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1 week ago

thinking about aaron minyard taking a pharmacology class in med school & getting curious & looking into the experimental medication andrew was put on & finding articles about what it did to the people who took it and how it was deemed unhelpful & searching for any first-hand accounts of what it felt like because he knew he would never get them from andrew (and he would never pry into that, would never dig that up) & talking to katelyn about it because he needs someone to know, needs someone to remind him that it wasn’t his fault and he couldn’t have stopped it, and it can’t be nicky, who would only feel even guiltier than aaron & he gets tickets to andrew’s next game just so he has an excuse to visit him and see him face to face and remind himself that there are no drug-induced smiles anymore


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1 week ago

kevin day collecting homoerotic situationships to go play at the olympics with him one day

1 week ago

Sorry but I'm never going to get over Kevin chewing out the Ravens, revealing that Wymack is his dad, and dropping the "I've never been skiing" bomb on live television in the same interview, and then going "we're all going to die" while hunched over a sink the second he walked off stage. Absolutely hilarious.

1 week ago

neil getting “pipedream” tattooed on his hip, where andrew kisses him

1 week ago

And I would read it and love every second of it.

i want aftg in andrew’s pov but i feel like it would just be “neil neil neil neil, pipe dream, neil neil neil stupid fucking josten 420%” and then irrevocable trauma dumps out of the blue

1 week ago

most book series: same thing repeated for 10 books because the author (/publisher/etc.) wants money

aftg: Nora crashing down from the ceiling announcing spinoffs because the characters are haunting her, then scurrying back into the vents

1 week ago

He’s so pretty omg

Just Let Me Know That You're Mine
Just Let Me Know That You're Mine
Just Let Me Know That You're Mine
Just Let Me Know That You're Mine
Just Let Me Know That You're Mine
Just Let Me Know That You're Mine

just let me know that you're mine

1 week ago

Imagine after ELEVEN YEARS she announces a new spin off series to close out a characters story who was originally supposed to die, and then at 1am on a random Wednesday SAYS SHES WRITING TWO MORE BOOKS AND THEYRE ABOUT KEVIN FUCKING DAY

1 week ago

AND IF YOURE DEADSET ON THE IDEA THAT YOURE ANNOYING THEN KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU FOR IT

I interrupt your regularly scheduled scrolling to remind you: YOU DESERVE LOVE AND YOU'RE NOT ANNOYING!

1 week ago

Kevin saying Jean and him aren’t friends and then immediately sending Jean a postcard and Jean saying ‘I hate him’ and then immediately hanging it up above his desk.

1 week ago

When the day finally came that Jean Moreau and Neil Josten stood side by side on the Olympic court, it was weird. Not for them, of course, they had kept in close contact since the nest and had been looking forward to finally playing on the same team again. It wasn't weird for Kevin or Andrew either, both were used to Jean and Neil's borderline codependent relationship. It wasn't even weird for Jeremy, who got used to the fact that his boyfriend came with a 5 foot three red-haired accessory rather quickly. 

No, it wasn't weird for any of them. It was only weird to the public and the other members of the Olympic team. 

The general public had had years to get used to the dynamic of Kevin Day and Neil Josten. The two had left the nest in rapid succession, and both ended up on the Foxes. While there was much speculation and interview after interview, no one could ever quite grasp their relationship. 

The press and the public got used to silent conversations, exchanged at a glance, to Neil invading Kevin's space to whisper in another language, the taller man not even reacting as he answered with the same expression he'd had before. They got used to Neil being glued to Kevin's side, on the court, on the bench, even in the off-season. 

Then there were the weirder things. Neil was spotted a few times asleep with his head on Kevin's shoulder or lap. None of the Foxes seemed to question this, so the public speculated it must just be due to growing up together. Then there were Kevin's affectionate smiles that were only directed at Neil. And Neil almost always looked to Kevin when he was uncomfortable with interview questions, which was always followed by Kevin stepping in. 

Then there was the sharing.

Food, water bottles, sweat towels, Neil taking Kevin's phone from his pocket whenever Kevin was too distracted to acknowledge Neil's presence, not to mention the countless Paparazzi photos that side by side showed the shared hoodies, T-shirts, and other accessories. The two shared so much in fact that before Neil confirmed his relationship with fellow Fox, Andrew Minyard, most exy fans (for better or worse) had assumed Neil and Kevin were a couple. 

