Latest Posts by iambusysblog - Page 7

please don’t get tired of me. i’m trying my best

Tumblr is a place to confess our unsaid feelings

reassurance is so important to me, let me know what i mean to you.

with you, i’m the happiest

i never faked my love and care to someone

i’m matured enough to understand that i have some toxic traits too

Love in the way you don't want anything in return

Love in the way you just want to be there

That day when I told you about my school days..how miserable I felt when the friends that I called mine neglected and sidelined me..how broken I was to believe them as my friends..how stupid I felt to trust them. How my whole academic years in school was a total hell and the pain I suffered was unimaginable for my younger self to handle at such a tender age...yet I passed through all these difficult phases of my life without sharing it with anyone..or trying to unburden myself from these trashy truths that never left me alone even during good days. I shared all these with the hope that at least you could understand the pain I endured during those shitty days of my life. I felt so relieved that I do have you in my life who's ready to offer a ear to all the agony I had to go through silently. For a second I was relieved thinking that no more teary nights..coz I hav you to share my tiniest problems with you.. for a second I thought..I am not alone . I HAVE YOU to listen and understand me inside out.

I was happy, yk!! Until you just flipped the coin. Until you u used my feelings as ur weapon to attack against me , blame me for being in a certain way and not attracting friends. All of a sudden, i realized that I was wrong about you... you weren't empathomizing with me, rather just sympathizing. I was an utter fool to believe that you would always be there for me.

I lost it...and it's so disappointing that you're no longer the person I loved deeply . I always felt that you would get me more than my parents ever could . I could never hate you because I do love you for being a good human being to others. I no longer wanna keep any kind of close connection with you..but you are so old to handle such a coldness from me.

I don't wanna be like you..nor I wanna hurt you, I will be there for you even if I lost trust in you💔

No man should bring children into the world who are unwilling to understand and willing to expect .

“Don’t let Negative and Toxic people rent space in your head.”

— Zig Ziglar

“look for friendships and relationships that actually makes you grow, look for bright people, positive people, supportive people, you don’t need any toxic shit in your life.”

— Unknown

“I’ve always loved the idea of not being what people expect me to be.”

— Dita Von Teese

“A healthy relationship is where two independent people just make a deal that they will help the other person be the best version of themselves.”

— Unknown

“Just in case you ever foolishly forget; I’m never not thinking of you.”

— Virginia Woolf, Selected Diaries

“Comparing yourself to others is an act of violence against your authentic self.”

— Iyanla Vanzant

So, what I'm doing is actually dealing with pain or hardship or change. I don't wanna run from this feeling. I am running towards it, running within myself. Getting to know my mind, body, and soul. Healing from inside

Well the question is "why are you sad when you get home??"

People say, stop thinking about things that pains you. It's your time at home with your parents, enjoy , have fun, spend time with them.

Well I am sorry , I tried but I can't. I ain't that person even after several trials. I am not trying anymore .

I am home. In my space where I can breathe , I can talk without people judging me. I am alone with my vulnerable self. I am sad, trying to feel my pain.

I am feeling things deeply. If I am going through something that is uncomfortable or painful or hard, I am allowing myself to dive into those emotions or allow myself to numb them. I don't wanna kill my pain through television or spending time with friends or Instagram. I chose not to protect myself from pain because it demands to be felt . Pain demands to be felt . Coz I feel it will show up in other ways if I do not deal with it now.

The moment I set foot in my home ,there is a smooth switch in my mood. Instead of seeing me happy, you can find a dull face sitting in the corner of my dark room.

I try to isolate myself from people not knowing why. I give myself space and time to deal with some suppressed feelings that I had locked up in my mind with chains so that it doesn't bother me. I am somedays confused about my personality. I believe I'm a person who can not hide my true emotions. You can see my numb face if I'm sad, or you can see me excited and thrilled and talkative if I'm happy. I am open, and there's nothing to hide. I'm extremely bad at smiling when I am broken inside. People say women are good at hiding emotions. Well, I'm not one of those women.

“The sun watches what I do. But the moon knows all my secrets.”

— Unknown

“‘You’re going to be happy’ said life ‘but first I’ll make you strong.’”

— Unknown

“It’s so hard to leave- until you leave. And then it is the easiest goddamned thing in the world.”

— John Green; Paper Towns

“Don’t allow someone to treat you poorly just because you love them.”

— Unknown

“Just being there for someone can sometimes bring hope when all seems hopeless.”

— Dave G. Llewellyn

Everything happens for a reason

No matter what happen think positively

Leave what isn’t good for you

Can't wait for my friends to find the love and happiness they deserve.

Sometimes, losing people helps you find yourself.

I CAN ,I CAN ,I CAN, I CAN,

I CAN DO IT

You’re still important to me, with or without conversation.