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i’m reading choices by messermoon right now and i know the ending is going to be unbelievably painful, heck, it already hurts so much right now and i’m only halfway through. but there’s absolutely no way i will stop. i just love the marauders too much. and i just love james and regulus too much. what they have is so fucking beautiful and special. their love for each other is bigger than life. i think that’s why it aches. every scene where they’re with each other, where they’re just happy, sharing a memory and a kiss, makes my chest ache because i know it will end and once it does, it will tear me apart

oh my heart

‘Be my baby’ by the ronettes is giving me happy jegulus vibes

Imagine them in the come and go room dancing to it playing on vinyl. James giving it all he’s got (he’s definitely a bad dancer is a super confident cute way). Regulus laughing at him at first and not joining but eventually giving in and letting James swirl him around cheeks flushed and incandescently happy.

(I know this is not exactly what you described but hopefully it still makes you smile, cause it was such a cute idea that I had to write something :) ) "What in Merlin's name is this," Regulus sits at the edge of the bed, watching James continue to fiddle with the gramophone. "It's Muggle, Sirius found it in your Uncle's stuff," James says, he's grinning when he turns around, which is never good for Regulus. It always makes his stomach all fluttery and his common sense non-existent. "My uncle?" he asks, wary as he watches James approach him. "Mhm, Alphard, apparently he was a real fan of Muggle music."

Regulus opens his mouth and then closes it, not entirely sure what to say to that. He supposes it makes sense, Alphard had always been a bit of a black sheep. He was like Sirius in that way. Except quieter. But then, Regulus isn't sure he's ever met anyone as loud as Sirius. "C'mon," James holds out his hand and Regulus looks down at it and then back up at James's face, eyebrow raised.

"C'mon what?"

"Dance with me."

Regulus snorts. "No." "Reg." "No, I'm not - there's no one here."

"You need an audience?"

Regulus rolls his eyes. "I'm just saying, dancing is something you do at balls and galas, doing it in an empty room is like making small talk with yourself."

James laughs. "God, you're wound so freaking tight."

Regulus glares at him, arms crossing over his chest. None of this deters James who only grins wider.

"Love it when you pout at me, you get these little dimples right here-" he reaches out but Regulus slaps his hand away. "It's adorable," James finishes.

"Call me adorable again and I will end you."

James only smiles. "C'mon Reg, dance with me," the way his voice goes all soft and gooey makes Regulus's resolve waver but he still doesn't get off the bed. He has some self-respect. "And don't you try to tell me you can't because I know you and Sirius took ballet or some shit."

"Ballroom," Regulus corrects petulantly.

"That's good," James says, "because my pirouettes are rubbish."

Regulus arches his brow. "You know ballet Potter?"

"I have snooty parents too," and then, before Regulus can reply: "Come over here Reg, lead me."

Regulus isn't sure why that sends sparks shooting down his spine. But the idea of self-assured James Potter, Quidditch captain, Gryffindor's poster boy, giving Regulus control...He bites his lower lip, seeing heat in James's eyes. "Lead me," James repeats, words barely a whisper, and before Regulus knows what he's doing he's getting off the bed, taking James's hand and his waist, bringing them chest to chest. Bodies not touching but almost.

"Hey," James says softly, breath ghosting across Regulus's cheek.

"This really isn't waltzing music," is all Regulus is capable of saying back, causing James to laugh.

"I'm sure we can make it work."

And so they start moving, James stiff and awkward at first, but picking up the steps quickly enough, because of course he's good at this too. Though for all his talk of being lead James Potter is not a follower and eventually he takes it on himself to start spinning Regulus whenever he feels like it. Once or twice even dipping him down low.

And Regulus lets him. Because he's pathetic. Because he can't help himself. Despite his best efforts he finds himself smiling. Laughing. The pair of them twirling around the empty room. Eventually James pulls him back in, no space between them, James's forehead dropping down to meet Regulus's. "Does this feel like small talk to you?" he asks.

Regulus looks up at him, a little out of breath, cheeks flushed pink and he doesn't bother answering, doesn't want to feed James's ego anymore, so instead he presses up onto his toes and takes his smart mouth. And James groans into it, hand gently holding the back of Regulus's head, the pair slowly beginning to sway.

I'll make you happy, baby, just wait and see For every kiss you give me, I'll give you three Oh, since the day I saw you I have been waiting for you You know I will adore you 'til eternity

this is literally wolfstar.

new ship dynamic called schrodinger’s divorce where characters are simultaneously bitterly divorced and fondly married for twenty years

One of my favourite things about Choices is how thoroughly interwoven jily and jegulus are. they're always present like a lingering shadow but I wish we had seen more of the time inbetween the end of jegulus and the start of Jily. The guilt James must have felt at moving on, despite everything that went down between him and Regulus. the fact that it was with LILY, who regulus always felt insecure about. And when I think about it too much my heart aches.

