“Just In Case You Ever Foolishly Forget; I’m Never Not Thinking Of You.”

I am not selfless and i don't want to be it

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“Do you ever miss yourself? The person you were before you had your first heartbreak or before you got betrayed by a person you trusted?”

— Unknown

My inner child.. she used to be a quiet girl.. nobody talked to her..she had no friends.. she used to be alone..she talked very little..she is scared of her mom. But her adult version is different.. She got really amazing friends. She loves talking she loves to meet new ppl. She likes to do a lot of things. I think the inner child version is activated after that attack and now she has controlled my mind and body ..she is not willing to mingle. I, as an adult, am now scared of situations that once scared my inner child.

A girl who has all that she wants is sad. Why? If you ask so..there may be reasons or maybe not . Let's not question it, Let her stay the way she wants, be happy or sad , stay the way your heart feels like.

There will always be an invisible bridge between us

A hope , a feeling of optimism or a wish for something to happen. But here I am in disbelief that the thing I was yearning for years won't come true..

Fear of being judged by my own thereby begetting intense and impending danger portraying the evil in me

I know it hurts but I believe that these gestural expressions gives me hope of things that won't come true.. which also puts me into vivid grief..

Feels like I am enclosed within the walls of hell

But I do realize that I have a spiritual bond with the almighty which makes me an angel trapped in inferno

IN A WORLD FULL OF CHAOS,

I am looking for PEACE 🕊

That day when I told you about my school days..how miserable I felt when the friends that I called mine neglected and sidelined me..how broken I was to believe them as my friends..how stupid I felt to trust them. How my whole academic years in school was a total hell and the pain I suffered was unimaginable for my younger self to handle at such a tender age...yet I passed through all these difficult phases of my life without sharing it with anyone..or trying to unburden myself from these trashy truths that never left me alone even during good days. I shared all these with the hope that at least you could understand the pain I endured during those shitty days of my life. I felt so relieved that I do have you in my life who's ready to offer a ear to all the agony I had to go through silently. For a second I was relieved thinking that no more teary nights..coz I hav you to share my tiniest problems with you.. for a second I thought..I am not alone . I HAVE YOU to listen and understand me inside out.

I was happy, yk!! Until you just flipped the coin. Until you u used my feelings as ur weapon to attack against me , blame me for being in a certain way and not attracting friends. All of a sudden, i realized that I was wrong about you... you weren't empathomizing with me, rather just sympathizing. I was an utter fool to believe that you would always be there for me.

I lost it...and it's so disappointing that you're no longer the person I loved deeply . I always felt that you would get me more than my parents ever could . I could never hate you because I do love you for being a good human being to others. I no longer wanna keep any kind of close connection with you..but you are so old to handle such a coldness from me.

I don't wanna be like you..nor I wanna hurt you, I will be there for you even if I lost trust in you💔

“Comparing yourself to others is an act of violence against your authentic self.”

— Iyanla Vanzant

please don’t let the darkness overcome you, because your Shams is on his way and will reach you soon.