Realizing That I Can ALWAYS Lock In, Even If I'm 1000 Cals Deep In A Binge I Can Put The Food Down And

I love the sun I love sunny stuff this is the most beautiful time of the year and I'm so here for it

STATS??

Well let's just say I'm not overweight but I'm quite definitely not underweight yet 😭 and so I don't feel comfortable sharing that until I've reached at least one gw sorry

I'm going to get my height measured tomorrow

I always use a number I think is lower than I actually am when calculating my BMI and such, but at this point, I don't know my real height, but I'm pretty sure it's higher than I think it is at the moment, anyway. Because my shorter friends say they're as tall as me in numbers, but, well, I am definitely physically taller, so.... yeah, Ig I hope for the best lol

I mean, that's actually quite accurate lol

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tag game thing

hehe saw my friend do this on twitter and I wanted to do it because I thought it was cute so thought I might try and do a little tag game thing. Don’t expect this to really go anywhere but join in if u want.

Here’s the website

No pressure tag:

@gilmorenights

At this point, I'm not even trying to quit cutting properly

I only quit because of the swimming classes at school I have to take, but I don't fucking care anymore, as long as I don't do it a couple of days ahead it's fine

I never wanted to stop for myself and I guess I won't then, just maybe lower, well, the amount a little

I relapsed into sh again, after having been clean for about 15 days

Usually I manage to go about a month clean before urges get too bad

And I did my arm for the first time (I usually only do my legs)

So yeah

I only quit because I have to take swimming classes at school and they're the absolute worst

The next few days are going to be incredibly busy for me, but that's awesome because I'll literally won't have time to eat :D

I'm not going to try and fast though, because I will need the energy

It started today with me having to stay at school until 6pm (🥲) because of choir practice, tomorrow I'll have to leave almost right after school to play at a concert (I know I'll barely have time to change and maybe practice the pieces one last time)

And on Saturday I'll have singing stuff from 8am to 4pm

Both crying and laughing right now because I know I'll be DRAINED when all this is over, but I won't be around my parents to watch me eat, I won't be at home with all the binge food and I'll probably be to busy to even think about eating anything, hopefully

As I mentioned though, I will be having dinner, because it's the only time I'll be around my parents and I will really need that energy

Bought these protein bars today

I'm planning to have one for breakfast each day next week, because I need to fucking stop binging once I get home from school and maybe eating something before school will help