every time someone's interested in me it's some kind of toxic dependant manipulative bitch
and every time i'm interested in someone they send me mixed signals until i die in tears and confusion
i spend my time telling my 'friends' that i have a lot of free time and i'd love to spend time with them and hang out and all
and then i spend my time seeing new posts on my feed where they're all together having parties or even just hanging out at one of their houses and they're all happy, saying how cool it is to be all together
and no one told me about it, no one thought about inviting me, no one remembers my very existence, and they won't mind talking about it while i'm here, it's just completely normal for them to cut me off their lives whenever they want to and pretend they don't mean it
showed up in class with fresh cuts on my throat from the mental breakdown i had yesterday when i skipped class and one of my classmates laughed and said 'lmao did a cat do this?' but like really first degree and i remained silent and she was like 'ok..' and we've been sitting here awkwardly for 15min now
i keep having nightmares where he comes back and finds me and hurts me and no one tries to help me
Proving a point to Dolores Umbridge
just logged out of instagram and i told people i was feeling out of place, i'm always left behind
and i know i'm gonna receive a lot of dms like 'hey you know i'm here for you' and all and i know they mean it but i don't need fake people that show up when i tell them i'm giving up, i need real people that can see i'm just falling apart and all i need is some real and honest company, a word, a smile, a look, anything
James: Who ate my leftovers?!
Sirius: Who ate my brother’s ass?
James, blushing: ...Okay. *Leaves quickly*
if you don’t think this is modern romance you’re a fool
i’m sorry i might be wrong but.. he sends me memes 🥺👉👈
he/him • • • 'zwischen den welten bin ich gefangen' -th • • • not living, barely surviving • • • insta: @whatsmyname.rolko
95 posts