Non Zero Sum Game - Blog Posts

My favorite Non Zero Sum Game TikTok edits at the moment:

This is so sad. I hope she gets better soon 🙏❤️

I wish I was able to help him...💔

....

Now, I finally get what the novel readers meant.... poor Haewon 💔

The audacity this bitch has 😤

You deserve to burn in hell forever 🤬🔥

They almost look like a normal couple....I wish they were 😔

The eyes, brother...the eyes don't lie.

... but then, the reality hits you like a lightning 🥹

P.S.: This man....if only he was aware of his own feelings and a little normal, damn it, everything would be different 😤😭

When I feel some kind of negative emotion, I like to occupy my mind with toxic psychological stories that I have already read before. For example, something like Non Zero Sum Game, Killing Stalking, and Unchanged Man.

The reason is that when I read these stories, when I see the disgusting things that happened to the MC and despite that feel nothing, because the initial shock and disgust are already gone and now tge disgust is bearable, I have the feeling that I regain my power and no matter what is happening in the real life, I am still strong enough to stand it and go through it alive. That's why I love dark psychological stories with romance in it.

The last Alien Stage video and the ignoring of Ivan's Adoption Day made me so angry, disappointed and sad that now I will occupy my mind with Non Zero Sum Game to feel better.

And it is already happening because look at these cool TikTok edits I found of them 😎

Haa, life is good when you are feeling happy.

Am I the only one who sees the similarity ( only in their appearance ) 😳

No wonder that after Non Zero Sum, I had the desire to reread BJ Alex! 🤯

I had a moment of inspiration today and ended up creating this:

1. Oh! I think someone fell in love

2. but he never found a way to express it properly 😔

Non Zero Sum Game - 59 ch.

1. Go Taegyum likes Haewon. I mean, truly and sincerely....but this mf is in complete denial of it...Even if he hits his head in a sign where literally is written: "Go Taegyum, you like Yoon Haewon", he won't believe it. And the reason for this is simple: Go Taegyum's big ego, which refuses to accept the fact that he fell in love with the person he pityfied whole his life....It's literally that simple. And this is why I think Taegyum's actions in 58 ch. weren't a product just of his guilt [ about the fact that he was the reason which caused Haewon to went through this hell ] but also because he genuinely felt the need to help Haewon because he couldn't stand to see for first hand how Haewon's condition become worse and worse with every new day...

2. Haeyoung is scaring me. When I look at his face, I have the feeling that I am staring at the materialized version of literal madness. And this makes me feel very uncomfortable... This person is literally uncapable of feeling or at least understands what empathy is. That's why he is dangerous to outhers, especially Haewon, who Haeyoung views as his own possession, which nobody else [ Go Taegyum, Haewoon or anybody else ] should ever touch. He sees Haewon as an object, not a living being but just some soulless toy, which is only his own. That's so sad.

Compared to him, Go Taegyum, at least, still realize that Haewon has a soul and feelings, even if it is not in the normal way, we all wanna see. That's the major difference between Taegyum and others two, by the way. But, again, this doesn't justify his actions in the first season at all!!

3. I am scared of what will happen to Haewon in the next chapter. He will go through hell, again, by the hands of the very person with whom he is mend to end up at the end of this story..

Non Zero Sum Game - 58 ch.

I don't know what to think about Taegyum. One part of me starts to hate him for the way he treats Haewon, for the fact that he left Haewon alone with that bastard Hyunwoo in 56 ch. and of course for the fact that he started the whole torture....The other part, though, thinks that Taegyum actually likes Haewon in real romantic way but for some unknown [ at least for me ] reason he 1. is completely unaware of this fact and 2. has no idea what a normal relationship looks like... That's why he is so pissed off with Haewon every single time when Yoon rejects him, like, for example, in that scene in the restaurant in 58 ch.. For me, this unawareness of Taegyum is the only explanation for his strange behavior and outbursts of anger every time when Haewon silently  rejects  Taegyum's attempts to show some really vague sign of affection towards him.

But maybe all of this is just my own delusion with which I am trying to justify Taegyum's unforgivable actions towards Haewon.. Because there is also a third part inside of me who thinks that if Taegyum really has been feeling deep down in his heart some vague and a little broken kind of sincer romantic affection towards Haewon,  he won't want to share him with the other two bastards.  Though it's possible at that time in the villa, Taegyum  not to be aware at all about this desires which he has towards Haewon....but maybe I am wrong....I don't know...

This story is so complicated and so messed up that it's almost impossible for only manhwa readers to understand her real meaning...Unfortunately,  the original Korean novel is not translated in English yet....which is sad because I really wanna know what the heck is going on in these three fuckers' heads 😤

The only thing that makes me keep reading it is Haewon....I admire him so much because he is so strong. Yes, all the stuffs through which he goes are disgusting, traumatizing and unforgivable but the fact that even though these brutal events seriously messed up him physically and emotionally, he still finds will to fight and continue living his life...If I were in his position, hah babe, I would've been taken my life a looong time ago...

I both hate and like Taegyum because he's the only one of the three who still has some sanity left in him. That doesn't mean that I justify his actions or that I forgave him. No!! He is still a grapist who deserves to be in jail for all the trauma he caused to Haewon.

Haeyoung and Haewoo, on the other hand, are really crazy. These two lost any connections with the reality. Both of them deserve to be locked in madhouse!

Someone: How you found out Haunted Addeline? Me: Oh, I just watched a random TikTok video.

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Someone: How you found out about Non Zero Sum? Me: Oh, I just watched a random TikTok video.

That random TikTok video.

P.S. that day changed my life forever 🥹

This picture ⬇️

and this song

will forever be connected in my mind. 🩶

Isn't it ironic, though? I can stand scenes of brutal rape and abuse like those in Non Zero Sum and Unchanged Man, but at the same time, I feel triggered by these scenes with normal characters' interactions like those in Cherry Magic? In other words, I can stand stories who are supposed to be not normal, but I can't go through stuffs which are supposed to be normal....I am okay with not normal stuffs and triggered by the normal ones.....