Why Does This Make Me Sad LOL

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you ever think about how Mithrun actually spent most of his life as a silver eyed insecure pretty boy with a lot of pent up anger and resentment in that 5’1 body? What was it, like 140-ish years? And how he’s only been in his current state for about 40 years now, which is just a drop in the bucket for elves? But it’s probably felt like an eternity to him.

Do you think he misses his old self? I think he thinks he lacks the ability to care about the past— other than the demon part— and he refuses to admit that he despises his old self but also wants him back. Lord, give him one more chance..

Pt 2

yeah sure i get ayin’s whole thing about angela because of carmen but also LOOK AT HER. SHES LIKE A KITTY. HOW CAN YOU LOOK AT HER AND HATE HER FACE. he might as well be one step off from kicking baby animals for his own entertainment

“Listen kid, this isn’t some fairy-tale where you think every problem is solved because of some shining knight in armor or a bright and happy musical number…Welcome to Real-Life, Sleeping Beauty. Almost all marriages are arranged for money or status, that’s how it works. Besides, if I wanted to marry for love, a woman would have to be around MY age with a full rack, not some flat-chested high-schooler with Insomnia-on-steroids.”

- Kasper to Margarita after she discovers his adultery and motive behind their marriage.

im rereading dunmeshi and this one page really made me stop and think. we know that he could just teleport directly to where her body is and bisect & explode her instantly, and he would be fine. we know he knows he can do that from the bonus comic where he does that. but he doesnt

i think this is a choice and not an oversight. we find out in chapter 94 that this whole time, hes been throwing himself back into dungeon after dungeon - not so much because hes on a true quest for revenge, but because the only thing he has left that he wants in the whole entire world is to finish being eaten by the demon. no wants no needs no desires other than the singular, unstoppable drive to kill the demon or be killed trying. and he really REALLY wants to be killed trying, to the point where at the end, hes disappointed he survived (in not quite so many words, as the chapter tries to maintain some levity, but.)

i think he picks this impractical move that's failed in this exact way before because the act of violence itself is more important to him than success. he doesnt actually want to save the world. he just wants to put himself in that things mouth again

consider this alongside the previous time he tried this maneuver. we never see him carrying any weapons, he always has to improvise a knife even though hes so clearly a knife fighter. i think the canaries dont let him carry sharp objects for a reason

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your average mafuyu but i gave her a fish.

i think part of the reason i love mithrun so muchis that like. his obsession with the demon is so explicitly self destructive.

i mean he literally states that the one desire it left him with after it ate him was for it to finish the job. he felt worthless. less than nothing. leftover crumbs to be thrown away.

just this deeply human story of trauma and how people's reactions and emotions to it vary. i love how human everyone in dungeon meshi is in general. no one is perfect. its just so. ughhh. i love this series.

healing mithrun attack