Because it was truly so insane. Like I think it hit him so hard. because he loved regulus, truly loved him. Regulus had him, unconditionally, with no strings or games, all of him. and all james wanted was for him to love him back more than he hated himself. more than he was scared. to try another path. to not give up. and he had SO much hope for them, that they would work. And in those moments with Regulus he just felt so full and so happy and then Regulus was gone and left this humongous hole in his life and the only person that can fill it is the very person Regulus was always scared was really meant for james.

no thoughts, just... thinking about the way Ekko looks at Powder...

the thing is, jegulus makes perfect sense to me genuinely. And I understand the gripes that people have with it, so i'm going to try and outline my thought process. i could talk about how good of a ship this is for HOURS.

• Regulus and James would have constantly been in each other's orbit at Hogwarts. Think about it. They're both on the Hogwarts quidditch teams (regardless of if jenes was a seeker or chaser ik it's up for debate) we all know how serious James Potter took quidditch. they would've been marking each other in games, taking notes of tactics etcetc. Plus with Sirius being James' best friend he would've been even more acutely aware of Regulus, like come on. If nothing else, then because of the arguments the black brothers would get into at hogwarts. And the stories Sirius would tell him in their first few years at Hogwarts, because hello, before Sirius went to Hogwarts who was his closest ally? who did he survive an abusive home life with? REGULUS. so james knew of him, DEFINITELY was introduced to him on the hogwarts express during second year (before slyhtherin sorting).

• James being Sirius' best friend and ultimately in Regulus' eyes, the person who replaced him as Sirius' best friend. He would've resented him, because before him and Sirius fell apart, they were all each other had and SUDDENLY sirius has this other rock, this but that he admires so much. You're telling me he wouldn't be raging at being replaced? On high alert of awareness, not only for his brother that he was steadily losing but on his best friend who replaced him???? the tension?? hello?? And once they got to know each other and he has that "oh so this is what he saw in you. oh wow" Moment??

•James potter, sunshine reincarnate, who believed in others even when it came to his own detriment would 100% try to save regulus. Believe he could. A lot of people say this doesn't fit James' character because he "wouldn't lie to his friends" But I think you guys are putting him in a box. I think he's just as capable of keeping a secret as anyone else. Especially when he thinks it's for a bigger purpose.

•I love the idea of a love greater than Regulus' loyalties to his families being what inspired him to take the horcrux. Like The symmetry of both Black brothers being guided by James into the light?? That his love saves them both in different ways?? How is it not the perfect ship.

Enemies to lovers, grumpy x sunshine, regulus falling first but james falling harder, the COMPLICATED nature of it. how much of this is vindictiveness towards sirius and trying to take something away from him, of reclaiming and how much is just pure admiration for someone so good and selfless? How much is this about James' saviour complex? You anti jegulus people are not seeing the bigger picture.

ALSO HOW IS IT ANY DIFFERENT TO DRARRY??? Its the PERFECT foil to drarry. Because this truly is a world where history repeats itself. Pressured into the dark arts by his family's expectations but couldn't stomach pushing through when it actually came down to it? And his beautiful sunshine boyfriend who embodies the GOOD in the world despite everything. Give me 10 more of it right now.

did i finish season 2 of arcane or did season 2 of arcane finish me. What the fuck did I just experience what the actual fuck

definitely don't read it and protect your peace. i absolutely loved choices and it makes sense that in a canon compliant world he somehow has to be able to move on from regulus. but ohmygod. the love they had was so magical and beautiful and seamless and then it crashed and then boom hes with lily. AND ITS ALL WRITTEN SO WELL THAT LIKE. THE WRITING WAS ON THE WALL BUT U ARE STILL FLABBERGASTED. I was clawing at my chest praying for death to just take me honestly.

One of my favourite things about Choices is how thoroughly interwoven jily and jegulus are. they're always present like a lingering shadow but I wish we had seen more of the time inbetween the end of jegulus and the start of Jily. The guilt James must have felt at moving on, despite everything that went down between him and Regulus. the fact that it was with LILY, who regulus always felt insecure about. And when I think about it too much my heart aches.

Because it was truly so insane. Like I think it hit him so hard. because he loved regulus, truly loved him. Regulus had him, unconditionally, with no strings or games, all of him. and all james wanted was for him to love him back more than he hated himself. more than he was scared. to try another path. to not give up. and he had SO much hope for them, that they would work. And in those moments with Regulus he just felt so full and so happy and then Regulus was gone and left this humongous hole in his life and the only person that can fill it is the very person Regulus was always scared was really meant for james.

“All the reminders of the boy he couldn’t save” I think it’d actually be less painful if someone just stabbed me in the chest

they're so precious to me

Study session

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