mayarbaby

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“Your eyes are far too pretty to be wet by those who didn’t realize what they had.”

- a.m. {they don’t deserve you}

“i realize now, that loving him was neither beautiful nor poetic; it was knowingly walking through hell every day and losing myself there.”

- a.m. {trying to love someone who is too broken to be fixed}

i tore myself apart, trying to give you the whole world. and when i returned - bloodied, exhausted and proud - somehow, for you it still wasn't enough.

-a.m. {will i ever be?}

sometimes, i wonder if i'd pushed myself just a little harder in the past, i would have held onto something meaningful by now.

- a.m. {they never last}

why do i have to feel if all i've felt is hurt.

- i'm stuck in a mess that i made for myself

“the thing about liking someone, is that anybody else can like them too.

and it kinda sucks when you know you’re only an option.”

A.M. {and even more when it's not you}

“it's happening again.

my eyes are searching the room for you, without even meaning to.

the twinge in my heart when a day passes and i didn't get to hear your voice.

i feel it creeping up my neck, when our eyes lock and neither of us dares to look away.

the ache i get at the end of the day when i regret not having the guts to talk to you.

it's happening again,

but how will it end this time?”

A.M. {it's just a crush, it's just a crush, it's just a crush}

“I have fallen in love too fast for this to be anything but fate.”

A.M. {as always}

“Oh, but you don’t know. You don’t know what your ocean eyes and innocent smile could do to a girl like me; A girl who overthinks every little thing.”

A.M. {hope}

“You aren't even mine, but I still love you like you are.”

A.M. {unrequitedly}

“I will never fall in love with him,” my mind vows.

And then my heart murmured, “My dear, when will you realize you already have?”

A.M. {you can’t fool your own heart}

“i'm growing real tired of pretending i'm not in love with you.”

A.M. {can you see me?}

“it wasn’t until you smiled that my stomach twitched with a feeling i knew all too well, and suddenly all i could think was, “oh crap.””

- A.M. {why did it have to be you?}

“how do you expect me to remember how to breathe when you’re looking at me like that?”

- A.M. {you}

“i have a tendency to fall in love with people i already know will end up breaking my heart,

yet i still hope one of them will prove me wrong.”

- A.M. {just one}

i want to feel the tingles of electricity shoot up my arm when you touch my hand; a simple act, that holds so much meaning. i want to feel the flutter my heart makes in its cage, as my name rolls off your tongue; the way you make it sound as if it’s the most beautiful word. i want my head to spin as the world around us begins to fade away, the moment your lips gently press onto mine; each passionate kiss carved into my memory. i want the love that causes a shiver throughout my body at the mere thought of you; the one that will soon make me fall apart without you. but, here i am, sitting alone in a crowded room, wondering if i’ll ever experience a type of love as ultimately consuming as that.

A.R. {the type you read about in novels}

any trace of you is burned into the back of my mind with the pen i used to write our love story

A.R. {all six hundred and thirty pages}

I’d love nothing more than to hold your heart in my hands, to finally have something good in my life. But I can’t. For I’m too afraid that with one touch, your light will disappear and you’ll fade away; Because I’ve learned that everything I love always leaves me broken, in the dark.

A.R.

in too deep

your blue eyes always resembled a stormy sea;

the kind with strong waves crashing against the jagged rocks below,

the kind of waters that people put up warning signs for

the kind that dares for only the bravest of the brave to jump into

and by the time they found me, i was already addicted to drowning

- no one could save me from you

a.r.

our little secret

let’s hide under the covers of stolen glances and goofy faces,

the uncontrollable laughter and obvious admiration,

while we endlessly argue the fact that we are not in love

- to my ‘almost’

a.r.

free

there are days where i can dream,

where your ghost doesn’t come back to haunt me,

days where i can find my own type of love and peace within myself,

and almost every sharp, broken piece of you has faded away with time.

those are the days i live for.

those are the days i can finally breathe.

- to all the toxic people i’ve endured

a.r.

unrequited

little did he know he had captured the heart of a girl who fell for the words he was writing to someone else

- oh heart, why this one

a.r.

ballad

my heart clenches every time i read a poem he dedicates to the beautiful rose girl

whilst i sit here with broken, ink stained fingers, continuously writing about a boy who will never write a sentence for the plain daisy girl

- is it love or envy

a.r.

fate

do you ever wonder that your soulmate could be in the same room as you

and you wouldn’t even know until the universe finally decides to intertwine your paths

- just a thought

a.r.

haunted

your ghost

still leaves kisses

on my cheek to

make sure

i never

forget you

a.r.