My Blouse Is Stained

Call out to me

When you’re ready I'll be there

Waiting for you

Till we meet again, my love.

I’m falling again

I’m falling again

I’m falling again

Where do I go?

Where do I stand?

I find it hard to convey how I feel till this day

I can't think without thinking of you

You’re so hard to understand

Can’t begin to comprehend

What I’d do to have you

Pain is so easy to feel

Just bite your tongue

And don't spill the truth that burdens you

cries you to sleep

Just don’t let the blood seep

through your teeth when you smile

The secretary movie is an awakening.

𝐀𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐋 𝐈𝐒 𝐆𝐎𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐓𝐎 𝐁𝐄 𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐒𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐍𝐈𝐄𝐒𝐓 𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐇! 𝐑𝐄𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐆 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐆𝐎𝐎𝐃 𝐋𝐔𝐂𝐊 🎀🍽️

I'm just a fucked up girl who’s looking for my own peace of mind. Don't assign me yours.

Endless mornings and endless nights

I wake after they bite i wonder will I ever wake up before daylight

Endless commotion, I'm filled to the brim with emotion

I'm still asleep they have so much devotion

Ruptured vein I'm blood-stained

The truth is like blood under your fingernails

I'm awake.

I pierce my tongue through the night

Muffling my tears with my palm firm on my lips

Desperate to be kissed

My racing heart beating out of my chest

It’s starting all over again

I try to be quiet

Excuse myself to the bathroom

Not yet alone the walls echo

I’m tired

Staring blankly at the tiled walls

I slumber to the floor in defeat

I’m inpatient

But I believe one day you’ll come to me

And I’ll come to you

But for now I’ll pray for you

My Muse

You were right in front of me all along

How could I miss such a pretty face?

I'm sorry it took so long to look your way

Maybe you just weren't meant for me

I'm sorry my heart belongs to the moon

I'm waiting patiently for him

I'll pray till my knees are bruised

Till my eyes can no longer cry

Till my eyes are dry

Till my love comes to me

Till my heart is no longer in pain

Till my prayers are filled with love and joy

Till my fleeting mind can stay still and feel at home

Till my body no longer rocks me to sleep

Till my heart no longer cries me to sleep

When will you come to me?

I love you so much already it hurts

Please make the pain go away

I need you to come get me out right now

I need you to come wrap me up in your love now

I want to leave the feelings of reckless and abandoned

Tragic yet magic

My heart is a muscle but it’s not getting stronger

I want to wake up one day without my heart sinking to my feet

Instead with you in my arms

With your laugh tickling my brain

With each breath you take I steal a kiss

With each exhale in my lungs

Till I'm filled with every fibre of your being

I want you to devour me

I want to devour you

Subtle yet achingly obvious

My love for you is endless

Hopeless romantic girlies ✨

Oh, how badly I want to curse you for everything you’ve done to me. But I can’t… You were supposed to be someone who protected me and covered my ears and eyes from the evil in the world. Instead, you were my nightmares. I still cry myself to sleep. All my memories of you are clouded, dark, grey, and hazy, yet it feels like it happened yesterday. I hate you, but I so badly want to love you. It kills me to know that I'll never have that with you. I honestly believe you hated me ever since I was a child. I feel pathetic. I've just spent the whole night crying. I never know when to let go. A couple of months ago, I broke down crying in front of you while you sat there emotionless, and it looked honestly like you were forcing yourself to cry. Crocodile tears. You never fail to make it about you. I told you I almost ended myself, and you acted like I was telling a joke. You never deserved me. You never loved me.