I'm Going To Get My Height Measured Tomorrow

no sentence fills me with utter loathing so much as "i asked chatgpt"

I just baked a cake for my Dad's birthday tomorrow

I haven't baked anything in a very long time and I was just remembering how I used to love eating the batter

Not anymore though

I really hope I will get around actually having to eat it, I think I'll just say I'll take a piece to school with me maybe

the way I keep eating like a pig like wow goddamn bro do you even want to be skinny

Got logged out of my EA account today and I can't remember my passwords (plus the email address I used is inactive now). Guess even my computer thinks I should stop fucking procrastinating and WORK because there's literally nothing fun I can do anymore besides that now that I can't play Sims anymore (cuz it's too late for music and I have an injury that flares up sometimes and it's huuurts right now, so I can't even work out and my friend is not responding even though we wanted to call this evening)

I really love math and physics actually

wdym just staring at the document won't get me any work done

parents brought home huge apples today

And they're really fucking red and have I mentioned just how large they are?

Goodness

Now I WOULD definitely OMAD a bottle of wine

Tw: Talk of self harm, vent

So, we got this new girl in our class and she doesn't bother hiding her scars - they're all over her arms and look like they were quite deep and I don't know if I'm wrong or being an asshole for feeling like this, but a while ago I kind of told a friend of mine that I used to cut (I told her "used to" so she wouldn't actively worry and at that time, I was really trying to quit) and now we have to take these stupid swimming classes - and don't get me wrong, I'm actually glad I don't have these permanent bright pink scars (I have some which are like dents in my skin, but mostly mine are white or light pink) and I schedule when I do cut in a way they'll be as healed as possible for the next swimming period - and I just feel like such an attention-seeking crybaby now for having told my friend without even looking like it's bad - heck, maybe she didn't even notice at all, because she hasn't said a word to me about it!

And I feel so bad for feeling somewhat, well, competitive towards that girl in a way, because I didn't start off for attention at all and now the last thing I want is to be discovered probably, but I guess I'm just really worried about what my other friend thinks of me now, but I can impossibly bring it up to her-

It's just really something else when you see something on the internet, sometimes even as "motivation", than seeing it in real life.