Latest Posts by chaoticnightmarekitty - Page 5

How I look scrolling thru the same three apps and rotting in bed all day everyday

Me when i see a notification from him:

Ok I'm sorry but if I see one more story labeled x reader and when I go to read it your fugly ass OC named 'nicole' or 'bridget' are in there IM GONNA LOSE MY FUCKING MIND! THAT IS NOT X READER! I know some of you could say "well just switch it out with your name"

NO I WILL NOT! ITS ABOUT THE PRINCIPLE OF FALSE ADVERTISING! STOP IT!

Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk

And if you are one of the people that does this... I will find you and it will not be pretty

No hate to you if your name is nicole or bridget those re just examples

Eyes of the forest. Aspen trees

i hate how avoidant i be, ugh. the only way to fix it is to follow through but i dead just dont be wanting to be bothered or talk to ppl sometimes, even the ppl i love. what is that about? bc i damn sure be feeling like an outsider or not understood by most ppl 90% of the time.

My roommates get suspiciously more talkative after I leave the room

I sure hope this doesn't reinforce any negative self thoughts~!

GUESS WHAT? IT'S TIME FOR A WEIRD METAPHOR TO EXPLAIN HOW I FEEL!!!

The only way I can explain it is this:

I'm in a cage. I built it, I put myself here (perhaps through the coaxing of others, but I was the one to step in). I know it like the back of my hand. Like my own street. I was the one who locked myself in and only I have the key to leave. It's in my hand.

It was kinda nice at first. To sit alone and bathe in my own misery, watching people pass by and never come towards the door. But now I hate it.

"So?" You ask, "why don't you just unlock the door and leave? The option is there."

I can't.

I tremble towards the lock, sometimes I'll even unlock it. But the door stays closed. I will lock it again. And again. And again. And again. And then I'll scurry back to the corner of the cage like a frightened dog, tail in-between my legs.

And nobody cares if I came out. They don't visit. They don't acknowledge or ask why. They won't even spare a glance. I'll be the same person I always was. And the cage will still lie in wait for the next time. The only person who encourages me to leave is a woman who sees many cages, she even unlocked the door from her side and held it open for me. But I remain here.

If I go, I'll be in a world that I watched develop from my corner of my cage, but never really had a part in. Especially before. Especially now. Things I won't understand and people who won't want me. And I'll miss it.

So, I'll just stay here. Until I rot. Perhaps leaving the door open, but always never stepping out.

about to crash out

i want attention, im bored, i don't know what i want, im bored, i want attention, i want friends, i want to go places, im stuck in the same place, every day is the same, why are they not responding, i sense something is wrong, this always happens, we always drift a part, im tired, i want to delete everything, what is the point of this.

January 1, 2025 - A stray dog in Petea receives applause for being the first to cross the newly visa-free border between Hungary and Romania, as Romania joins the Schengen area.

no matter what your most embarrassing moment in life is, at least it’s not having fucking chat gpt write fanfic for you bc you’re too lazy to do it yourself

bring back tumblr ask culture let me. bother you with questions and statements

I HATE yanblr because I'm so JEALOUS. I wanna be the person people write their twisted obsessive posts about. I want to be the person they're obsessing over. I want to be the person people are devoted to. I want to be the person people desperately need to be around. It should be ME. These posts should be about ME!!! I want to be LOVED!!! But I don't feel loved until I'm not someone's obsession... Never enough.. never enough love

jirai media recommendations (feel free 2 suggest more)

some r still ongoing btw

-Young Adult Matters

movie (2021)

tw: sh, substance abuse, bullying, violence, gore, prostitution, death, sa, homelessness, sexual content, abuse, profanity, unwanted pregnancy (prob more im forgetting)

-Tomorrow I’m gonna be someone’s girlfriend

manga (2019-2024) and tv show (2022-2023)

tw: sh, profanity, sexual content, violence, substance abuse (again prob more im forgetting)

-Kairiki Bear

musician

song suggestions: darling dance, bug, failure girl, villain

-Isana

musician

song suggestions: Menhera Janai Mon!, Loved Smoothie

-Sensitive Boy

manga (2022-2024)

tw: sexual themes, sa, sh, violence (prob more i still need 2 read it ngl)

-Sentimental Death Loop

video game (2023)

tw: death, partial nudity, sexual themes, profanity, sh, suicide, violence, gore,

-Needy Streamer Overload

game (2022)

tw: sh, sexual themes, violence, substance abuse, blood, profanity, death, cults, vomiting (prob more that im forgetting)

-Strawberry Painkiller

musician

song suggestions: Bloodsucking Dreams, Grave Skull, Thousand Knives, Sugar Truth, Pharmakeia

-Candye Syrup

musician

song suggestions: idol of death, sweet suicide, C♡S.I.S

-Hookah Haze

game (2024)

tw: death, terminal illness, stalking, substance abuse (its just hookah im pretty sure but still gonna include the warning lmao)

-Magical Girl Site

anime (2018) and manga (2014-2019)

tw: bullying, violence, suicide, abuse, blood (prob more i havent finished it)

feel free 2 suggest more! out of all of these i suggest young adult matters, kairiki bear, nso, and strawberry painkiller the most!

Jirai/Menhera/Girly songs for my mentally ill bitches part 1/2

YouTube

♡Music for the mentally ill♡

If you feel sad at least you have this playlist

Link^^^

GUYS GUYS GUYS CHAT JIRAI YURI GAME INCOMING JIRAI YURI GAME INCOMING WAHHHH (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

IT'LL BE RELEASED ON ITCH.IO

I'm so normal w games that let me pretend im loved

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me n who (I can be both)

" hmmm i wonder why im always poor "

*spends money whenever i feel upset*

*spends money whenever i feel upset*

*spends money whenever i feel upset*

*spends money whenever i feel upset*

*spends money whe

It's a lot healthier to go for a daily walk than to sign up for a gym membership you won't be using because you hate that kind of exercise. It's a lot healthier to eat a frozen meal than to skip a meal because you were too tired to cook something healthy. It's a lot healthier to take a quick shower than to procrastinate an elaborate routine for days. Don't aim so high that you won't be hitting anything!

survived checking my bank account. i deserve a little treat

I still think it’s objectively fucked how the world is built for morning people and if you wake up later than everyone else you’re seen as a malicious aberration of some sort. I am that but it’s not because I wake up at 11 fuck yourself

Listen, if a Bad President can come in and take away our rights and we're dependent on a Good President replacing them in four years to give us back our rights, then we do not have any rights.

If politicians can take or distribute them, then they're not "inalienable" and they're not "rights."

We don't have inalienable rights we have conditional privileges, divvied out according to the whims of whoever currently holds the reins.

And if we want to have actual rights, then we must build a system in which no one has the power to take them away to begin with.

*scrolls* *giggles* *presses reblog* *scrolls* "literally me" *presses reblog* *scrolls *reads intensely* "oh thats so sad op. thats so real though." *presses reblog* *scrolls* "omg thats so cute!" *presses reblog*