You Were Right In Front Of Me All Along

I can't stop crying. I cry, cry, cry and cry untill my eyes are sore but you're never a bore. So I'll cry till dawn and pray to god on my knees to answer my call. For you, my love. Please, be mine.

Dear Guardian Angel,

My gums are bleeding

I still haven't eaten

Do you pity me?

Please don't

I do this to myself

I self sabotage when things get better and act like it's the end of the world

I dug my own grave

Do you feel anything at all…

You were assigned to me

I'm sorry

My observer

For all the things you've seen

For all my thoughts you hear

For all the words I utter

And still I hope you can see that this is not truly me

I am is whatever I've seen on tv

I'm a chameleon

I put on a new mask and change it when it cracks

I'm lost

Who am I?

I’m gone

Or am I just done

Sitting with my thoughts alone

In this empty home

Father ignores and mothers on the other side of the world

I'm sure you already know

I mean you know me better than me

Stuck in my apocalypse

Hollow, dark, empty, incomplete, disguised, loveless

Distorted with the painful echo of my screams and cries.

Begging for an escape from my capturer

Me.

I’m not scared of loving you; I’m just scared of losing you.

I fall in love with the little things, like the sound of your laugh; it makes me feel so warm inside.

The face of love had me crying my eyes out 😭😭😭

At times, I'm allowed to be not okay, and my feelings are as significant as anyone else's. But why do I keep punishing myself for feeling this way?

…..is there an escape? Is there somewhere?

-An Open Diary

I always come back to you

You're stuck in my head

and I can't get you out of it

I can never stray away

You know I always go back to you

I go back to you

I go back to you

You're stuck in my heart

And I can't get you out of it

I can never seem to catch a break

I'm yours to take

You know I always go back to you

I go back to you

I go back to you

I know it's forward but its true

I'll always go back to you

Took you like a shot, thought that I could chase

You with a cold evening.

Let a couple years water down

how I'm feeling about you

You could break my heart in two

But when it heals it beats for you

I know it's forward but its true

I wanna hold you when I'm not supposed to

You're stuck in my head

and I can't get you out of it

If I could do it all again

I know I'd go back to you

You know my thoughts are

running loose

It's just a thing you make me do

And I could fight but what’s the use

Won't lie, I'd go back to you.

My moon.

Somehow, I still love you more.