And while Jean had followed Kevin and Neil from the nest not long after they left, he did not join them on the East Coast; instead, he headed to California to join the Trojans there. Kevin and Neil voiced their support of Jean's choice separately and together, praising the Trojans for supporting Jean during his transition from Raven to Trojan. Jean, in turn, spoke affectionately about his former teammates, if rarely, and as the years passed, the fact that the three men had once played together for the Ravens faded to the back of everyone's mind. 

Until Jean joined Neil and Kevin on the Olympic field, and it all came back. 

The odd closeness, the silent conversations, the sharing, whispers in French and other languages, and most familiarly of all, Neil being glued to Jean's side. It was evident on the court, in interviews, on the sidelines. Except this was so much more than Kevin and Neil had ever been. 

The two move together in an uncanny way, as if they were unconsciously linked. Kevin was usually nearby, but Neil and Jean were just different. Their team saw it more than anyone else and agreed it was unsettling. 

Multiple teammates witnessed Jean stealing bites of Neil's food right off the striker's plate, and when asked about it, Neil casually explained he was poisoned once, and sometimes Jean still worries. This led to a conversation about why exactly Jean, essentially being Neil's poison tester, was a good idea, and Neil just shrugged. The chances of there being any poison were basically zero, and if it made Jean feel better, why would Neil stop him? No one knew how to answer that, and Kevin agreed with Neil, so the subject was dropped.

There is so much casual physical contact between the two men that several of their Olympic teammates questioned if Jean and Neil were actually dating each other rather than Andrew and Jeremy. Jean automatically taking Neil's arm to direct him as he walks whenever Neil is wrapped up in whatever he's talking about (usually exy) or casually lying across Neil's lap when they watch a movie. Neil, leaning into Jean's space, or tugging the taller man down to whisper in his ear.

And Jean is clearly in perfect synch with his red-haired shadow, no matter what Neil needs. Neil won't even speak sometimes; he just makes vague noises, and Jean will reach down the coffee tin from the top shelf or shift how he's sitting so Neil can curl up next to him. Kevin sometimes joins them, and sometimes Andrew will, but it's not unusual to find Jean reading with a sleeping Neil curled up against him. And if Neil goes too quiet and Andrew isn't already by his side? Everyone knows to find Jean immediately. 

Jean's care for Neil isn't one-sided, either. Neil can cook three things, and all three dishes are Jean's favorites. He knows Jean's wardrobe better than Jean does and makes sure that if anything needs to be replaced, it is. He can sense when Jean needs a break and will either suggest a walk or suggest they find Jeremy. And if Jeremy isn't around and Jean is upset? Find Neil as fast as possible.

Neil brings Jean out of his shell, and Jean can withstand Neil's rage (rare though it is now). On more than one occasion, Jean simply picked Neil up and carried him away from the opposite team while Neil continued to yell in multiple languages. Usually, Jean takes Neil to the goal and stands guard while Neil has a conversation with Andrew, but sometimes he simply holds Neil in the air until the striker has calmed down.  And despite Neil's fury, not once did he land a hit on Jean. 

(That was something all three former Ravens were very careful about. Anger was never directed at each other, whether that was simply raised voices or more physical frustrations. That wasn't to say they never disagreed. It was just that disagreements were calmly discussed, and the three never argued.)

The team gradually got used to the weird dynamic, collectively deciding that if the boyfriends were okay with it, they could be, too. Until the incident. 

Jean was discussing strategy with the team captain after practice when Neil came up behind him. Their captain nodded in greeting, not surprised that Jean's shadow had shown up, and continued talking. His trailed off mid-sentence, however, when Neil began to climb Jean like a jungle gym! 

And Jean didn't react! He picked up where the captain left off, as if oblivious to the 5-foot-3 man currently climbing up to his shoulders. Actually, that wasn't completely true. Jean unconsciously shifted his weight to keep his balance and put a hand on his hip, giving Neil both a foothold and a handhold as he climbed. Neil settled on Jean's shoulder, and Jean reached up to pat Neil's leg absently. Neil hummed in response, crossing his arms across the top of Jean's head and resting his chin on them. 

