Tw Bpd Vent

it’s hard to hate someone when you can remember what it was like to love them. I wish I could erase all memories of you from my mind.

Get out of my head! Get out!

I wanna talk to you so badly but then why does every conversation with you taste bitter and make me feel sick

Nobody talks about how hard it is to face people again after you've had an episode in front of them

Once they've seen you do full-force into self-destruct, they always look at you with a sense of wariness and like you're not the person they thought you were

The shame makes me want to rip my skin off

might be a bit sensitive but it annoys the shit out of me when people throw the word anxiety around and don’t really mean it. Like when something annoys them and they say “it gives me anxiety”. No. Because you are not having anxiety okay having anxiety is when after you make any and every decision your chest gets tight and you feel sick to your stomach and immediately regret that decision and your head starts going ekekwkfbwijdfhjwdnfnidksjdfjsknddj. it’s like a clamp around your head. It’s not synonymous with disliking something.

my mind flickers to the thought of him and her just conversing….him not thinking about me at all. I just. I don’t want to be thinking like this.

i hate myself

Bpd culture is your fp talking to someone else and you feel so incredibly unloved and abandoned

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