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PSA

i’ve been seeing this post a lot lately:

which means a whole lot of you don’t know the difference between an intrusive thought and an impulsive thought.

intrusive thoughts are a symptom of ocd and many other disorder, they are upsetting and often graphic, they are thoughts you do not want and that scare you, commonly thoughts about doing something violent or about abuse. i suffer from intrusive thoughts, they are triggering and upsetting and yes, dark or about killing people.

an impulse can also be a symptom of a disorder, impulses are not inherently bad and are just your brain telling you to do things with no thought as to why. some can be unpleasant, but they can also be things like “cut all your hair off” or “eat the cardboard”.

please stop saying that intrusive thoughts and impulses are the same thing, you are only adding to the stigma and misunderstanding people with intrusive thoughts face.

thank you.

ironic response: klonopin and seroquel

sincere: the sun and the moon

name two things better than self isolation and the refusal to face reality

autistic culture is being an adult but still having to choose every night which stuffed toy to go to bed with (and ending up with the whole pile because you love them all)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2HsWtZsRHA0&feature=share

Ethiopian singer

same with other special interests

me talking about kpop to my non kpop friends

good advice

Hey megs, if you do, how do you deal with feeling unproductive? I get sick a lot in the winter and also can’t work as much as others as I’m autistic and I never feel I am doing enough and it’s especially bad when I’m ill (I have poor attendance in college) as I try and do anything but it’s nothing and I’m not even in school. thanks :)

hi! i also struggle a lot with fluctuating health and energy levels, especially where uni and work are concerned. i try to keep myself feeling positive and motivated (and in turn productive) by tricking myself into doing fun but productive things e.g. watching a documentary when at home so that im learning while resting, going to museums to recharge and draw for fun (getting outside and learning while also getting in illustration practice), changing up my environment (healthy habit) by going to a coffee shop to work for a couple of hours instead (or if im not up to working, then to read for an hour), going to the botanic gardens for an hours walk on days when my head feels too foggy and i’m restless, etc.

i also try to be really kind to myself and mindful of my thinking habits. i work really hard to not ‘beat myself up’ mentally- if i don’t do anything at all productive in a day, i dismiss it and instead think “ok well thats happened. what can i do now to better tomorrow?” and though it was really hard at first, it’s definitely gotten easier with time and i’m hugely better off for it. there’s no point dwelling on things that have already happened.

i also try to be mindful of my autistic health (though its a bit harder because alexithymia). i try to be as productive as i can until 5pm, then in the evenings i make time for resting, stimming and engaging in special interests. i find that special interests are really important in helping me feel positive and motivated in general, so relaxing in the evenings helps me to feel much better the following day, and i always prioritise/value this time, no matter how little work i got done in the day etc (i never ‘punish’ myself for not doing well).

if i feel that i’ve had a particularly bad or unproductive day, i tend to sit down with my planner/bullet-journal for a while and just sort of dump my brain out- making lists of priorities and out-standing/unfinished work/tasks. getting it all out onto paper helps me to remember and feel more on top of my to-do list, even if i’m not actually getting /that/ much done. sometimes when i’m doing particularly badly, i’ll rewrite these lists 3 or 4 times a week + it just helps me to feel grounded and aware.

i dont know if any of this will be helpful to you but i hope it is + i wish you the best

[Image description: A photograph of a pretty twenty-year-old woman. Her name is Claire Wineland. She wears glasses and also an oxygen canula that fits into her nose, wraps around her ears and fastens under her chin. She has brown hair that reaches down to her shoulders. She is giving us a big smile, showing lots of front teeth. End of image description.]

“We’re the manifestation of some kind of underlying brilliance...”

Claire Wineland lived a beautiful, joyful life while suffering from CF (cystic fibrosis). At the end of August, she received a lung transplant, hoping this might give her a new lease on life. Sadly, she died of a blood clot on September second.

During her life she shared many of her experiences, her sense of humor, and a lot of deep wisdom in her YouTube videos. You should watch them.

Claire Wineland YouTube Channel

 She also started Claire’s Place Foundation, which provides financial and emotional support to families living with CF. If you can, please donate.

Claire’s Place Foundation

Here’s an example of her wisdom from her YouTube video, “What it feels like to die.” In it, she describes her experience of dying, up to the point when she lost consciousness and then was saved by medical intervention. 

Platonic hypnotic

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