It wasn't until their captain didn't answer Jean's question that he realized the man was staring. 

"What's wrong?" Jean asked, mildly concerned. 

"He just... And you... He climbed you like a tree!!" 

Jean chuckled. 

"He does that." 

"Why??" 

"He likes to be tall sometimes," Jean said it as if it was obvious.

"Of course he does," their captain said faintly.

And that was the day the team gave up trying to even attempt to understand Jean and Neil. 

1 week ago

How long does it take someone isolated from other people to go insane? Asking for myself.


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1 week ago

ugh (with want)

1 week ago

Being a bad writer but also being a daydreamer is SO annoying because I'm like "omg how fun I should create that" and then I CAN'T.

Anyway thinking about how Neil never really showed his (covered) scars to the public then when he's pro he gets talked into doing a photoshoot or one of those sexy calendars or whatevs and people get to actually see his scars for the first time. Something something dealing with prying interviewers, rabid fans, et cetera until Andrew kisses it better.

1 week ago

As soon as the brick hit him in the head he picked it up and started whacking people with it. You can’t call that innocent.

"neil is innocent and doesn't know when andrew is flirting with him-"

WRONG ❌

once neil figured out how to play along he was a fucking menace do you not remember this????

1 week ago

I’m literally started a reread today and I was like “omg what? Neil is this bad?” I couldn’t stop laughing

funniest indicator of neil’s exy progression (& his development into his bitch self) is him going from ”nicky and aaron are sooo good! i can’t believe I get to play exy with them!” in tfc to being like ”nicky fucking sucks at exy and if i ever have to see aaron again it will be too soon” in tkm

1 week ago

kevin's pro teammates will never live up to neil josten. kevin lets them know this daily.

1 week ago

Third base is getting stabbed in the stomach and slumping forward with your chin on their shoulder and blood dripping from your mouth

1 week ago

Andrew “your neck fetish is not attractive” Minyard grabbing Neil’s neck every other time they talk

1 week ago

No im actually so for this. This makes my heart happy.

pro exy players kevneil are on the same team but are usually played in different halves of the game, keeping balanced strength across the lineup. reporters had said changes to the lineup were a rumoured possibility that night, but saw nothing unusual in the pre-game practice.

so when kevin and neil walk out onto the court for the first half—side by side—the stands had never been louder.

1 week ago

if aftg happened in the 2020s i just know jeremy would make jean make that tiktok to GUY.exe by superfruit where it goes “six feet tall and super strong”

1 week ago

I, for one, like Roman numerals.

1 week ago

Woke up conventionally attractive & Bisexual again

1 week ago

I can only ever imagine II’s voice with the distortion from the drumeo interview now. That’s just… what he sounds like to me. That’s how he sounds every day.

1 week ago

Ok who painted the broken bone on dews boot

Ok Who Painted The Broken Bone On Dews Boot
1 week ago
Give // Gethesmane
Give // Gethesmane

Give // Gethesmane

Give // Gethesmane
Give // Gethesmane

Sugar // Even In Arcadia

Give // Gethesmane
Give // Gethesmane

Euclid // Caramel

Give // Gethesmane
Give // Gethesmane

Say That You Will // Past Self

Give // Gethesmane
Give // Gethesmane

Like That // Provider

Some parallels/connections I've noticed ✨

Feel free to add on!

1 week ago

Swiss: *walks into the ghoul common room* Sup, heteros? Dewdrop: *stops making out with Aether* The fuck did you just call me?!

1 week ago

andrew and allison would’ve been too powerful if they had gotten along. they would go to the mall together and buy clothes for people who are not themselves that those people do not want and then get back to fox tower to give said people the clothes they do not want along with opinions that they also do not want. they know everyone’s business. they don’t care much about the emotional boundaries of others except yes they do. they’re mean in a way that’s fun if you fw them and very not fun if you don’t. they will be honest if you ask them if your club outfit is ugly. they will also be honest if you don’t ask them if your club outfit is ugly. they have very expensive cars in which they drive people around in silently. they are fueled by spite. they are blonde.

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