌‏

today it was Wieniawski violin concerto

autism problem #1218

When you have to turn your music up so loud it nearly hurts but its to drown out all the gross feeling sounds from elsewhere

so beautiful

💎✨

good advice

Hey megs, if you do, how do you deal with feeling unproductive? I get sick a lot in the winter and also can’t work as much as others as I’m autistic and I never feel I am doing enough and it’s especially bad when I’m ill (I have poor attendance in college) as I try and do anything but it’s nothing and I’m not even in school. thanks :)

hi! i also struggle a lot with fluctuating health and energy levels, especially where uni and work are concerned. i try to keep myself feeling positive and motivated (and in turn productive) by tricking myself into doing fun but productive things e.g. watching a documentary when at home so that im learning while resting, going to museums to recharge and draw for fun (getting outside and learning while also getting in illustration practice), changing up my environment (healthy habit) by going to a coffee shop to work for a couple of hours instead (or if im not up to working, then to read for an hour), going to the botanic gardens for an hours walk on days when my head feels too foggy and i’m restless, etc.

i also try to be really kind to myself and mindful of my thinking habits. i work really hard to not ‘beat myself up’ mentally- if i don’t do anything at all productive in a day, i dismiss it and instead think “ok well thats happened. what can i do now to better tomorrow?” and though it was really hard at first, it’s definitely gotten easier with time and i’m hugely better off for it. there’s no point dwelling on things that have already happened.

i also try to be mindful of my autistic health (though its a bit harder because alexithymia). i try to be as productive as i can until 5pm, then in the evenings i make time for resting, stimming and engaging in special interests. i find that special interests are really important in helping me feel positive and motivated in general, so relaxing in the evenings helps me to feel much better the following day, and i always prioritise/value this time, no matter how little work i got done in the day etc (i never ‘punish’ myself for not doing well).

if i feel that i’ve had a particularly bad or unproductive day, i tend to sit down with my planner/bullet-journal for a while and just sort of dump my brain out- making lists of priorities and out-standing/unfinished work/tasks. getting it all out onto paper helps me to remember and feel more on top of my to-do list, even if i’m not actually getting /that/ much done. sometimes when i’m doing particularly badly, i’ll rewrite these lists 3 or 4 times a week + it just helps me to feel grounded and aware.

i dont know if any of this will be helpful to you but i hope it is + i wish you the best

i love phose

rest in peace, you brilliant little monkey

A quick search of Stephen Hawking quotes because I wanted to read some of the things he had to teach and some of the words he left behind...

“Intelligence is the ability to adapt to change.”

“The greatest enemy of knowledge is not ignorance, it is the illusion of knowledge.”

“I have noticed even people who claim everything is predestined, and that we can do nothing to change it, look before they cross the road.”

“We are just an advanced breed of monkeys on a minor planet of a very average star. But we can understand the Universe. That makes us something very special.”

“My goal is simple. It is a complete understanding of the universe, why it is as it is and why it exists at all.”

“Life would be tragic if it weren’t funny.”

“I have no idea. People who boast about their IQ are losers.”

“People won’t have time for you if you are always angry or complaining.”

“We only have to look at ourselves to see how intelligent life might develop into something we wouldn’t want to meet.”

“Not only does God play dice, but… he sometimes throws them where they cannot be seen.”

dazzle me dazed

Art G.Shvecova (Design graphics - Pastel Series - Glow Pastel Stars_020418)

executive dysfunction

I am a difficult person for me to manage.